Radhika's POV

I sobbed in his arms but all my anger came back in gale force and I pushed him away.

What I didn't do to make this man happy?!

All I expected, all I ever expected was him to be faithful and be a good husband. Is that too much to ask for?!

" Why?! Didn't you think how much it will hurt me?!" I asked cried.

How could he not understand how much it would damage me and my self esteem?!

"You were Rehan's daughter for me that time and I didn't think it over that much but when I went there, I felt the world closed up on me. I will tell you what happened if you promise that you will forgive me."

He expects me to forgive without knowing what happened between him and that woman! Like seriously?!

"You promise you didn't have sex with her?!"

He nodded and placed his large palm on my baby bump," I swear over my child, Radhika. What other guarantee can I give you?!"

He would have never swore over our child if he would have cheated on me.

" Tell me what happened?!" I asked and I want nothing but the truth.

He told me how intended to fuck that girl and he went there with every intention to fuck her until cows came home but he revealed how he froze when he saw her naked. My blood ran cold when he revealed how he tried to enjoy looking at her but he couldn't.

He shared how he saw me in place of that woman, wounding him with my teary eyes. My screams echoed in his ears as he kept drinking one after another peg of alcohol and passed out later. Oh, Thank God, he did!

Tears welled in my eyes as I realized how much power he has over me. If he had touched that woman, I would have never been able to forget that ever. I would have forgiven because for me, our present matters more than our past but I know in my heart, it would have taken a really long time to mend our marriage.

He tried to touch my face but I slapped his hand away," Don't touch me!"

"I am sorry baby please don't cry, I promise nothing happened, I swear over my baby that I didn't touched her."

He pleaded with me to understand but how can I and why am I expected to understand this.

He would have killed me if I cheated on him and I am expected to forgive this! The nerve of him!

"Why?!" I asked him, staring at him with tears of hurt and pain in my eyes.

He looked at me,"Because I was an asshole and it has nothing to do with you, it was me, all me, trying to prove a point to myself that you meant nothing to me and you were just that bastard's daughter but I failed miserably. I felt sheer disgust for myself and I felt that I have put myself in the same category of my father."

I take in his words and I realise that it must have happened initially in the first week of our marriage when he wanted to hurt me every which way he could. He was such a heartless monster those days and I shudder even when I think about what I endured with him in those days.

"So nothing happened?!" I asked him again because I need to hear it again.

He wiped my tears," Nothing happened, I haven't been with any woman after you. I took away your virginity but it was you who staked a claim on me that night."

I glare at him,"You will not look at any other woman no matter how beautiful she is."

He smiled," You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen because you have the most beautiful heart. I love you, Radhika more than you will ever know."

And you will never know just how much I love you, I don't want to tell you, I don't want to give you that immeasurable power over me but here I am giving you another chance despite everything because I love you so much that it hurts.

You are the first man, my first experience, my first in everything, I have worked so hard for this marriage to work, I have prayed each day for you to change and for you to love me. I prayed for hope every single moment when you tormented me and crushed me with your heartless words.

I made you give us a chance, I hoped in the most impossible time of my life and when you told me that you were giving us a chance, that you were ready to give our marriage a chance, I felt as if my heart will burst out of joy when you made love to me that day.

"It would have broken me especially now because you are my whole world and my life revolves around you." I said in a serious tone.

You are my whole life, Arjun. I can't think what would have happened to me if you would have not made it back to me. I can't even imagine that.

He kissed my forehead," I know, my love. I am sorry please forgive me."

"Didn't she try anything?!" I asked him in an unsure tone.

"She knew better than touching me when I was not in my senses and I could make or break her career."

"Are you still in touch with her?!"

I will have your balls, if you say yes.

"No. Am I forgiven now?!" He asked me, and he looks relaxed as he can read my face like a book. He already knows I have forgiven him.

"Forgiven and don't bring this up ever again."

Actually I want to just forget what happened in the initial days of our marriage, I mean when I look at this man and how much he has changed for me also I see him making efforts to make up for the terrible things he did to me in the past. I see him trying his best to be the best for me, he treats me well in fact he worships me now and it just makes me believe that its of no use to keep grudges in my heart.

