Chapter 19

Kursk

I stared at Sirin's sleeping face. Her long lashes fanned her flushed cheeks while her plump lips parted deliciously. Nakaupo ako sa sahig habang sinisipat nang maigi ang babaeng nagpasigaw ng ilang beses sa akin kanina.

Inihilig ko ang ulo ko habang ngumingisi na parang baliw. Who cares? It's not like someone can see me smirking like an idiot.

Remembering what happened between Sirin and I hours ago made the organ in my chest beat wildly. I could still feel the excitement I felt while throbbing inside her tight core. Oh fuck! The feeling was surreal!

Yes, it's been too long since I last had sex but I couldn't compare those trivial fucks I had with different kind of girls to what I felt with what I did with Sirin. It felt otherworldly amazing.

I sound like a virgin woman who had her first fuck but that's what I'm fucking feeling right now. No, not the woman part for fuck's sake. You know if fucking someone is this great, I might not have gone celibate for years now.

In addition, I'm not a loud sexual partner during sex but Sirin's tight pussy just brought the cussing lustful animal inside me. I couldn't believe I actually screamed many times.

Nasapo ko ang noo ko at napatingin kay Sirin.

Did she mind when I talked dirty?

Natawa ako. Of course, she wouldn't mind. This woman is actually so wild in bed. She was a virgin but she took me as if it was so easy! I'm eight inches long for fuck's sake!

Now that I think about it, she's really unbelievable!

Hmm, but her dirty talk is really enough to send me over the edge. I liked it so damn much. I felt so lucky meeting her.

She can be an innocent lamb who'll turn into a sexy vixen in mere seconds.

Naalala ko ang tanong niya sa akin kanina habang marahas na umindayog sa ibabaw ko, pinipilit ipasok ang kahabaan ko sa makipot niyang pagkababae.

Who's innocent now?

She seductively asked me. Oh this dangerously beautiful woman... She'll always be innocent to me.

I wondered when she'll not be sore anymore then shook my head. No matter how great she felt like, I wouldn't push her or force her to do it with me again. I'm even mad to think that I don't deserve to be her first because she's too good to be claimed by someone like me.

Oh fuck. I should stop overthinking. This is so gay! What's this woman doing to me?!

I've imagined her to be so good to taste but not like this.

It felt like—

It felt like what Kursk?

I inhaled sharply.

It felt like I don't ever want to let her go.

Fuck, what?!

Muntik ko nang masapak ang sarili ko kung hindi lang tumunog ang isang hindi pamilyar na ringtone.

For fuck's sake, it's heavy metal!

Agad nahanap ng tenga ko ang pinanggalingan ng tunog at nakitang mula ito sa drawer ng isa sa mga side table ni Sirin. I reluctantly went to it to stop it from ringing. Baka magising si Sirin.

Pagka-open sa drawer, tumambad sa akin ang pagkarami-raming phones. Kumunot ang noo ko bago dinampot ang tumutunog na white camera phone.

A name flashed on the screen and I almost cussed loudly because of it.

Russian Cutie #2 slash 8.5 inches

Holy fuck! Sino 'to?! At bakit ganito ang contact name?! Tangina.

Nanggalaiti kong sinagot ang tawag at nahigit ang sariling hininga nang marinig ang isang pamilyar na boses.

"Rini! Pretty, please... I have a problem. Can you help me out?" a heavily accented voice said in Russian. My brows knitted together. "You know that agent you told me about, that new one—"

"Dnipropetrovsk," mariin kong banggit sa pangalan ng boss ko.

"Oh, Kursk?" takang tanong ng boses. "Where's Rini?"

"Here, sleeping," I deadpanned and gritted my teeth. "Why does she have your private number?"

"That's because we're friends." He made it seem like it was the most ordinary thing in the world. "Why'd you ask?"

"Are you seriously asking me that?!" I jeered in anger. "What the fuck does a Russian Assassination Organization's boss have to do with a 25-year old innocent Filipina?!"

"What's wrong with that?" kalmanteng tanong ng walanghiya kong boss. "We grew up together."

"Don't give me that shit."

I heard Sirin moan so I immediately looked at her. Nakita kong unti-unting napamulat ang kanyang mata. Her half closed eyes found mine and she smiled.

