I have been through hell before. My life before meeting you was the definition of hell but never have I felt this horrible before.

I remember one day when we were in our secret spot you asked me something.

"Do you think that love is really the greatest feeling? Even the Bible says it."
I remember looking at you wondering how that question popped up before answering you.

"Not really. Sure love is great and all but it can't really be the greatest."

"Then what do you think is?" You looked at me with curiosity laced in your eyes.

"Jealousy, hatred, greed, rage, revenge. They surely come before love. And let's not forget fear. Thousands of domestic murders were due to jealousy, hatred and rage. And most of them were done by wives who caught their spouses cheating and vice versa. Surely they loved them but at that time it was a spark compared to the furnace of emotions they were feeling. Greed was what put Judas in trouble. He loved Jesus but that didn't stop him. Revenge has been a fuel for many crimes in the past. And fear, fear kills people more than any disease in the world. So no, love isn't the strongest emotion." I smiled looking at you as I felt good about my argument. "Why are you smiling?" I asked with my face in puzzlement.

"Nothing." Your smile grow. "Just love when you talk. Looking all serious and important." You teased making me blush and slap your shoulder.

I remember.

I wish now I can change my answer. I wish I could tell you what I feel now. What I experienced. You were right. Love is the greatest emotion. I have felt all those emotions lately and even more. Some towards me, some towards you and some towards other people. I have felt it for so long now that I can't feel anything anymore. But let me tell you, after everything one emotion refused to die no matter how hard I tried.

It was my love for you. It was why the pain never stopped. It was infuriating and consuming.

Thinking that I sat on my bathroom floor as cut my wrist letting the temporary calmness engulf me.

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I know all of you are wondering what happened in the ICT office and after that. So I'm going to tell you .

I started working in the ICT department because of my genuine love for computers but after sometime after I was a pranked by people I tried thinking of the perfect revenge plan. Until an idea came into my head.

Working with the school ICT department had it's perks. Access to stable and free wifi. Choosing any school gadget of your choice since they gave every student an iPad or a MacBook at the beginning of a school year. You also have access to a lot of information before most students. Like when the mid terms are starting or when we were having an external quiz. Or what was on the menu in the cafeteria a day before.

One of the unwritten benefits was we have an access to everyone's personal information like emails and passwords. It was supposed to be only the staff allowed but Miss Rhonda trusted me a lot so she didn't hide it that well. It took a week for my plan to get together. First I created a link with the school site to be able to log in in another computer. After that I downloaded the school final exam paper and the timetable for everyone in my grade and my sister's. I felt a jolt of excitement when I saw the people I was looking for.

After taking the flash drive from the ICT room, I smiled knowing my plan was already in action. Whistling to class, I wasn't surprised when someone hit me causing my books to fall down. Imagine my surprise when I saw who it was. The Big Fat Dummy. Zero.

"And how is my favorite classmate?" He asked making his friends laugh at his stupidity.

"Good." I said dusting my dress.

Just a little push Chrisè .

"No nasty comeback? What happened to sparky girl Christina?"

"She got a life and also got tried of your breathe which smells like rotten boiled egg. Forgive me if I don't have a death wish."

A little more.

"More like you do." And the next thing I was pushed on the wall.

Got it. My inner self smirked. I tried to use my joy to suppress the panic that began to creep in my chest.

"Let her go Dubem. She's not worth it." His friend said.

"Listen to your friend or else you'll be sorry." I gave him a death glare.

Like he noticed my change in demeanor he released me. "See you soon loser."

"I just hope not to soon." I murmured.

Immediately I noticed he was gone I rushed to the locker room immediately. I quickly brought out the key which I stole from him as I reached his locker. Opening it, my mind was so relaxed when I saw his laptop laying there.

Quickly I put it in my bag pack moving to the toilet getting ready for my revenge. Putting his password which was his hint on his laptop- now you believe me when I said he was a dummy, I quickly connected his laptop with the school network system which enabled me to access any computer in school. When I found what I was looking for I smiled. Karma is a bitch. You wouldn't know what hit you.

Downloading the maths test into his laptop was just step one. Step two was more evil. Logging into his school network with the password I stole from the lab, I sent a message to the group chat which consisted of the whole class including our home room teacher.

