hi . haha. how are you all ?

i think i sound so awkward . well , nonetheless . lol

uhm , idk if this will sound positive , but i will try to hahahaha .

so . . . in the past few months , i thought i'd be fine . i learned how to be happy , contented , and blessed .

and a week ago , i lost myself again .

it's not that im sad , or may be i am XD or nawt . idk . but i feel so disappointed , dissatisfied , ugly , disgusting as a shit , filthy as a trash , garbage , fool , dumb idiotic bitch , ugly again , ugly again and again hahahahaha .

i thought that imma welcome 2020 with a bright smile , bc ever since the previous years , im a little bit sad hahaha but yah , still fine . im still living and im getting fine hahahaha . i've adapted to this pThetic life , anyway

well , hahahahhaa anyway again XD

also , it's 2020 and im thinking about new year's resolutions hahahahaha. just see this

and im gonna list em , either way :

1 . work less , stress less

2 . more improvement to my resting bitch face hahahaha

that's all . well , i should be writing a new update for my story called The Hide and Seek Game , bc three years ago - exactly new year - i wrote that story hahaha

and again , that would be all . cheers to 2020 💕