I stood there as I watched her slowly get up from the bed and sat, her wavy hair flowed like a pale golden river behind her.

"Hmm?" She blinked a few times as she yawned and gruffly combed her hair with her fingers. Sumimangot siya nang kaunti nang sumabit ang mga daliri niya sa buhok niya at agad ding ngumiti nang nasuklay niya ito nang tuluyan. Tumingin ito sa akin at nakita kong bahagyang pumula ang kanyang mga pisngi.

Fuck. I'll get used to that adorable blush.

"Kursk, man?" sabi ni Dnipropetrovsk sa kabilang linya kaya napakurap ako ng ilang beses.

"Oh, is that Dim?" sabi ni Sirin at natatawang tumayo bago lumapit sa akin. I was shocked to hear her say our boss's codename in the agency. "Dim, you should call when I'm not sleeping, you moron," she said in Russian so my mouth parted in a surprise.

"Hey, why are you even sleeping in the middle of the day? And why is Kursk there? Did you two—"

"Say it and I'll fly to Russia and give you something you can think about," pagbabanta ni Sirin habang Russian pa rin ang gamit at ngumiti. "And so? Why did my joyous old pal call me?"

Tumawa si Dnipropetrovsk at nagsalita.

"It's the newest agent you recommended to me, Rini. The guy is so hard-headed you could hardly talk to him normally. The other agents aren't even in good terms with him. Can I kill the guy?" he said gloomily and sighed. "Or should I just train him myself? The other agents told me that they couldn't handle him."

"Dim, I wouldn't even recommend him if he's not good. Train him yourself and you'll find out," sabi ni Rini at nagbuntong-hininga. "And tell me the real reason why you called, you moron."

My boss chuckled and happily shouted.

"Happy birthday!" Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at tiningnan ang reaksyon ni Sirin. She too was shocked. "You probably didn't forget, did you?"

Kumunot ang noo ko.

"T-Thank you, Dim," nakangiting sabi ni Sirin at nakita kong nangilid ang luha sa kanyang mga mata. "Happy birthday, as well moron."

"Whooh," my boss said and I heard him sniff. "I'm actually expecting a gift from you, you know."

Sirin laughed.

"Of course you are!" sabi niya at ngumisi. "I'll send you a present, Dim. Don't worry, you moron."

"I'll send you a present too!" masiglang sabi ng walanghiya at tumawa. "A box of condoms for Kursk and you!"

And the line went off.

"Ugh," Sirin groaned in frustration but still smiled. "That moron..." She looked up at me and questioned. "Why are you in my room?" Hindi ako nakasagot agad kaya tipid na lang siyang ngumiti at kinuha ang phone mula sa kamay ko. "Sorry you have to hear our nonsense." At binalik niya sa drawer ang phone.

"How did you know Dnipropetrovsk?" The words slipped from my mouth before I could think. Sirin stared at me before she went back to the bed and sat.

"We grew up together," simple niyang sabi. My eyes widened. She's not lying! "You really didn't read my personal information like what you said over the phone last night," tila naaliw niyang dagdag. "I grew up in Russia with Dim."

Lumapit ako sa kanya at napatitig.

"You know his line of work?" I asked, testing if she knows he's someone who could kill someone without batting an eyelash.

"Of course!" nakangiting sabi ni Sirin. "Why wouldn't I know?" she asked and laughed. "Kakarinig mo lang sa amin na nag-usap tungkol sa agency, Kursk."

I groaned.

"It doesn't bother you?" tanong ko at napangiwi. "That he kills people? That he murders people?"

Nakita kong nawala bigla ang ngiti sa mga labi ni Sirin at malamig akong tinitigan. Her gaze were like icicles that pierced inside me.

"Tell me, Kursk. Why should it bother me?" Tila nanlamig ako nang marinig iyon mula sa kanya at hindi na nakapagsalita. She then sighed and stood up. "Forget it, I'm hungry," sabi lang niya at tinalikuran ko. Paika-ika siyang naglakad kaya wala sa sarili akong napalapit sa kanya at napahawak sa kanyang bewang bago siya pinangko. Binuhat ko siya at tinitigan ang kanyang gulat na mga mata. Her lovely smile slowly came back again so I smirked in satisfaction. "This is why I want you," she giggled and reached out for my face. Kumapit siya sa balikat ko at binigyan ako ng magaang halik sa labi. "Now, carry me to the kitchen, my sexy bodyguard!" sigaw niya at tinuro ang labas ng kwarto.

