from the animated film: Perfect Blue

  
  
in the depths of my heart, i choose the path of ignorance over knowing everything. it is easier to feign innocence than to bear the weight of knowledge.

  
it is preferable to be a stranger, detached and unknown, rather than pretending to be unfamiliar with someone i care about. i'd rather wear a mask of detachment and appear not to care than reveal the depths of my agony by means of explanation.

          
so i continue to play pretend, to shield my vulnerability from prying eyes, and hope that one day, the truth will find its way to the surface, setting me free from this charade of emotional concealment.

        
nonetheless, inside this delicate dance of deception, i yearn for understanding, for someone to see through the façade and offer comfort without the need of words. for, sometimes it is not the explanation that heals, but the presence of compassion and empathy that helps fix the internal fractures.

|free verse|
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