DAY 6

Dear Future Sam,

Yesterday involved a lot of thinking but I still don't know what to do. All I knew was that if I even tried to do something or tried to bring you and me together, I could bring a drastic change to our unpredicted future or worse, could end up making you and I hate each other.

So, I thought about seeing the situation from a different perspective which in this case was talking things through with Nicole.

After school, we went to our favorite café. As she and I talked, I never felt as if she would try to sabotage our relationship but then what was that that I saw in the park?

I didn't know where to begin, so I asked her why she told you what she told you before we broke up which was, 'Sam, Nia is cheating on you.'

I also told her that I saw her clicking photographs of me and Justin and giving them to you under a false impression. I told her I knew she gave me the wrong information regarding the meeting time with you in the park. I told her I saw her kissing you. I told her that I knew she wanted you and me to break up. I told her all those things that she spread falsely.

And I asked her why.

Before she gave me any answers, she asked me why I thought she liked you because that was what I asked her 5 days before.

Well, I cannot tell her that I saw your and hers 'romantic' texts because I saw that in the future when I borrowed her phone once to book a cab. I still wonder why she had saved your texts though.

So, besides seeing you two kissing each other, I told her that if she tried sabotaging our relationship, and kissing you the other day, I deducted that conclusion. To which she told me that I should've at least cleared things out with her before framing her.

When I told her to give me the truth, she told me the whole backstory about how it all started when once she heard you and your friends talking about me in the Physics lab.

Drake told you that you could've done much better than me. And guess what? You didn't even defend me. Did that really happen, Sam?

Nicole wanted to try a loyalty test on you and that's why when you asked her if she liked you, she kissed you. And I felt a bunch of things and emotions other than the truth. She gave me the wrong time to meet you and snapped those photos of me and Justin purposely to see what you would do. I guess she just proved that we were definitely fragile, didn't she?

I don't know if she was telling the truth or not. I don't know if she was actually trying to protect me or wanting you for herself. But when I read that note saying, 'She is always there for me. I don't need to explain my friendship with Nicole to any random stranger.', I remembered why she and I were friends. I remembered how she was always there for me even in my low. I remembered how even after graduating, she was my friend. I remembered all the times she helped me when I needed her the most.

Well, I guess I remembered her and me.

And God, I forgot how much I enjoyed my time with Nicole. Back then we never had time to even meet face-to-face, let alone sit and talk for hours. I miss these days. Why does growing uptake away these things from us? Or had I been taking it for granted?

The one who's starting to see what she had and let it slip,

Nia