{Darryl's POV:}

It was 1 am, but because I couldn't sleep I was thinking of starting stream on YouTube.
And so I did.

<Hello my muffins, welcome to the stream!!!
I know it's a bit late at night, but I wanted to do something special with you all. Since we are soon hitting 1mil subscribers, I decided to do an Q&A!!>

After I said that, chat was spamming like crazy!!
I never saw my fans write literary essays of questions!!

¦    After 1 hour     ¦

I was getting a little bit bored of some questions but then something unexpected happened

(this is a random username)

-Night_fox donated 5$

Hey Bad, this might sound silly but, why are you always wearing long sleeves??
It's literally summer!!!

...
I was reading the donation at least 3 times. I was debating in myself if I should let my emotions out, or should I just lie to them.

-I went for the second option

< Oh, I'm wearing a long sleeves because it's cold in my room, don't worry about me guys!! >

I shouldn't said those last 5 words.

But what's worst is that I didn't realize every my YT (YouTube), buddy (Skeppy, Dream, Georgenotfound, Sapnap), were watching my stream, and I didn't know it until they started spamming me in the chat. I quickly said my goodbye to the people who were watching me and I turned off the stream. God, I feel like an idiot now. Then my twitter notifications started ringing like crazy!!
Everyone was tweeting about some of my answers on stream.
I quickly realized what I've done...
I hope they didn't notice anything weird about me or I'll gonna literally have a mental breakdown in front of them..
After reading some of the tweets I turned off my phone and went to the bathroom..

Little trigger warning:
-mention of self harm

(you already probably know what happened there...)

After 20 minutes :

My cuts started stinging like crazy, and I couldn't even rest for 5 minutes without wincing in pain. After I realized I surely won't sleep today, I went to the fridge and grabbed energy drink. I went back to my room and I started my pc, running minecraft on it. I logged in my server and started fixing some things that Skeppy broke from his last prank.
I didn't even realize that I worked on a server for more than 2 hours now. I grabbed my phone and turned it on to see what's the time. It was 6AM.
I was shocked how time fly fast without even realizing it. Holy muffin.
I still didn't turn wifi on my phone because I wasn't ready for notifications (from twitter and, YouTube).
So I quickly turned off my phone. So I won't get distracted until I finish the server.

(hope you enjoyed first chapter of this book!!
If you want me to continue write in the comments!!)

  ~end of the chapter 1~