Arjun's Pov

I changed in to a new shirt and pair of jeans, almost tripping while putting them on. Fuck! I am excited and distracted at the same time. I can't sit still as I keep pacing back and forth waiting for Radhika to come out of the closet.

She finally comes out dressed in white, a color that suits her the best but I frowned when I discover that my short wife has grown couple of inches taller. She wore the fucking heels! Seriously?!
It's okay, Arjun, it's okay start with a compliment and then tell her to take off those damn heels.

" You look beautiful baby but...." I tell her, it's true that she does look gorgeous but she should abandon the heels.

" Take off the heels." I tell her as politely as I could and I knew she is going to fight with me.

"No, I don't want to look like a Lilliput in front of you."

Keep it together, keep it together.....
Arjun, be nice or else she will start crying.

I couldn't help myself from rolling my eyes at her,"Well too bad, you already are one and you are not wearing heels while you are five months pregnant. I mean, seriously where the fuck is your common sense gone?!" I ask her.

"I will be careful and you are there so...."

She has fallen down the stairs before and thank God, nothing happened to her or the baby. What the hell is wrong with her?! How can she be so vain to not care about the baby and prioritiz her need for validation over hers and baby's health!

"What if you fell, Radhika?! What if you fell on your stomach or on your back?! What if you fall and break your neck?!"

My temper rises and I know I am this close to lose my shit! Fuck! Radhika just listen for once!

"I feel short and fat." She looks down like a guilty little girl, scared and unsure of herself.

I don't think so its just the need for validation, its something else.

"Firstly you are short and secondly you are not fat. I think you only say this because you love hearing it from me that you are not fat." I tell her and she doesn't take it too well.

"That's not true, it's just I feel short in front of you, I mean you are so tall..."

I smirked, "Thank you for the compliment, baby."

Did she got to know today that I am tall?! Like seriously?!

She stares at me pointedly,"You are so evil! I wasn't complimenting you...."

Arjun, no mockery, no rude comments and especially no sarcasm! Fuck that's one my favorite but a man's gotta do what he has to do and this man has to knock some sense in the wife's head.

"I know, I was just teasing you don't worry baby, listen to me and then decide for yourself what you want to do." I walked closer to her and turned her to the mirror behind.

"Go ahead."

"So is wearing heels going to add few inches to your height for real?! I mean just think about it, you aren't going to get tall then why torture your feet?! What if you fell?! What if you sprained your ankle?! Think about the complications that might..." I abandon my words there because I cannot even think about those things.

"I get it, I am sorry I was just being vain, you are right I need to think about the baby." She apologizes to me and steps out of those damn heels but I see the sadness in her eyes which doesn't sit well with me.

She is such a beautiful girl with such a good heart and I don't understand where this insecurity and low self esteem comes from?!

She gives me a fake smile, trying to mimic her real one but I could see right through it.

" Radhika, if you were doing this for yourself then maybe I would have allowed it only if you weren't pregnant but my love, you are not doing this for yourself and I am not going to let you do something that might endanger yours and my baby's health. You want us to look good as a couple and you are seeking that validation from other people who we will see there."

I lean forward, resting my chin on her shoulder, wrapping my hands around her stomach,"Baby, I am 6'2 and even I have been in company of people who were taller than me, more accomplished than I was, smarter than me but sweetie, I have never let that bother me...."

She cuts me off,"That's because you are so handsome, I bet those men were not as half as good looking as you are...."

I think Radhika lacks maturity and I understand its because of lack of experience and exposure to hardships. She has a good heart and she has good values and beliefs but somethings just come with age and experience.

"You boost my ego but that's not the point I am trying to explain you, my love." I tell her softly.

She doesn't understand, Arjun because she is so much younger than you and there are a lot of things she doesn't know which I have to tell her patiently in a manner that she receives them well.

"Radhika, beauty is important but other things count too. We would have never reached here if you were a obnoxious, vain, insufferable girl. Yes I checked you out the first day I met you, yes I thought if only she had a good height but then you have the most beautiful eyes because they are so soulful, deep and they have all the innocence of this world."

"You thought I was short?!"

She only heard that one thing! Like seriously?!

I rolled my eyes at her,"That's what you heard?! Seriously baby?!"

"Tell me." She insisted.

"You know the truth, I can't lie to you and the truth is that you are a very stunning woman with a very good heart."

Why don't you get it, Radhika?! I was caught off guard when I first saw you you, I felt I couldn't look away from you, I wanted to but she sucked me right in as if she cast a spell on me.