I laughed.

"Yes, milady." And thank you for that sweet kiss, Sirin.

I smiled as I watched her smile.

It woke something inside me.

...

Hinain ko ang nilagang baka at nilagay ito sa malaking bowl. Hindi ko napigilang lumingon kay Sirin na masayang naglalagay ng kubyertos sa kitchen counter.

I'd kill for a moment like this to remain forever.

Ugh. So gay, Kursk.

Tumaas ang sulok ng labi ko nang makitang hindi pa rin siya komportableng maglakad nang hindi umiika. I'm so proud of myself.

Naglakad ako at nilagay ang bowl sa kitchen counter pagkatapos ay naupo sa high stool na katabi ng sa kanya. I thought I would carry her to sit on the stool but she actually managed to climb. Well, she winced a few times but I didn't want to destroy the determination in her eyes to climb on the stool herself. Especially, to see the successful smirk she wears when she does something great.

Was I paying too much attention to what she's doing?

"Let's eat?" tanong ko sa kanya nang tinitigan lang niya ang mga pagkain sa kanyang harapan. She looked at me as if I'm the most outrageous person on Earth so I furrowed my brows and asked, "Hindi mo gusto ang mga niluto ko? Do you want me to cook more or should I cook something else you want to eat today?"

"You're really taking that birthday thing seriously," sabi niya at tumawa. "It's not my real birthday, Kursk. It's just some marked date in my life. Why are we even celebrating?" Wala namang sarkasmo sa boses niya pero parang nasaktan ako.

I gave it my all on cooking all these Filipino dishes. Adobo. Sinigang. Pansit. Caldereta. Mechado. Kare-kare. Nilagang baka.

"So what?" masungit kong sabi at umiwas ng tingin. Parang gusto kong magmaktol dahil hindi man lang niya na-appreciate ang effort ko. "Ano na man kung gusto kong mag-celebrate?" sabi ko at umalis sa high stool bago siya tinalikuran. "Happy birthday na lang. Tsk."

"Hey, wait," sabi nito at mabilis na nahuli ang braso ko. Her grip tightened so I looked back at her. This ungrateful woman has the audacity to smile at me.

"What?" I scrunched up my nose in irritation.

"Thank you, Kursk," she said softly. Pinigilan kong mapangiti na parang baliw. She tugged my arm towards her so I followed. Tiningnan niya ako nang mabuti kaya parang uminit ang tenga ko. "Listen, baby." I bit my lip to stop a grin from breaking out. "I'm sorry you misunderstood. I'm really happy because you did this for me. It's just that..." she sighed. "Hindi ako sanay na may kasama."

Tumalim ang tingin ko sa kanya. Tangina. Hindi sanay?

"Should I leave?" asar kong tanong.

"No," sabi niya at dumausdos ang dalawa niyang kamay para hawakan ang mga palad ko. Suddenly, I thought about my callused palms and tried to pull away but she held me tighter. Damn. "I just want to say thank you for making this day special, for making a memory worthy to remember."

"Ang drama mo," I blurted out and immediately regretted it when she looked hurt. "I mean..."

"No, that's okay. It's true. I'm so dramatic about everything." Tumingin bigla ito sa malayo habang unti-unting lumungkot ang kanyang mga mata. "Maybe because I'm not used to having this warmth."

"Warmth?" tanong ko sa kanya. "I'm warm?"

Ngumiti ito nang malungkot. Hindi ko alam kung bakit parang bumulusok pababa ang pakiramdam kong kasiyahan kanina dahil sa kalungkutan niya.

"Tell me, Kursk. Do you miss Russia?"

"Yes," sabi ko na lang kahit naguguluhan ako sa inaakto niya.

"Hmm." Natigilan ako nang lumuwag ang hawak niya sa mga kamay ko at titingnan sana ang mata niya pero tumalikod na siya at unti-unti akong binitawan. "I see. Kain na tayo, Kursk."

I didn't know why the moment she turned her back, I felt the sun went down.

No, I don't miss Russia.

It's cold there.

And here beside you...

I smiled sadly.

It feels warm, even just for a while.