Arjun's POV

I have been working my ass out in the gym with my dumb ass best friend who wouldn't stop talking. Like seriously?! Sometimes I do think I have a second wife who I have to bear with!

I noticed him checking his phone every now and then between the sets and that got me curious about what he was upto.

"This is the sixth time you checked your phone."

"Yeah because I will be receiving some updates on your fucking father in law."

My blood boiled in rage at the mention of Rehan, motherfucker! I can't sleep in peace till he is dead and I can't wait to get my hands on him. I swear over my baby, I am going to make him pray for death but I won't kill him that easily. He has to pay for everything.

"Mathew, I want him within 24 hours! I don't care what you have to do, I don't care who you have to kill and how many you have to kill, if I don't get him in the next 24 hours, nothing can stop me from going on a killing spree."

"Arjun, have patience we...."

"He tried to kill my child! He came after my child!"

"I get it, Arjun you are angry...."

"Angry?! I am murderous."

"I am worried about Radhika, she won't take it well if you murder her father and her brother. I mean you have your reasons for the things he did to your family but...."

"To be honest with you, I don't give a fuck about Radhika's feelings in this because she hasn't suffered what I suffered all these years. If she shows any kind of sympathy for those two fuckers, I won't tolerate it at all."

"You need to calm down, tiger. I am just saying you should try to be patient with her and come clean about your intentions. You can't keep her in dark, no matter how shitty he is but he is still her father and she has a right to know."

"I get it, I will talk to her just not right now. She is excited and I can't bring myself to wipe off that big smile on her face."

"You are pussywhipped." He taunted.

"I don't disagree with you at all."

He smiled,"Radhika is a good girl, I mean you are a lucky bastard that she loves you despite everything you have done. I mean you are my best friend, my brother but I have to say this that your behavior towards her was shitty."

"I know, and I have apologized for everything. We have decided to start afresh now so we are good."

"That's good to hear, sometimes seeing you so happy and content, it makes me want what you have."

I balled my fist and I would have broken his jaw but he is my friend so he deserves a right to explain himself,"You want Radhika?!"

He shook his head," No! Are you fucking crazy?! Why would I go after your girl?! Do I have a death wish?!"

I let go of the breath I was holding.

"What I meant was sometimes I get this wierd thoughts about having a real girlfriend and you know, maybe settle down but then I don't think I can stick to one pussy right now....."

"Bro, don't let my marriage cloud your thoughts with this romantic shitass things. All women aren't like my Radhika and frankly a sweet, innocent girl is so rare. The world is full of bitches rubbing shoulders with men and partying, drinking and being whores."

"Yeah I understand." He nodded.

I jumped up, holding the pull up bar, and did my pull ups as I talked to him.

"But if you want to start a family then you must start looking because you know I never thought about settling down with one woman before Radhika. I wanted an heir in my later years so I had made my plans to get a son, just one kid who could be my heir but that's it! My thoughts have completely changed now though, now I want a bunch of kids and a big family."

"Sometimes I forget who I am talking to. Man, Radhika has changed you completely."

"No I don't think so this thing about wanting children has to do with Radhika. I mean yes to a certain extent but then think about this in this way, I have a lot of money more than I can ever spend. What's there in life to do if you are rich and successful?!"

"I don't know, fuck different women every single day. Do you miss it?!"

I looked at him in the eye," You know, Mathew, I have fucked thousands of women, there isn't a man alive who has had sex as much as I did even if there is someone it's very rare but at the end of day it's just sex, cold, emotionless sex. It's  pointless because its gets you nowhere in life now I am not against men having their fun. Of course fuck bitches as many as you want but they aren't going to give you a wholesome life like a purehearted girl would."

I continued,"Have you ever had a woman pray for you selflessly after your mother?! Radhika does that every single day, every night she prays for me and you know how that makes me feel, it gives me so much joy than anything ever could. Having a pure girl of pure heart and pure soul and perhaps even a pure vagina, who prays for you, gives you children, takes care of your spirit, loves you unconditionally. What more do you need in life?!"

"Aren't you tempted you know..."

"To cheat?!" I completed his sentence knowing full well he will ask me this.