I still remember the day I saw her, she was in white dress with her long hair flying in the air like a fairy who lost her way on earth. She was all I saw at that moment and I thought she would be very fragile and submissive but I couldn't be more far from the truth. She is strong and tenacious, she has such a character and she never gives up.

"Baby, let me tell you a little something, I have been with a lot of woman I am not trying to hurt you by bringing up my past but I have never wanted anything other than sex with those woman no matter how breath-taking they were."

When I think about those instances of my past, I am so thankful that I could see right through the beauty and looks. I pride myself in being a smart man, an intelligent man and someone who could read people very well. If I was a woman which I am so thankful I am not but if I was then I would be a very dangerous woman because of the amount of knowledge and experience I have, I see through people in seconds.

I won't say all women I met were bad, some were, most of them were normal woman, beautiful and glamorous but most of them were gold diggers and I don't see that as a bad trait. I don't consider women who are after money as bad people, it's just all men's world out there and if a girl wants to secure her future there is nothing wrong in it but what I am strictly against is wrecking families. One such bitch ruined my family, my mother's home that she had given tears, sweat and blood. I still go in to a mad rage when I think about that bitch Sofia and her bastard.

Radhika is such a purehearted girl, she doesn't have a mean bone in her body. I get it that she feels insecure that some day I will get bored and toss her aside. I have spend majority of my life fucking women who didn't mean anything to me and I don't want to ever go that life where I was in such a dark place mentally.

I didn't wanted anything other than sex which they were willing to give me. It's just that I am a very difficult man to live with, I am short tempered, possessive, controlling and the list goes on. I always knew that you must always look for what's on the inside and if what's on the inside isn't pleasing then what's on the outside doesn't really matter. Of course sex is great with a good looking woman but I can't build a foundation, a family, a strong unit based on how fuckable a woman is.

"And by breath-taking I mean women who were absolutely gorgeous but the only reason I didn't look at them the way I look at you is the innocence and purity of character that sets you apart from others. You have never said anything mean to me about anyone in the family not even once. You might have called me names or fought with me but you were so good to the people in my life who mean a lot to me."

I always knew that whoever I marry that if at all I marry someone, has to be nice to my family. Radhika isn't just nice, she is so loving and caring towards my family. She loves Sam and they often team up against me which I secretly enjoy. She is so respectful towards Mariam and she puts up with Mark something which is quite surprising because he is hard to live with.

She looks at me, shaking her head," I had no reason to not love them, Sam is the sweetest girl I have ever met and she is so so good to me. She is like the sister I never had and Mariam aunty is like a mother to me, she is always trying her best to take care of me. Mathew is so respectful and he has always been so nice to me. Mark doesn't like me but I get it and...." She grows silent and I understand what she wanted to say.

"He was horrible to you." I stated.

Mark is not fond of Radhika, he hated her in the past but I don't think so he hates her now. He still doesn't like her, just tolerates for my sake which is fine with me. I know Mark wanted me to marry someone like Lily who had a spunk personality and who I had a lot common in in terms but I never go wrong with women. I know who is right and who is wrong for me and that whore proved my point.

"I know but that didn't hurt as much as it hurt when you said nothing to him."

Radhika tells me in a sad tone and I feel so guilty for not standing up for her everytime he disrespected her. I know I was vengeful towards her in the beginning but that was between me and her, I kept quiet everytime he called her names even though I opposed him when Radhika wasn't watching. I told him that Radhika was my business and mine alone, he doesn't need to interfere but this is the man who practically brought me up and was there for me when I was an orphan doing all kinds of shit to throw away my life.

He saved me from myself! He brought me to heel and I am so grateful for everything he has done for me. He is the reason for all my success and how I turned out to be. I use to feel my blood boil in rage everytime he talked shit about Radhika but I use to keep quiet but not anymore. No one is going to make my wife cry henceforth, not me, not mark, no one! I will make sure of that.

"Radhika, I am truly sorry for not standing up for you in the beginning, I mean you know I was blinded by my revenge but I have never let him malign you in the recent past."

I apologize sincerely and I hope she understands my position here. She is a sensible girl, I know she will understand.

"He loves you a lot but that doesn't mean he can say vile things to me...."

She breaks down in tears and I feel remorse deep in my heart. I am so sorry baby, it's never going to happen again.

"Why didn't you say anything to him?!"

"Because I was scared of your reaction, he is important to you and I get it he has done a lot for you."  She tells me honestly and my respect for her grows ten fold.

