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Bathed in the moon light, a cool night breeze and soft as silk,
Beyond the pale horizon swept over my thin and ashen cheek.
Waves roar upon the shore where the water meets the land,
Sun rose catching shadows of bare footprints in the sand
Slowly washed by rain and filling with water as raindrops fell,
Breakers failing to erase the nightmare which I can never tell.

Drowning in my thoughts, finding answers in my silence,
On a crowded train of memories, musing over far-off horizons,
Anguishes making a print in my body and all fears to rise,
Tears turning into clouds painting the stormy grey skies.
Perpetual pain starting to fuzz my edges of awareness,
The hurt deeply ingrained and yet you take this careless.
Looking away in silence recounting the weeks of darkness,
Frozen heart, burned soul crashing through the madness.
Dark uncharted wonds, like stones thrown into the ocean,
You'll never know how deep they go, the bond now broken...

Walking inside memories trying to close the gaps of the past,
Being at war with myself, still lost and fading away too fast.
Betrayed by time, years are hiding like a thief behind me,
Stealing away the smiling faces, tears flowing into the sea.

I can't hear the love anymore, pain's too loud and I'm afraid,
With every nerve crying out as though million cuts are made.
Feigning it's alright while my heart screams silently in pain,
Is everything just a mistake, or time making a fool of me again?

You killed the colors in my world, now I'm lost outside the picture,
Where memories will disappear, they'll slowly fade and flicker.
Swallowed by darkness, dank and tired heart wrapped in chains,
Since I cannot outrun my demons, I'd better learn their names.

Feeling forgotten I am now a ghost, you look right through me...
Drugged by pain my life changed, for you've never truly knew me.
Enough lies buried inside fog, just a painful farewell trip to take,
Rejecting your fake promises and facing the jaws of a heartbreak,
Thin wavering voice broke the stillness with no hesitation,
Whispering quietly the brutal pain of ultimate separation.

Haunting air of regret hanging over the head and near the brink,
Thinking renunciation with anguish so keen making you shrink,
While cowering behind canny silent hugs and cheap laughs,
Making leaving look so easy and hoping never to cross paths.

We all have some bad chapters, but our story can end well,
In hopes that soon the wounds will scab, still only time will tell.
Finding the strength to turn the page and use this old pain,
Change it from enemy to best friend and find yourself again,
Navigating unfamiliar territory that we may not understand,
To reach the places where we need to be, with our life in hand.

♡ "A paradox worth embracing: I am complete but not finished..." ♡