"Math, I told you, I have slept with thousands of women but if I bang a bitch now, it's not going to do me any good, she gets to brag that she banged the Arjun Mehra. What should I brag about?! That I Fucked a hot model or actress.  So what?! There are many hot and sexy woman out there but there is only one Arjun Mehra. That whore gets more than I get out of this deal, I just get sex that too I will enjoy for the time being and move on. It does nothing except damage to my spirit, my masculinity, my drive in life. I don't want that, I am on a pursuit to be the greatest Mafia leader ever, there is a lot left to achieve in life. Let's say if I fuck a bitch, I won't but let's say being a man I couldn't stop myself. Radhika will be heartbroken, she won't leave me and eventually she will forgive it because it's not like I am going to bring home a mistress and have children with her, am I?! She will always be my Queen and my only wife, the only woman who I will share my life with, have children with and share everything I have. But to be honest with you, bro I don't want to do it, there is nothing for me in it."

"So you are not even slightly tempted?! You know we see all these beautiful women in our clubs, our business ventures who practically throw themselves at us...."

"Mathew, I am not dead, am I?! I am a hot blooded man as much as you are but then you know, I have been around the block for a really long time now. I am an old man, I mean not old but I am going to turn thirty soon and with my experience and knowledge, I am a dangerous man because I know things, I have power to control my mind and my cock. Like I said, there is nothing in it for me to fuck a bitch, I mean now I just have higher pursuits in life. When I was twenty, I had a totally different take, I was sowing my wild oats because I wasn't looking for anything serious with those women."

"When did you realize it's serious with Radhika?! I know for a fact marriage meant nothing to you in the beginning so don't bullshit with me!"

Fuck! What the hell is this?! A counseling session?! And why do I have to talk so much?! I hate talking.

"Even if I bullshit with you, you won't believe me because you know me. With Radhika, I don't know man, I can't really put my finger over one thing and tell you that this is the thing that made me realise that I am serious about her. Before her, I believed my perfect woman didn't existed, I mean you know me, you always knew what I wanted in my wife. So Radhika was a virgin, sweet, innocent and there are some things that she did that showed me the purity of her heart and soul. She didn't force me to change my behavior, she didn't demand things from me, she never for once discussed if I slept with other women, she didn't ask me questions that would annoy the shit out of me. All she asked was a chance from me, to see her differently rather than seeing her as Rehan's daughter."

I still remember that night when we had just had sex and she wanted more, she wanted something I had never given to any woman, something I didn't know if I even had but the innocence in her eyes as she asked me, disarmed me completely. I gave in to her request and her eyes lit up with pure joy. She was so happy that day and I wasn't really sure about it because I didn't know what I had to do actually because I have never been in a romantic relationship with a woman in my past
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"Did you cheat on her, Arjun?!"

"Well aren't you a nosey little bitch?!"

"Just answer the fucking question?!"

"That's none of your business."

"Its related to me, I feel if you could get married and stay faithful then I can do that too because you and I have a lot in common."

"That's the stupidest thing I have ever heard, you and I are similar but I don't think so me messing around....."

"Just answer the question, bro."

"A little bit, yes." I shrugged.

It's what it is, no point hiding after all he is my best friend.

"What the fuck is little bit?! You either cheated or you didn't!"

"Well I didn't fuck any woman but you know with easy access to women and being the man in my position, also my hatred for Rehan and being adamant on hurting Radhika, I did mess up a bit but I didn't have sex with any woman because well I don't want to elaborate on that, I can't talk about Radhika that way in front of you even though you are my best friend but she is my wife...."

"Yeah I get it, even I don't want to know because I can guess what it is knowing you."

Of course he knows! It's about sex and it will be a cold fucking day in hell when I will discuss about our sex life with Mathew. We have talked about women, fucked same women many times in the past and talked about sex with each other over the years but I will never talk about Radhika that way because she is my wife and I am very possessive about her.

She is mine in all aspects so it also means I will never discuss her with Mathew because guys get visuals in their heads. Mathew is not an asshole to think about his best friend's wife that way but men are visual creatures, we objectify women and we get visuals without intending so I draw the line here.

"I want what you guys have, I mean you both look happy together." He murmured.