"I am alive because of him but you are right, he had no right to talk shit about you but I promise none of that will ever happen again. " I wipe her tears away.

"And you ask me why?! Why I see you so differently?! You are nice to a man who called you degrading names. When will you get it, you stupid girl, that I have never seen anyone like you?!"

I have never met anyone who has such a good heart and I don't think so there is anyone like my wife in this whole world. She has completely changed my life and made me believe into things that I believed didn't existed.

She stares at me for too long and worry lines creases her forehead as her face falls . I know what she is thinking and I don't like it because she belittles my love for her whenever she thinks that what we have is not enough for me. Doesn't she understand that I can't ever get enough of her?! My favorite place inside this whole world is inside her  and after that I love laying my head on her lap.

"Don't even go there, I know what you are thinking." I say in a hard tone.

"How do you know what I am thinking?!"

Because I can read you very well.

"Because I know you and the way your mind works. Radhika, I had so many opportunities laid down in front of me yet I walked away from them because you were all over my mind."

Earlier when I believed that I despised her, I had no clue why I couldn't fuck another women, a thing that has been as simple as brushing my teeth. Yeah there have been some instances where I tried under the influence of alcohol but I failed miserably.

I think I have got a home in Radhika, she is my happy place and where I seek comfort. The way she smiles shyly and the way her eyes shine like stars, the way she tells me how much she loves me even without saying the words sometimes is what makes my life worth living.

I turned her towards me, I  pulled her closer me, I cupped her face to make her look in to my eyes,"When will you get it through your head that I am not going anywhere?!"

She looked as if in daze and then her expression changed from doubt to anger!

"There were others?! You just told me about one....."

Seriously baby?! Do I have to answer this?!

"Yeah there were others but I promise, nothing happened. It doesn't matter, baby I promise you are the only one."

"How many?!"

Fuck let go! She is so stubborn at times.

"How many what?!" I played dumb.

"You know what I mean, don't play innocent when you are not at all innocent." She accussed me.

Why do I have to hear this when I didn't do anything wrong?!

"How am I not innocent if I didn't do anything wrong?!"
"You are hiding things from me, things that I should know and I have a right to know." I tell him.

He raked his fingers through his hair, pushing them back, a clear sign that he is getting frustrated,"Baby, please can we drop this seriously Radhika, I told you nothing happened...."

"How many, Arjun?!"

I glared at her,"You think I sit and count how many women throw themselves at me?! What am I?! An attention seeker or a fucking high school boy on a sex prowl?!"

Why will I count desperate women wanting to get laid?! I am a grown ass man now, that shit has stopped long ago 
and I have different pursuits in life now. I don't think so I have ever chased a woman even when I was seventeen, I have too much of respect and pride for myself as a man to chase women and I didn't really need to though.

I do have my regrets about treating women in a certain way which I should not have but I have to remember that I treated almost everyone that way except the ones I loved.

"Yeah you are right, I am sorry its not your fault." She apologizes.

I don't think she should be sorry because I haven't really been upfront about certain things because hey, what should I tell her?! Hey, baby you know today Sarika Sarin tried to force herself on me.....I mean, like what am I?! A complain box that goes to his wife everytime something like this happens. I can take care of myself and I certainly can put such women in place better than anyone else. Being rude and crass comes naturally to me than being polite and sweet so Radhika should not worry about sluts drooling over me.

I touched her cheek,"Don't say sorry, we don't need to talk about this. This is least of our concern."

She frowned,"I don't understand why do women keep throwing themselves at you despite knowing that you are married. I mean I would never even look at a man who belongs to another even if I was not married....."

Because I am a good looking fucker who is rich, successful and powerful.

"Radhika, there are a lot of men and women who have everything they want, you name it. It's just drive of wanting something new and exciting or it could be sleeping your way up to the top. They don't bring their dirty secrets inside their homes but they do have them every once in a while. For some people emotional infidelity is a deal breaker and physical infidelity doesn't really matter for some people, some couples."

I have been around the block for so long and I know I am not old but I know things that even a man in 50s wouldn't know. Do these men who go out on business tours alone remain loyal to their wives?! No, they don't and the wife knows everything yet she doesn't bring it up and pretends like everything is fine. Even some married women sleep with men half their age to satisfy themselves sexually.

I have been hit by married and divorced women so many times but why would I sleep with a woman older than me when I could get a girl younger than me or perhaps my age who is better at the job than a  old hag. I did get a blowjob from a divorcee once but that was it! Of course all of these was before Radhika and now this callous manwhoring is out of question. I don't want to lose my wife, my family and my sanity for some momentary sexual gratification.

