I held onto Zak's hand tightly, my eyes not leaving his face for a second. My head was a mess as I stressed out watching him in the hospital bed.

"When you wake up, you are in so much trouble." I whispered causing his nurse to smile at my admission whilst she checked his vitals.

Only a few hours earlier we were all happy go lucky, rolling around in bed before Avari woke up. Giggling and laughing at each other whilst we wrestled to get to the shower first after another explosive love making session.

We had sat together for breakfast, spoke about our days, Zak left to take Avari to school whilst I did some cleaning adding he was going to swing by the museum for a few hours.

What I didn't expect to do was end up in the hospital!

Because as I was cleaning this morning, I had stumbled across a letter, seeing his name, I naturally put it in a pile of his letters and went to move on until the word family caught my eye. So I snooped and lucky I did because today, under the radar and without me knowing. Zak had been in for his operation, and I was pissed!

Not because he had it done. But because he didn't tell me a single thing.

A twitch in his hand caused hope to build in my chest and my heart to stop momentarily.

"He's waking up." The nurse informed me as I looked at her for some answers.

Swallowing, I pulled the chair even closer, not letting go of his hand for a second.

The hazel and storm mix eyes opened up to the ceiling before he blinked looking down at his hand which I was holding.

"Lettie." He whispered.

I clutched his hand tighter as he pulled a tired smile and fell back to sleep on me.

"The anaesthesia takes a while to wear off, he may not make much sense." The nurse added before leaving us alone.

"Finally." I muttered, kicking off my shoes and climbing on the bed to hold him and stroke his hair. Right now he was vulnerable, so my ass whooping would have to wait.

A hearty yawn left Zak's body making me turn from the window to look over at him.

Making my way over I poured some water and placed the straw inside before helping him drink some.

"Thank you." He croaked when I placed it back down.

"What the hell were you thinking?" I whispered quietly sitting down to take his hand again.

"What? What's up?" He asked looking around him.

"What's wrong? What's wrong? My partner going under and me not knowing a damn thing! You could have died in surgery and I would have been none the wiser sat at home waiting for you to come back!" I snapped before looking away with tears burning in my eyes.

"Hey. Hey hey no. Don't cry."

"I'm so mad at you right now."

"You said you didn't want to know.."

"About the appointment! Surgery is a given! You should have told me instantly! I found out by some letter." I answered wiping my cheeks.

His hand pulled on my wrist making me look over to him. "Sorry."

I shook my head "No I am. Jesus Zak, you hate anything like this and I didn't have the slightest idea. I'm useless." I stressed.

"I covered it well."

"Well not that well, I would have noticed when you didn't come home tonight."

"It's day surgery. I would have been home for dinner." He replied wincing as he moved his legs.

My bottom lip trembled seeing him in pain "I'm still mad at you. Like forever mad at you, but all I want to do is hold you and maybe have a cry."

"Hormonal?" He joked.

"Shut up, it's you isn't it? Whenever something happens to you I'm all up in arms."

"Come here then." He whispered patting the bed.

Shaking my head I saw the pained look on his face "I'm scared to, in case I hurt you."

He smiled "I think that's covered with some kind of dressing. Either that or I have a third ball. Please?"

I climbed back on the bed beside him getting closer than I had been earlier and held him tightly.

"I scared you huh?"

"No." I mumbled hiding my face from him.

"Yeah, I did, I'm sorry."

"I said book the appointment without me knowing.. Not have the operation alone. Dammit Zak I wanted to be with you through this bit." I sighed.

"But I'm fine."

"Oh really?" I asked annoyed.

"No, I'm rather sore."

"Just out of curiosity, when would you have told me? Cause I've been online reading, and we can have any fun for at least a month."

"That's a rule.. I like to break rules." He smirked.

"Well I don't when health is considered so ensure that rule being kept from here on. I would have manhandled you and sent you through the roof." I frowned.

"The only time you manhandle me is in the bathroom, although when I'm bent over, don't try and bang me from behind.."

I giggled.

What can I say? I'm a idiot.

"Well that's no fun.." I pouted "I'm joking. What's the aftercare?"

"Ice packs."

I instantly pulled a face making him nod slowly "Oh yeah, cause balls aren't sensitive enough. They want ice packs on them too."

"I love you." I announced making him look over at me.

"So you're not angry anymore?"

"Oh a little. But what you've done is brave. You did all this alone, stupid but brave."

"Love you too. Lett, my balls really hurt."

I chortled before giving him a kiss "Just think of the purpose of why you're having it done."

He groaned "I want a dog instead."

"Well that won't take the pain away now will it?"

"Careful." I stressed walking behind Zak slowly holding his sides.

"Lettie I'm okay. Really, it's just a little sore."

"No it's not just a little, you're walking like you've had a hand shoved up the back end of you. Slowly." I urged helping him to the couch.

"Okay, okay." He answered swatting my hands away before sitting down slowly in his baggy sweat pants.

I crouched in front of him frowning with concern.

"S-stop looking at me like that." He breathed, his body physically exhausted.

"Do you need anything?" I asked. "Drink? Food?"

"A cuddle, just, come and have a cuddle and stop treating me like I'm dynamite."

A slow grin pulled on my face.

"What have I said now?" He questioned.

"Do uh- do they call you Mr Boombastic?" I asked making him laugh.

Grabbing my arm, he tugged me onto the couch and placed a cushion across his lap.

"What's that for?"

"Just in case." He smiled sheepishly.

I rolled my eyes and leant towards him giving him a kiss. "All this for a new addition huh?"

His eyes searched mine before they landed on my lips "You want this too right?"

I thought about it before nodding "Despite everything we've been through? I couldn't think of a better person I want to raise a child with."

Zak smiled relaxingly "That's all I need to hear."

Snuggling into his side, with our fingers entwined we planned for our future.