"Then find a good girl, sweet, innocent, virgin...."

"Fuck you! Bro, I don't care about virginity I mean of course I do want the body count to be less than three but virgins are rare and I am realistic unlike you. You are from a medieval age, you are practically a caveman!"

"That I am." I smirked and went back to my sets, pushing my limits.

He placed the dumbells in the dumbells rack and turned to me," I am done, see you later bro."

"You didn't even work out, bro." I said, doing my bicep curls.

"I worked out for two hours straight with you and my arms are killing me! I have to go to the office and Mark will kill me if I am late."

"You are such a pussy! Before Radhika got pregnant, I use to wake up at four, work out for three hours then I use to go to the office then the headquarters in the evening, and I use to fuck my wife forever in the night. My day is all the same even now minus the fervorous sex because she can't take it now."

"You are a crazy man, I am not. I don't need to kill myself throughout the day."

He said as he left before I could give it back to him.

"Whatever, lazy dumb ass fucker!"  I screamed at him but I don't think he heard as he would have come up with a snarky comment.

After wrapping up my workout I took a shower in the gym and had my breakfast, signed some files that my assistant had dropped home since I haven't gone to the office for quite some time now, did a video conference with a client in my study and decided to check up on wifey now since I haven't seen her since morning.

As I neared the door, I thought about Matthew's words about telling Radhika about what I am going to do to her father and brother and she has a right to know but fuck, not today!

She was sitting on the bed while I entered in, she was rubbing her baby bump and talking to the baby which I think is adorable but I am just not in the mood.

"Radhika."

She looked at me with her eyes full of love and devotion towards me. She looked happy, so fucking happy and I didn't wanted to take that away from her.

"Arjun." She hugged me as much as her baby bump will allow.

" You know I was talking to the baby, I felt it move. It was the most wonderful feeling ever. You need to feel this." She took my hand and placed it on her baby bump, expecting me to carress it and her eyes bright as stars, staring at me with happiness and hope.

Oh baby, I am so sorry, I don't want to hurt you but I can't spare those two.

" Next time, I will tell you when it moves." She pouted.

I turned to the other side, putting on my poker face so she doesn't get suspicious but I was wrong, I can't hide from her. She knows, she always knows!

"You are not happy?!" She asked me sadly, looking down at her feet. Her face fell and I felt like such an asshole for not even giving her the reaction she wanted out of me.

I pulled her chin up,"No that's not..."

She cuts me off," You didn't even kiss the baby and you didn't even kiss me."

I kneeled down before her and placed my hands on the either side of her waist, I leaned closer and kissed her baby bump. I stood up on my feet the next minute turning away from her because I didn't wanted her to see that I wasn't being myself in front of her, I was hiding the truth from her.

Fuck. I have always been honest with her, good, bad, ugly, worst I have never hidden things related to my life and things she should know but I don't want to dull the shine in her eyes today. She deserves this moment, she has every right to be happy even if it means I have to lie to her.

She hugged me from behind, kissing my shoulder," Oh, Arjun, I am so happy. You know the baby moved for the first time, I wish you would have been there to feel this."

Fuck this! Let's just go to the doctor and get to know what's growing in her belly. The sooner we know, the sooner I can tell her what she needs to know.

" Get ready, we are leaving in an hour, wear something loose that doesn't reveal the baby bump."

She frowned," Why?!"

" Because I am saying so, don't argue. The pregnancy needs to be under wraps right now. It's a big risk to show you off right now especially after what we have gone through and I am not going to take any chance." I said in a much harsher tone than I intended.

She stared at me, scared and shocked at my sudden outburst as she backed away from me, placing her hands on her belly as if protecting the baby or trying to seek comfort from the baby.

Fuck! What the fuck did I do!

I palmed my face, as shame filled me.

" Fuck! I am sorry. Don't be scared, you know I will never hurt you." I assured her.

She still looked unsure but she nodded.

" I got scared when you screamed out of nowhere."

I held her by her shoulders and made her sit down on the bed as I kneeled before her," I am sorry, baby let's start over once again. Did the baby move?!"

She smiled wide, nodding her head with tears in her eyes. She took my hand in hers and placed it on her baby bump and I got goosebumps all over my body feeling the most incredible thing in the world. It moved! The baby made a movement, it kicked! Fuck! It's insane!