"I know right. They are total idiots and they are never going to figure out we are the ones when we blame it on that Christina girl. I never knew we would pull off that sports room plan at all. Or the fact that nobodi knows we were the once who put the pins in her shoe. I felt bad a little about it but I don't care animore. I mean her sister was the mastermind aniwai so who am I to feel guilti.;) And I will send you the test now." Writing i where I should write y which I noticed was his writing style when I saw his other messages. I mean why not just type the real word. After that I sent a picture of the test to the group chat.

After thirty seconds I sent another text.

"Sorry, that wasn't me. It was my cousin and he said it was a prank and I don't know where he got that picture from I swear. He said its a past question from his school." I made it sound trying to cover up when he found out he sent the wrong message. Contented with what I did, I dropped it in my bag and rushed back to drop it. Luckily for me he was still out of sight. I smiled as I walked to finish my plan.

Getting into my sisters locker was easy. Knowing her schedule by heart, she was having advanced chemistry meaning I was free to execute my plan. I pulled out her extra key which I had taken from her on the first day of school which she failed to notice. I opened her locker putting the box of office pins I stole from the school supplies room and dropped a bottle of spray paint. Looking around, I searched for a particular persons locker. Gabby. I saw her locker number making me sure she was the one. I already searched for her locker number school system. I remember her because my sister always whined of how much she hated her because she was Gabby's understudy to the competition. She was the perfect person for the plan.

Looking at her lock I noticed it wasn't so difficult to open so I tried some keys from my different bunch and on the fourth try it opened. I picked her gymnastics shoes and I dropped it in my sisters locker but not without putting the pins in it.

Taking out my new phone which I barely used I sent a text to her gymnastics teacher.

"Good morning ma. I think I saw Amanda take something from Gabby's locker. I don't no if I was right so I didn't say it out so I would not cause a scene."

Satisfied, I left there making sure I didn't leave a trace of my self. I pulled the SIM card out breaking it in two. Thank god it wasn't registered after me but a Regina something. It was an old SIM card I found in my dad's study. Good luck tracing that.

I waited for the class to end as I deliberately hit him again.

"You again! What your problem?"

Slipping it into his pocket I just smiled. "Just clumsy."

"Just disappear already. I'm tired of seeing your face." And he walked out.

Don't worry your dream is almost coming through. Although not the way you like it. I smirked, doing my evil laugh in my crazy mind as I put my hands in my pocket, with a lollipop in my mouth, walking to my final classes.

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Few minutes later they were both handed letters. Dubem his expulsion letter and Amanda her suspension letter while her case was further investigated.

You could have seen his face when they called him. He was shocked at the allegations but all fingers where pointing at him. The timing was perfect, his laptop was the system that launched into the school network, his writing style and the confession. The second text message even made him sound more guilty. He couldn't defend himself much especially when he could not tell them he was smoking weed during his free period and not hacking school network. His biggest excuse was that he wasn't even that smart to do something like that which I had to agree with him. It was the only flaw in my plan was the size of his IQ. I mean it was obvious that the plan was too much for an idiot like him. For the first time, I understood how villains and criminals felt when someone else took credit for their crimes. He also kept on saying I was trying to set him up which made what he said in the text look more true by the second.

The best was my witchy sister. After her class she was called by her teacher to the locker room with Gabby by her teacher's side and every other person in her team. Gabby searched her locker and figured out her shoes were missing.  Opening her locker, still confused of what was happening, the shoes were found but not in the same condition. They was an uproar when the pins were found in her shoe and an even bigger one when someone came to call her to the principal's office.

She felt ambushed. She couldn't explain what happened in the locker room and the principal was telling her to confess to a crime she actually committed. The pins in her locker was enough proof making her expelled from the gymnastics team and the suspended from the school. She felt horrible and I knew it. It was what I wanted. The gymnastics team was her life and being expelled was too much for her especially when she was supposed to go for a competition in South Africa in two weeks time. But she didn't think of me when she tried to kill me.

So now they had a little taste of their own medicine and no matter how much I thought I would feel better. I didn't.