Dear Sam,

It's Christmas Eve!

I've always wanted to wish you or talk to you or just text you but the thought of finding out what I can't handle is too much. And I know that living in a lie, a made-up world is not good but at least it wouldn't have been worse than the gut-wrenching truth, even though I don't know what happened or what changed or what stayed the same.

If I could, I would never let us go. Everything would've been different. Everything would've been good just like before. If only we got a second chance.

The one who could've been,

Nia