"Never." He promised me.

I smiled and he smiled back at me, cupping my face, he leaned in and kissed the tip of my nose.

I touched his neck and trailed down to his chest and I touched his back with my other hand. He held my hand that was touching his chest," What are you doing, baby?!"

"You don't know what I am doing?!"

He smirked," I know exactly what you are doing but you should sleep now, it's late."

"Its never use to be late when you use to fuck me till dawn." I taunted him.

He carressed my cheek,"You are pregnant now."

But I want him to touch me, I want him to kiss me, I want him to touch me in places I have never touched myself.

I glared at him,"No, you are bored of me! You don't want to make love to me anymore because I have become fat now....."

He cuts me off,"Shut up! Shut the fuck up! Do you even know how beautiful you are?! Do you know what it does to me when I see you carrying my baby?! You have no idea Radhika, how much I want to make love to you, how much I want to fuck you even in this state when I know I can't get rough with you."

I looked him in the eye," So be rough with me."

He shook his head," We can't, you are pregnant."

I pouted,"We can try and I know you won't hurt me."

He cupped my pussy and I moaned feeling his hand covering my heat," I want to pound you, I want to fuck you till you don't feel your legs anymore. I want to fuck you till you are weak in the knees.

I was so wet just by hearing his obscene intentions and I wanted him inside me now. I moaned loud as he kissed my breast, his hand fondling its twin. I winced as he altered from soft to rough in his ferocious kisses.

Ah!

I winced as he bit my nipple and sucked it hard driving me crazy with need. He went down on me, smooching my baby bump and stopped when he reached my slit.

He opened my nether lips with his fingers and pushed his tongue inside, and I came all over his mouth before he did anything. My God, I am such a putty in this man's hands!

"Too fast, baby. The best happens when you hold."

"I can't." I moaned.

"Yes you can and you will. Don't cum till I tell you to." He ordered me and I melted hearing his voice, dominating me.

He sucked me furiously, lapping on my juices and taking me in his mouth completely. I clenched his hair in my hands to grab a hold on the rush of pleasure that spread through me.

"Ah! I can't....hold...back..."

"Control, baby. Trust me, you will enjoy this." He said before thrusting his long and thick finger inside me making me scream at the intrusion.

He flexed his finger in and out of my clit driving me to the edge and bringing me back on earth, he was withholding my orgasm.

Stop! I can't, anymore....

I shrieked, as he kept fingering me, causing a powerful hurricane in my body.

"Cum now, baby."

I let go and just when I thought it was over, he added another finger increasing the intensity of my orgasm ten times. He really is the Sex God, sometimes I resent where this knowledge came from but then I should make peace with the fact that I might not be his first but I will be his last.

"You feel better?!" He asked me, hovering on top of me.

I opened my eyes to him," Yes but I want more."

He smirked," You are one greedy little wife but I like it. You have become a bit bold now."

"That's because you have corrupted me."

"Then let me corrupt you completely."

He husked, pushing his cock inside my heat He jerks forward coming face to face with me, his hands supporting his body and keeping his weight off me. Oh God. Why is he embarrasing me like that?! I don't really look at him when we are doing it, I feel shy, nervous and exposed.

"Open your eyes and look at me." He probs me by gently tilting my chin. He was carressing my face and looking straight into my eyes, I felt as if he was reaching out to my very soul.

I peaked at him, bashfully. Oh My God. He was staring at me with a kind of passion that is deeper, darker and comsuming. I felt possessed, I felt I wasn't my own, I was his to own.

I gulp when I feel him pushing himself inside him. Its been three months and I know it is not a long time but we use to go at it everyday and I don't know how it will feel now after this break of three months.

"Ah!!" I scream as I feel him fully inside me and I feel his manhood touching my womb. He is filling me up to the brim, My tears breakthrough because of the pain of uncomfortable stretching and because he is so endowed down there.