Suddenly I feel this hot rush of overpowering emotion in my veins as my heart threatened to jump out of my chest. Tears formed in my eyes and this ones I could not pull back inside my eyes.

She cupped my face," You are crying?!"

I looked up at her, staring at her through my tears," No I am just happy, I haven't been happy for a really long time."

And I want to cherish this moment forever because everything has led to this, and if I get to experience this heartfelt movement that might make my heart burst out of joy then I have no complaints whatsoever from life.

She wiped my tears away, as she looked at me with undying love not sympathy and pity but just love, pure love. This is the answer to Mathew's question after all, this is why I don't miss any of the shit I used to do.

"That's because you don't let yourself get carried away and be happy in the moment, you worry too much about what's going to happen next."

I worry because I am supposed to worry, as a man, I have to provide and protect you and my family. If I turn a blind eye and deaf ear to my surroundings, I can get outsmarted by my enemies. I chose to trust that hoe over my gut feeling and look where it got us.

" Radhika, shit happens in my world when I am not on my high alert and that happens when I am so lost in my own bubble. The same thing happened when I trusted that whore over my gut instinct."

"Aren't you happy now?!" She asked me as doubt clouded her thoughts.

I can be happy, my love, I can't be lost in my happiness that I forget my duty as a man.

I placed my hand on her baby bump," Of course I am happy, why would you think I am not?! This is my child, my flesh and blood but at the same time it makes me insanely protective and possessive about it. It's like I want to lock you in a crpyt to protect you and this little one."

She cried, hearing me and I got worried about her. Fuck. What did I do now?!

I cupped her face," Hey, you don't need to cry, you are supposed to be happy, and I want you to enjoy this without worrying about anything."

You don't need to worry, Radhika. You never have to worry, I don't ever want to see lines of worry creasing your forehead. Yes, a part of me wants to lock you up in a crypt because baby, you are so good, pure, you are nothing like me. You are so precious to me that there is no life without you that's the reason I could lay down my life in a second for you.

I was staring at her sweet face when I felt it again, as if something kicked my hand. Her face contorted in pain as she winced holding her belly.

Ah!

"What's wrong, Radhika?! Are you okay?!" My heartbeat dropped as she winced again.

She gave me a smile," He is getting stronger, I guess."

"That he has to be, he is my son and he is going to be the next King." I said as I rubbed her belly.

"Why not a she?!" She questioned.

"Don't think I am a misogynist, I mean I am but this baby never felt like a she as in its like I know he is a boy."

I am not lying here, it just never felt like it's a girl, I mean I have this strong gut feeling that it's a boy. I don't know how true it is, we will know today anyways.

"I hope you aren't going to be disappointed today if its a she."

To be honest with her and most of all myself, I want a son but of course we can't interfere with what God has planned for us in any case.

"At first yes to a certain degree, I will be disappointed but then having a daughter is wonderful too." I cajole her.

"Would you treat her differently?!"

"Radhika, men and women are different so they should be treated differently. I would always expect more from my son than my daughter. If we have a daughter, my number one concern will be to ensure her happiness but things will be completely different if we are having a son."

My daughter will get everything she wants from me until she is married and that too I will select the man who will provide and protect her who will be ready to lay down his life for her like her father would. Sons are much serious business than daughters because it's the Son that is going to take my legacy ahead, he is going to be a reflection of what I am of course in my opinion, what are children but an extention and reflection of parents themselves.

"How different?!" She asked and I could smell the fear in her voice.

"I am okay with having a dumb daughter but I will not be okay with having a dumb son because life is hard for men generally. Society expects more  from men and if I toughen him up from young age then comparatively he will cope well when left alone in the wild after his father is dead and not there to protect him.  Of course I will not be cruel like my father but I won't make it easy for him. You are allowed to be stupid if you are female if you have a man to look after your best interest in my daughter's case, it will be me always making sure she is okay and happy but if my Son expects me to treat him the way I treat his sister, I would tell him to smell the coffee and grow the fuck up."