"Physical infidelity is a deal breaker too."

She is right if you look at it from a moral perspective but everyone isn't like her so let's just leave it there.

"Not for all, baby and I don't understand why are we discussing this shit?! Radhika, let's drop it don't spoil the mood." I tell her harshly as I stare her down in a way she understands that I am done with this topic.

Radhika isn't afraid of me now but she knows that when I use that tone or look at her in a way that says shut up, you have said enough now and now it's time for you to shut up, she gets it and doesn't disobey me.

Her face falls as she nods but takes a step back from me. She doesn't like it when I talk to her that way but sometimes it's important or else even I don't like to see her eyes cast down gloomily.

I take her hands in mine and pull her closer, embracing her, as she pushes her face in my chest," Don't worry, baby. I am yours and I am not going anywhere."

She nods in to my chest but I am not fully convinced that she understands so I break our hug.

" Don't you realise it, Radhika?! Don't you realise it, Radhika there isn't a woman on this planet who can tempt me away from you, from this." I place my hand on her baby bump and I feel the baby move as soon as I touched her stomach.

I am so fucking curious to know what we are having. To be honest I want a babyboy because I really want a son but I know Radhika wants a daughter. Even Sam wants a neice and Mariam wants a granddaughter too. Mathew thinks it will be fun to watch me get frustrated and riled up because of my daughter but I know he isn't going to get his wish, at least not this time as I have a strong feeling that this baby is a boy.

And just when I think it, the baby responds to me. He approves! He is a boy!

She places her hand on mine,"I know and I do trust you. It's just I get this stupid thoughts and I have no control over them. I mean I was never this insecure in my life but things have been a bit too much with the baby, then what we went through and the ordeal...." Words fail her as she sobs in my arms.

" Breath, baby, breath. It's alright, you are allowed to feel this way and you don't need to stress about these things. Everything is going to be okay, love."

She hugs me back tightly in a bone crushing hug and it's not my bones I am worried about but hers. I never hug her tightly because I don't want to hurt her but she needs me to be as close as I can be this time.

" I am so happy and excited."

I pull back to look at her sweet face, I see so many dreams and hopes in those beautiful brown eyes.

"You possibly can't be as excited as I am." I reply as I place my hand on her stomach as I couldn't stop touching it to feel the baby.

"Even if its a baby girl?!"

Humor danced in her eyes as she mischievously asked me.

I gave her a smug smile," Even if its a babygirl and I know what you are trying to do. Boy or girl, it's mine, my child so I don't care about the gender that much but I don't like the suspense of not knowing what I am going to deal with whole my life so if the madam is ready then can we leave?!"

I mean this is my child, a baby that is an extention of myself. I am responsible for his or hers existence as its my sperm so how does it matter if it's a boy or girl?! I mean I know I have a preference but still if it's a babygirl then I don't want her to ever think that her Father didn't wanted her.

"Remember what you said when they tell us we are having a girl."

"I will, madam but I know its a boy so you remember having no preference."

I still think it's a boy but of course I don't want to stand here and argue with her. I just want to go in there and I want the doctor to say what my ears have been waiting for.

Congratulations Arjun and Radhika, it's a boy!

And then I want to look at my wife and give her, my smug smile. Fuck! I am so evil because she will be disappointed about the baby not being a girl.

"Nothing can possibly make me feel disappointed because I love this baby either way. I want a girl but I know this is not our last baby so I can keep my hopes high."

Yeah, you are right.

I grabbed her  hand and brought her out of the room. I wish I could just pick her up and put her in the car and drive to the hospital so we get to know sooner but she insist on walking on her own. She wants to walk as much as she can as she doesn't want to get fat and put on weight. I have decided that I am not going to touch this topic from ten miles straight because it's going to end up in a fight and then I have to deal with tears and emotional meltdowns.

I have been watching her and she has been stealing glances at me throughout our ride. I think this is true love, pure and unconditional. She keeps looking at me as if she has eyes just so she could see me. She makes me happy and unhappy at the same time because I feel ashamed of the things I did to her and here she is, still believing in me, still loving me, still giving me her everything. The baby is of course a priceless gift but other things are priceless too like her gaze full of love and devotion.

She is my rock, she is the reason for where we are today in terms of our marriage. Her face is brighter than the sunlight and even more beautiful than the moonlight. I see light in her because she is my light, the innocent fairy who enlightened my dark world.

To be continued....