Arjun's POV

"You see those two dots there, those are the testicles and Congratulations! Arjun and Radhika, it's a boy."

I raised my fist in victory mode as if I just won the entire world! I just knew it! My baby is a boy and now it's official. Fuck! I am so happy, I am crying my eyes out like a little girl. My baby boy! World can't get any better than this! I was praying all the way in the car because I was worried that doctor might tell us we are having a girl and I might upset Radhika with my reaction. I don't think so I could have handled it well if the first baby was a girl because what the fuck do I know about being a father to a little girl?!

I would have had a coronary by the time she reaches teenage! Thank God! A boy, my little boy, now its time to stock the nursery with toys appropriate for boys. I can't wait to teach him football, I guess I will have to wait till he is five to take him out on the ground. I simply can't wait for him to be here as I am determined to be the best father. I didn't had a good father but my baby will have one, he will always have me, body and soul.

"Arjun...."

Radhika's voice startled me as she must have sensed I had gone quiet since the revelation.

" Yeah....Fuck! A boy!" I exclaimed and cried like a emotional sap," A baby boy, Radhika! I am so happy." I gave her a chaste kiss to thank her. I can't kiss her the way I want to in front of the doctor, can I?!

"I think I will give you both some privacy and I will see you in my cabin in about twenty minutes."

Thank God, she took the cue and left us on our own because I needed to be alone with my wife and I didn't wanted to share the best moments of my life with anyone other than my wife.

"Thank you, Radhika." I pecked her forehead.

She took my hand and placed it on our baby bump, no one could tell she was pregnant if they see her from behind as she was thin everywhere else only her belly was protruding now. She looked so pregnant and I was so fucking happy to see that she was finally showing, it such a fucking turn on to see her carrying my baby. I can't wait to put another bun in the oven but I know I must wait for at least a year before I knock her up again.

"Are you happy?!" She asked me again, smiling with happy tears in her eyes.

"Of course I am happy, more than happy. Thank you, baby. Thank you for everything." I tell her honestly.

"It's official! Arjun, a boy! My little buddy! Oh my God! I am so excited..." She started crying and sobbing uncontrollably.

I wiped her tears," Hey, what happened?! Why are you crying?!" She was scaring me now.

"He threatened me that he will kill my baby if I don't listen to him. I was so terrified when they took me to my dad's house, I always had this niggling feeling that they will mix something in my food or medicines to kill...." She was crying so hard that she couldn't even speak.

Fuck! That motherfucker! I will kill him with my bare hands!

"That fucking little...." I stop short on words as I don't want to scare her away with my plans for her father and brother. I feel like hanging them upside down and whipping them till they puke out blood but I will think of something worst than this, something beyond anyone's imagination!

" They will pay, Radhika. I will make them pay for everything they put you through, they put us through. I promise to avenge every tear that escaped your eyes."

" I was so scared, Arjun. I thought I will lose him. He was the only thing I had and that kept me going but I was so terrified...."She sniveled hugging her baby bump.

I cup her face and lift it to meet her eyes to mine,"But you didn't give up and you know what?!" I continued," You faced everything without me and you emerged stronger. You did what you had to for our son and you protected him. You didn't fail him, you certainly didn't fail me. You are strong, baby more than you know."

She is a strong woman and she has a stubborn streak inside her that kept her going. I know she is too young but she will be a terrific mother.

She is actually the hero of this story because without her, I would be the same asshole fucking different women every day and waking up to my nightmares which use to scratch open my old wounds. She doesn't fully realize what she means to me, and I don't mean the baby part but her just being there in my life, her caressing my hair so that I feel her touch as I don't get nightmares when she does that. I don't know how but her just being there next to me in bed and by bed I don't mean sex, in fact sometimes I just stare at her with wonder in my eyes. How did I get so lucky actually I didn't, I snatched her for myself, although I didn't had any good intentions towards her in the beginning and my only concern was my revenge against her father but now I have every intention to cherish her and make sure, that her eyes always shine bright like stars and there is no trace of gloominess in them. She is my hero, the one who rescued me from the demons from my past that were clawing me night after night.

"Sometimes you are unbelievably sweet ." She said, carressing my cheek.

I shook my head," I meant it, Radhika. I know you don't believe me when I say this, but you are a strong woman. The first time I saw you, all I saw was how beautiful you are on the outside putting it respectfully though....."

She chuckled when I said that because she knew how crass I am but I am trying to talk in a language appropriate for the kid to hear and I have a feeling he hears. Even if he is not hearing us then too I want to talk about her respectfully especially because she is my wife and now the mother of my kid. 

"But then when we married and let's not talk about sex and other stuff but you surprised me with your formidable spirit. I never thought a woman could be that strong mentally to hope admist chaos. You proved me wrong and I am glad you did."