He cups my face," This is what I want now and forever, Me inside you, this is my favorite place in the world." He wipes my tears and pecks my nose. I feel my inner muscles tightening around him like a clove. He pulls back a fraction then the whole of him and thrust back inside me deeply. I wince again and again as he repeats the same thing, His pace was slow but he slammed inside me deeper and harder each time. My head jerked back in pleasure as I felt the familiar warm sensation engulfing me and my body rocks as a powerful orgasm serges through my body. He kisses me hard as he moves inside me slowly yet deeply. I feel as if he is climbing inside me, this is so different, so much pleasurable than before. I feel as if we are one, not close but one entity!

I feel him carressing my face and he places soft kisses all over my face. What is up with him?! He is never so much affectionate, I mean he is but today his touch feels too different, his kisses feel more passionate and consuming as if he wants to consume me completely.

After a minute or two I felt both his arms wrap around my waist, lifting my body slightly off the bed, as he thrust again. After that he took it faster and if even possible harder and rougher and I wouldn't want it any other way.

"You want me to slow down baby?!" He breathed out as he maintained his harsh and punishing rhythm.

"No" I managed to moan out. I like it this way but I will be lying if I say I don't like it slow sometimes.

"You are so good baby. God! I love you so much." I feel his hot release filling me until it spills out of me and I reach my own instantly with him slamming inside me harder each time.

"Should we stop?!" He asked me as his breath came out in hard and fast pants.

"Why?! Are you tired?!" I smiled, teasing him.

He smirked,"Baby, I think you have become forgetful with the pregnancy. I can fuck forever, Radhika, you know it and I know it. "

"No I just thought with age, you are losing your stamina."

"What do you think is my age?!" He asked, in an amused tone.

I frowned,"I never asked you. Oh my God! I don't know your age! How come you never told me?!"

"Because you never asked." He replied.

"Yeah but you should have told me."

He winked,"Guess it baby."

"26?!" I tried my luck.

I mean he looks young and handsome, he can't be that older than me, right?!

"No." He smiled a mischievous one.

"28?!"

He can't be older than that, can he?!

"I will be turning thirty next year."

Thirty! But he doesn't look thirty at all! He looks 26 at the most and I know how hard he works out to look a certain way.

"So you are eight years older than me. You literally robbed the cradle!"

Yes, I am taunting him.

He smiled smugly,"I sure did, I never told you but we bonded when you were in your mother's womb." He shared and my eyes widened in shock at his revelation.

What the hell!

"What! That makes no sense! You are making this up!" I retorted.

He shook his head,"No I am not, I met your mother when she was pregnant with you. I think I was maybe in seventh or eighth standard."

He met my mother and he knew my mother personally! I mean we have had this conversation before but I never could get to this details.

"You met my mom! You actually met my mom when she was pregnant with me! How come you never told me this?!"

Why didn't he ever tell me?!

He smiled,"I am telling you now. You look like her."

"I do?!" I asked, excited to know more.

He nodded,"Yeah she was very pretty and she was always  affectionate with me whenever your fucking father use to bring her to our house. She was a sweet lady, I liked her."

"What was she like?! Did you talk to her?! Did she talk about me?!" I bombarded him with questions but I want to know more.

He chuckled,"Baby, you were not born that time but she knew she was having a girl and I think she wanted a girl only."

"What else did she say?!" I asked curiously.

He carressed my cheek,"From the looks of it, you were the only thing in her life that made her happy. You were her hope and I think she loved you very much, she wanted to see you grow in front of her eyes."

"She died when I was five or six." I said wiping away a drop of tear that escaped my eyes.

He kissed my forehead,"She loved you, Radhika even when you were not born. She wished for a girl and I vaguely remember her sitting by the pool side and talking to her baby bump. She was so ecstatic about you."

My eyes watered again,"I never could get to know her."

He kissed my tears away,"Sweetheart, we don't get everything we want in our life. You should find peace in the fact that she loved you and wanted to be there for you."

I looked at him,"You know why I love this child so much despite the way it was concieved?!"

"Radhika, I am sorry...."

