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IT WAS A WARM DAY.

Her eyes hurt when the morning sun fell all over. She could hear the shrieking voices of traffic and the whistles of cooker. Her throat was dry. She opened her eyes and glanced around.

It was her room. Each of the belongings were in the correct spot.

What day it was? 

She tried to get up, yet all of a sudden a deplorable idea made her fall.

"Jinyi...I'm sorry to say this. Because of minor stun during the surgery you won't almost certainly move your legs. Yet, I guarantee that it tends to be relieved by regular physios. Please be bold and don't lose hope."

She tried to get up again. Goodness God! I cant move my legs. She fell to the bed in a disheveled heap as her grief poured out in a flood of uncontrollable tears.

A half year ago she was diagnosed to have a third stage cancer. She was completely devastated then.

"Doctor, is this disease treatable? I need a precise picture of it." She looked at the frown take over the doctor's expression and said, "Please don't hide anything from me."

"Uhm...Jinyi dear please calm down. Our pro team is there to support you. All we need is your whole hearted cooperation. We promise that we'll attempt our level best to make you survive."

From that day onward Jinyi was trying to cooperate with them. She had her first surgery a week ago, trusting that her doctors would keep up their promise. Each time they continued telling her that everything is going to be great. This surgery is going to change Jinyi's life. She didn't need them to give her anymore hopes this time.

But they came with a new hope and new promise.

She could hold the heartbreak no longer. Gut wrenching sobs tore through her chest. The sorros, distress and misery hovered around her like a snake. Each of the promises given to her were futile.

Promises were like pie crust, made to be broken.

Jinyi was drained living this way. "Oh God! Please end my life already..."

"Jinyi, do you know there're total eighteen stairs to climb to reach my apartment? I'm not going to lift you. You need to climb it yourself."

She took her phone and read the message over and over again. It was from Joon...Namjoon...the love of her life.

Jinyi erupted like a volcano when she read it for the first time. She was already so frantic at her situation and he's feigning somethings.

Each time she read it, her anger paced down. "What did he really mean by that?"

Consider the possibility that Jinyi lost her life during the surgery. It didn't occur. She recovered her life. So there was hope.

"I want to walk...I want to live normally without the smell of medicines and tormenting chemos." She said in a desperate tone. She was desperate to live normally at any cost, for someone. "What more? I want to climb any number of stairs."

If you don't get everything you want, change the way you think about it.

The greatest lesson he taught her.

This is the reason she loves him. Not just because of the intense love he gives her. He tossed light to her life. Never sympathizes her state. She didn't need to explain anything. He comprehends through her single breath. 

Taught her, happiness is an attitude. Whether make ourselves miserable or happy, the amount of work is the same.

When she proposed him, the main thing he needed was, whatever is the situation, she ought to never leave him...

"Joon, I promise you that I'll try my best to survive and stay with you forever."

She texted back.

Promise.

No matter how devastating our struggles, disappointments and troubles are, they're only temporary. No matter what happens to you, no matter how death stalks you and your loved ones, the resurrection promises you a future...

While the resurrection promises us a new and perfect life in future, God loves you too much to leave us alone to contend with the pain, guilt and loneliness of our present life.

Jinyi could understand that better, when she's here, sitting beside him in his home and composing this blog.

When they exchanged rings, she vowed to cherish him perpetually every day and forever.

She put her diary back.

"Joon! Get up!"

When he got up with half-opened eyes, she gave him a card which read...

"I promise you to complete each and every promises I gave you till date...Happy Anniversary Baby."

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