She smiled," It feels wierd when you say things like these but they feel good to hear so thank you."

It does feel wierd because I am pretty helpless and hopeless when it comes to complimenting people.

I leaned in, kissing her forehead as she wiped away the tears that streamed down her cheeks.

"You have made me so happy, baby. There isn't a man alive who is as happy as I am today. I can never thank you enough for this." I placed my hands on her baby bump," Despite everything that I have done, the unforgivable  things I have said and done to you, you have always been there for me. I took so much away from you yet you gave me so much, Radhika."

I pulled her face up gently making her look at me," Why?! What for?! You knew I was no good for you but still you never gave up on me or the idea of us."

"Because I know something you don't."

"And what is that?!"

"That you love beyond limits, beyond right and wrong, beyond this world."

"I don't understand the point you are making, baby."

"You did everything that you did to me because you wanted to avenge your mom. You loved your mother so much even after you lost her, you kept her alive inside you, in here."

She placed her hand on my heart and I gulped as suddenly I felt exposed and uneasy as she could see right through me.

"Radhika, I don't...."

"No let me finish please....."

She pleaded with me and I nodded.

"To see your mom like that, in her natural state, getting raped and...."

"Radhika, stop!" I warned her.

I don't want to remember that darkest
hour of my life, I pushed those memories in the farthest corner of my mind and I don't want her to scratch open those wounds even though I know she has no intention of doing so.

She cupped my face," No please hear me out."

"I can't even imagine how it must have felt and how it broke you completely. I think you killed your conscious because everything related to heart and feelings reminded you of her. You didn't wanted to be reminded of that boy who loved his mother so much and yet he failed her."

Tears streamed down my cheeks as she literally poured out my deepest emotions without me sharing any of those with her.

"After that everything you did became right in your eyes because the person you loved so much was mutilated so brutally. It doesn't justify what you did with me but I could see what you have hidden in here."

"I know, Arjun. You hated Fat...him not me, everything you did was to destroy him and you killed your conscious to avenge your mom. I understand and I have forgiven you because I know everything you did, all the wrong things you did, all the evil things you did because you wanted to avenge her."

I cut her off, "What I did was wrong, Radhika. That's the truth no matter how much you try to paint me in good light but I am an evil man, a vicious man, a monster, a manipulater and most of all, a killer!"

I looked her in the eye," Radhika, I have come too far in life doing what I do best and those are not particularly noble deeds. I did what I had to and I have no regrets towards the life I have lived because I had to do what was expected out of me as a son, as an heir and as a man born into this family. I might resent my Father but I am my father's son in more ways than you or anyone else will understand. I might have hated him but I never wanted his skull to crack open, he died a very painful death though he deserved it but I didn't wanted to him to die. He wasn't a good man, he certainly wasn't a good father but I loved him as a little boy who had just lost his mother and who was desperately seeking comfort in his father's presence but that too was taken away from me."

She looks at me with tears in her eyes, tears of sadness as she feels my pain. She cries for me actually for that heartbroken boy who resides somewhere inside me where I buried him forever. I killed that weak boy and a cruel, heartless man was born out of his grave.

"Sometimes I feel so guilty for my connection with the man who destroyed your entire life."

"No baby, you don't have to feel that way. You are nothing like him."

I assure her, kissing away her tears.

"Don't cry for me, Radhika. It's okay, I have no regrets from my life."

I cupped her face,"There is only one thing I regret in my life and that's how I treated you but if I had a chance to reverse everything I wouldn't because that means you won't be there with me and that's not the price I am willing to pay. I regret the way I was with you but I don't regret marrying you even for a second."

She stared at me, unblinking,

"If I wasn't pregnant and if you had a change of heart then you would have let me go?!" She asked me.

Let you go?! What for?! For you to find yourself a better man than me while I die thousands of deaths in my self inflicted misery! Never, baby.

You are mine, Radhika, from the minute I saw you, you are and will always be mine. I can spend each day of life making it up to you for the pain I have caused you but I can never let you go. You are and will always be mine, end of the story!

"You have to ask?! No baby I would have never let you go because if I would have then you would have forgotten me and moved on after some time and I would have never been able to get over you in my entire life. Thats how deep you have got your claws inside me." I tell her honestly.

She shook her head,"I don't think so I would have forgotten you...."

"I know you would have, because you are too good, Radhika. You are a very beautiful, endearing, sweet girl who I am hell sure wouldn't have been on her own for too long and the thought of you with some other man is like a knife stabbed into whatever little would have been left of my heart. I cannot even think of you with someone else let alone see it so the question of letting you go is invalid."

"I am sure you would have moved on after some years. You are quite a catch and I am sure you wouldn't have been alone for a long time." She said in a low tone.

