I was basically on full shut down mode yet I could feel the swaying of a body and arms around me which means someone was carrying me, but the question was who?

I peeked my eyes open to see who it was and guess who?

It was Derek carrying me. There were two questions though that I was trying to figure out the answers to:

1) where was I?
And
2) where was he taking me?

He must of thought I was still asleep since he layed me as gently as he could in a car that I thought was his, then covered me up with what felt like a jacket or blanket.
I didn't know nor cared because I was freezing. The good thing though is whatever he covered me up with, I could immediately feel the warmth spreading through, warming me up physically and mentally.

After making sure I was securely in and I guess safe? He shut the door and strode over to the other side, the drivers side. Hopping in, cranking up the car and pulling out of the parking lot of the library.

I closed my eyes Agian, falling quickly into oblivion, my dream world....

When I opened my eyes for what seemed the third or fourth time, we were parked outside my house. Derek was currently pulling me into his arms as if I weighed nothing at all and of course I shut my eyes real quick like.

Hey! I don't want to get caught, but don't judge. I am really sleepy and I also like his arms around me. I felt safe, at home. Like nothing could hurt me as long as he was there.
Which was weird right? How could I quickly feel and think these things?

He continued on, oblivious to the the battle going on in my mind. He knocked on the door and was greeted by mom.

She must of been surprised until Derek spoke," I'm sorry miss, but Serenity here fell asleep and I thought I would bring her home. I didn't want to wake her." I swear I could hear a smile and some sort of unnameable emotion in his voice.

My mom must of heard it to because she smiled a soft knowing smile and said," Of course, please come in. Her bedroom is up the stairs down the hall and it's the third door on your right."

"Thank you"

" your welcome."

And with that he carried me all the way to my room and layed me down as gently as possible on my bed. I could feel his gaze...
Gazing, as if he were trying to understand.

I kept my eyes shut.

After a few moments, I heard his soft sigh and felt something maby his lips? press against mine. So soft and gentle ..

like air.

After that he got up and headed out the door, but before he left I heard him murmur so soft, like a whisper in the wind,
"I wish you knew, if only you knew." Before finally cutting out the lights and closing the door behind his retreating figure.

I layed there in the dark .

Thinking.

What did he want me to know? And why did he say he wished I knew, if only I knew? What did he mean..?

I sighed a heavy sigh then put my phone on charge and changed in my pajamas.

Heading back to bed, I had a million question,

a million thoughts running through my mind.