I cut him off,"Hear me out please, I never got to know my mother and I craved for mother's love whole my life. When I got to know I was with a child, my first thought was that I will be stuck with you forever if I have your child but even the thought of aborting it, was so unbearable for me. I felt so protective about this child, my child that I couldn't bear to lose it."

I wiped my tears as he listened to me intently," I felt he or she shouldn't suffer what I suffered at a young age. I never got to have a mother and I know how difficult it is to live your life without a mother. I was scared about your reaction. I thought you will force me to abort...."

He breaks in on me,"I would have never asked you to abort, Radhika in fact I would have lost my temper if you wanted to abort my baby and I would have made sure you give birth to my child."

"I know." I nodded.

No matter what he says, I am not the kind of a person to abort. Nothing against those women who make that choice, it's nothing wrong and right about it. It's just the kind of a person I am and my past experiences, my longing for my mother also growing up with all men in the house was tough and wasn't an easy ride. Top it up with a Mafia family who weren't exactly accommodating of a little girl's feelings.

I won't say they were cruel to me or they hated me, in fact they loved me, both my father and brother but they just not there. I was mostly brought up by caretakers and househelps and that has had an impact on my mind.

For me, this baby is mine and I would never let anyone hurt it let alone be the person to hurt it.

"I am sorry, baby for everything."

His eyes were full of regret and I know if he could undo everything he did to me, he would in a heartbeat.

"Its all in the past and I have forgiven you. I want to start afresh, Arjun, I really do." I touched his cheek and he leaned more in to my hand.

"I promise to make up for everything that I have done in the past, for all the times I treated you like shit and yet you took me back."

Yes, I took you back because you are my husband and I know I meant something to you even when you claimed that I meant nothing except a means to avenge your mom.

He carressed my cheek," Sometimes I wonder why did you never gave up on me?! I was an asshole, Radhika. I didn't deserve any of the compassion  or love you gave me. Why didn't you give up on me?!"

I  looked him in the eye," Because I could see I affected you even when you use to say I meant nothing to you. I never told you this but I knew you were watching me sleep and when you thought I was fast asleep, you use to carress my face with so much affection. You have a come a long way, Arjun. Both of us have, you never wanted to accept me as your wife, you never wanted to care for me or love me, you were all about your revenge and hatred for Fath...Rehan and now even if I dissappear for a minute, you get restless."

"You are my whole life, Radhika. I might sound poetic but for me Sun rises and sets with you in my eyes. You sunked me in the first time I saw you." He confessed with utmost honesty.

My eyes widened in shock,"Really?!"

"I think I fell in love with you the first time I saw you, the first time you fell into my arms but I was just too much of an asshole to admit it that I didn't just wanted to fuck you and later my revenge clouded my thoughts about you." He confesses and my heart fills with enormous amount of happiness.

Tears of joy welled in my eyes as I sniffled, wiping my runny nose with the back of my palm, drawing a chuckle from him.

"I love you, baby. I just want you to be happy and I want this smile on your face to be etched forever."

He carressed my face lovingly, tucking my loose hair strands behind my ear, he leaned in and kissed my forehead. My heart warmed at his words and I know without any doubt in my heart, that my eyes have registered the undying love in his eyes and this day will always be embedded in my memory.

"I love you, Arjun."

My eyes lit up seeing the most alluring smile that broke on his face, hearing me tell him that I love him.

"Sleep, baby." He said softly as he laid down by my side.

But we were going to continue, weren't we?!

I gave him a flipping pout but he pulled the tip of my nose gently," Sleep, baby, we have an appointment tomorrow and I don't want us to be late for it. I can't wait for dawn, I am so fucking excited for tomorrow."

"I am excited too." I agreed with him.

"Sleep, Radhika." He repeated and I nodded, inching closer to him to sleep in his arms with him carressing my head.

I could actually feel the rhythm of his heartbeats with my face pressed against his chest and I felt a sense of achievement and gratitude towards God and universe for what I achieved with this once heartless man. He was mine, all mine and he loved me to death to sacrifice his life for me not once but twice.

To be continued.....