I have my own set of expectations from my Son and I don't really expect much from my daughter, I just want her to be happy, have a good life, be as sweet as her mother and obey what her father tells her to do because her father would always have her best interest at heart. In fact any parent would wish what's best for their child. I strongly believe men have a hard life and they are judged on the parameters of success and what they can provide. Women on the other hand are loved selflessly, so a man needs to grow up, be rich, reach his best potential and aim for the skies.

I am not going to sugarcoat things to my son, to be honest if my Son behaves like a pussy and sits crying in a corner, I will get mad at him and tell him to grow some balls and stop being a sussy. On the other hand if my daughter comes crying to me due to some reason, I will give her a hug and tell her everything is alright, Daddy is there for her.

"I don't like this." She expressed her displeasure.

 
"You don't have to like it, you can be in charge of the daughter, I want her to grow up to be like you but I have totally different expectations from my Son. It's the family name and legacy that stays after we are all gone. Daughter's don't carry forward the legacy because someday I have to give her away to her husband but a Son isn't going anywhere."

She frowned,"I disagree with you and I don't like how misogynistic you sound right now."

Misogynist?! I am realistic about the world unlike you. I live in the real world and in the real world, there are no unicorns, fairies and easter fucking bunnies!

I take a deep breath to calm myself down, I don't want to say anything out of line especially now. Radhika doesn't get it but men in our world have to be strong as a ox, fearless as a lion and smart as a tack, he has to be ten steps ahead of his enemies that's how I have lived my life and achieved everything I have in life. I want my son to be as tough as nails just like me.

"And I told you, it doesn't matter if you like it or not, this is the way it is going to be. Daughter will have everything and Son will have to work hard and earn it." I say in a hard tone.

"So you are going to discriminate between our children?!"

Discriminate?! I will love all my children equally but every parent has his or her favorite and in my case it will be a son no matter how hard I make it for him, he will know in the end that his father did what he had to for his own good. In my little girl's case, I have no reason to be hard on her, she isn't going to stay a Mehra forever, one day she will get married and take her husband's name.

"Answer this question, if twenty years from now, we are attacked then who should I send to fight our enemies?! What's the worst thing they could do to a man?! Torture him?! Beat him till he pukes blood?! Should I expect my daughter to fight off my enemies or should I rely on my Son?! You know I don't want to say it but there are godawful things that can be done to a woman in comparison to what can be done to a Man. You know it, I know it, everyone knows it. It's the truth that we all run from and we stay in denial forever."

I don't understand how come Radhika has not learnt her lesson after what we have been through?!

"But...."

I cut her off,"Radhika, my dear, I don't want a son because I want a solid male offspring, I want someone who will protect everything his father worked hard for after his father is dead and buried in his grave. I expect my son to look after his mother and his younger siblings and do everything it takes to keep his family safe. I want someone to lead this family after me and that's not going to be a girl because you know what, nobody is going to take shit from a woman, they will rise up against the throne and there will be a bloodbath. I don't expect much from a daughter, all I want for her is to have the best life, get everything she wants. I will never mistreat my daughter in fact my Son will have it hard in comparison to her."

Arjun, she doesn't understand because she doesn't want to understand beyond her unconditional love for the child. I get it, she is a mother and she is concerned about the baby but what she doesn't get it, is that I am not some monster who will get off on my child's pain, I will do what is best for them because that's my kid.

I carressed her cheek," Don't worry, baby, you don't need to worry about all this. I understand you are concerned as a mother and you want what is best for the baby but you are thinking of the present and I am thinking twenty years ahead."

She doesn't understand it, and I have to remember that I am eight years older than her and given her experience with life, she is practically a kid. I must keep my patience and explain to her slowly in a pace she could learn.

She took my hand and placed it on her baby bump," Can't we just stay in the moment and enjoy this?!"

She is right, we have all the time in the world to fight but we shouldn't ruin this beautiful moment.

I kissed her stomach," As you say, ma'am."

Out of nowhere she screamed holding her stomach scaring me.

"Fuck! It's unreal, it's fucking amazing! Does it hurt now?!" I asked her rubbing her baby bump.

"No, this are just gentle kicks."

I take in her beautiful face, and I see her unconditional love for the baby.
With her immaturity and inexperience, she still wants to do her best for the baby and I do understand we have different opinions on raising our kids but our opinions come from the purity of our emotions.