Does she think that little of my love for her?! Maybe I would have fucked other women, smoked and got drunk each day of my remaining life to get over her only for her face to haunt me forever. I would have never forgotten Radhika and I know it in my bones that there wouldn't be any woman who could resurrect my dead heart.

"You think so because you don't know to what extent I love you, Radhika. Actually there is no limit when it comes you." I held her face firmly," I love you so much, baby. I have never told anyone that I loved them well except my mom and I don't want to talk about things that could have happened, would have happened. This is better, actually this is the best than what could have ever happened." I placed my hand on her baby bump.

"Yes, it is." She affirmed giving me her beautiful smile as she placed her head on my chest, hugging me.

She deserves more, Arjun. She deserves what you took away in your mad rampant for revenge. She deserves it back and so much more for everything she has done for you and will do. She has looked past so many things, Arjun and you haven't done a good job in thanking her. All you have done is given her fancy words and big promises. It's time to fulfill one of those promises.

A small voice inside me troubled me.

"Marry me, Radhika." The words flew out of my mouth on their own and as they fell on her ears, her reaction was priceless.

"We are already married." She pointed out.

"That was a forced one, I want to marry you for real, the way you would have wanted your wedding to be. I want to do things right, my love, I want to give you the world."

She nods with tears in her eyes as she pulls me towards herself, hugging me tightly.

I kissed her passionately, hungrily and madly to show her how grateful I am and I will do everything to make her happy.

I placed my knee on the bed as I leaned on her, giving her a real kiss, one that I couldn't in front of the doctor. My hands started to feel her soft body and when she moaned into my mouth, I was spent! Fuck! This is amazing! This is far more amazing than just sex. I haven't even touched her yet, at least not in the places I would like to but I am sporting a boner just by looking at her.

I controlled myself and pulled back giving her space but it was so fucking hard to not feel those soft and succulent breast pressed against my chest

She calmed down and pulled me closer. We just can't keep our hands to ourselves, can we?!

"Thank you, baby. I promise that you will have everything just the way you wanted." I tell her on a serious note.

She smiled shyly, "All I want is you and I didn't really think about getting married back then."

"Then I want you to think now, I know it's late to say this but I somehow believe that this time is right because everything about you is so right. I want you to have a wedding, a real one, not the one where you married me on gunpoint." 

I know this is not the right place for this but fuck, I can't wait any longer. If I don't do this right now, I will go crazy.

I went down on one knee, a gesture I used to laugh and make fun of and here I am doing it for the girl who changed my life for good.

"Radhika, I know it's late but if it's not, I promise to stand by you the way you stood by me when I was the most horrible husband ever. You never gave up on me, I promise I will always love you till my last breath and it will always be you, just you. You have given me everything that could make a man happy. You made a home out of my mansion and I know we lost it but I promise to build you another house which you could again breathe life into. I know I can never repay you for everything you have done for me and now this." I choked on my words as I pointed to her protruding belly," He is the best gift baby, I can never gift you anything that could top this one but I promise, I will try each day to be a husband you deserve."

She cried as she covered her mouth to silence her sobs. She was so shocked, happy and ecstatic. Her eyes were watery with tears of joyful elation but she looked so beautiful, so angelic. I could look at her forever.

She started to cry uncontrollably worrying me now.

"Why are you crying baby?! It's okay please don't cry."

I cupped her face, wiping her tears, I carressed those soft chubby cheeks that I just wanted to nibble on. Even crying, she looks cute.

"I am just so happy, I never thought this is possible. I never could have imagined you doing what you did just now."

"I love you, Radhika, more than anything."

"I love you, Arjun and desperately."

She confesses innocently and I see the vulnerability in her eyes. I see how much she has suffered and how much I have hurt her yet she loves me desperately. I don't know what I did to deserve this innocent girl who loves me so much that she has forgiven all the unforgivable things I have done to her. I must be a lucky bastard but I will not take this love for granted.

"I don't have a ring right now but...."

She cuts me off," I am already wearing your ring." She waves her hand in front of me, showing me her ring that I gave to her.

It's my mother's gift actually but I want to gift Radhika a ring, myself.

I kiss her hand,"That's my mom's gift, she had given me this ring years ago. She wanted me to gift it to her daughter in law and when I got the best news of my life, I gave you this ring to...."

She cuts me off,"Then I am not taking this off, it is a symbol of her love and her blessings."

I cup her face," You can wear my ring in another finger, it doesn't matter. I love the fact that you understand that this ring is not just a piece of jewelry."

She gave me beautiful smile making me smile back at her as I lean in to kiss her forehead. She is such a compassionate and thoughtful girl to understand my feelings about this ring. I want to give her a ring, one that reminds her of my love and commitment towards her forever.

I never want her to doubt even for a second that I might be tempted to be somewhere else and not with her.
I cup her face and kiss her forehead, thanking her without words this time.

To be continued.....