She has this happy smile on her face as she places her hand on mine.

I pecked her forehead," Get ready baby, we need to leave in an hour." I remind her.

She hugs me and she feels like a little girl who is in pain and wants to be held and comforted.

I wrap my arms around her rubbing her back to calm her down as she keeps wincing every now and then when the baby kicks strongly inside her stomach.

"I love you, Radhika, I really do more than you will ever know."

I wanted to say thank you so badly but instead I chose to tell her how much I love her and what she means to me.

She sobbed in my arms," It hurts, I was lying before when I said it doesn't hurt."

I pull back to look at her face and my heart breaks seeing her wet cheeks and new tears ready to stream down down those cheeks.

"Baby, its okay, I am with you, I might not feel your pain but I will be there with you at every step. I promise Radhika, I will never leave you alone."

She wiped her nose in the most cutest way," You better not, I am having your baby and you are responsible for everything I am going through."

I couldn't help myself from smiling.

"Yeah smile all you want, smirk too. I am so miserably pregnant and you are all, hunky dory."

I laughed as I pulled her in a hug," Baby, think about this, you get to bond with the baby before it's even born and I have to touch your stomach to feel it. He is inside you, he knows you, he knows your voice, he hears to your heartbeats probably goes to sleep listening to them, you are his only connection to the outside world. He will love you Radhika more than anyone else as a child and when he grows up, he will worship you. This is my child, I know he will."

She sobbed,"What you said is so sweet!"

I kissed her forehead," You are the sweetest, my sweet girl. Don't cry baby its fine you are my strong girl."

She hummed and I wiped her tears.

This what I need in life, a woman who loves me deeply and is ready have a family with me not some whore who I will fuck for a night and discard the next morning. I have done more than enough of that in my life but I feel sex gives you pleasure, fucking different women every day boost your ego but to sleep with the same woman who loves me and I love her to death is like food to my soul, my dark soul.

I pull her to my chest, hugging her carressing the back of her head as I decided to hold her a bit longer to comfort her.

I pulled back and kissed her slowly, moving my lips against her, distracting her from the pain. She placed hers hands on my chest and her fingers moved across the wide expanse of my chest. Her fingers fiddled to open the buttons of my shirt but I held her hand, stopping her.

"No baby, not now we don't have time."

I caught her other hand that was splaying over my jeans clad restrained cock," Stop, baby not now."

She pouted," Not even five minutes?!"

"You think we will be done in five minutes?!" I smirked.

My cock pouted too at the same time, saddened by my abstinence, and I was so fucking hard but Fuck No! Not now!

"But why not?! I can convince you." She said, wrapping her arms around my neck.

I smirked," Baby, don't play games with me, you know you can't make me change my mind no matter how hard you try."

"I think you forgot I have got sole ownership over you and this..." She touched my over excited cock over the jeans," Something which no other woman achieved with you. You tend to underestimate me, husband."

Fuck! She is killing me!

I was speechless because firstly she is Radhika, she doesn't talk like this and right now she is seducing me with mere words without even doing anything.

"Fine, Mrs Mehra I agree with you there but would you be kind enough to not torture me right now unless you want me to spot a boner throughout our appointment."

"Then why don't you just fuck me now?!" She asked me looking at me with desirous eyes.

"Because we are short on time...."

"Oh you can push the appointment, stop making lame excuses." She snorted.

"I like to be on time and you are right, I can push the appointment but I don't want to because I am so fucking excited to know what we are having. You have no preference that is why you are so chilled and relaxed and you want to have sex.

She hugged me, her mouth nibbed against the area of my neck," Let me see if I can change your mind."

I pulled back," You will win, I know but please baby, I promise the second we are home, I will fuck you like there is no tomorrow."

She gave me a full fledged pout and I leaned in kissing her full, luscious lips," Get ready, baby.

"You are an old grump!"

She huffed and pushed me away, got up and marched to the wash room making me chuckle at her ire. What has got in to her?! She is so entertaining lately, I think it's the baby hormones which I have no clue about but it is fucking enjoyable and adorable at the same time.

To be continued....