Radhika's POV

I couldn't sleep alone in our bed as it felt too large and too empty. I miss resting my head on Arjun's chest after he has exhaused me to sleep. I miss intertwining our hands together and admiring how perfectly we fit together. I miss every single thing from him caressing my face in the morning to him kissing my forehead in the night.

Where are you, Arjun?! I don't think I can take this distance anymore. I would have taken my life had I not been with this baby. It's just my love for this child that is keeping me alive.

I was standing watching the moon that looks so beautiful. It's strangely comforting to watch the sky full of stars. I have always loved star gazing. It has been my favourite thing to do since the time I was a kid. Arjun wouldn't allow me more than five minutes because he would say that the air is too cold for my health and he doesn't want me to catch cold. How I wish he will reprimand me today and drag me back to our room. How I wish he will make love to me. I miss his touch on my body but most of all I miss hearing his heartbeats when my face is in par with his heart.

I think I shouldn't stay here for too long. If I catch cold then it won't be good for my baby. I turned to leave but stopped when I realised I wasn't alone here. He stood there watching me and I didn't like the way he was staring at me. For whatever reason but I didn't want him staring at me.

"What are you doing here?!" I asked him.

"I can ask you the same?!" He replied.

No you can't! This is my husband's house and I can roam here freely.

I stared at him icily,"This is my house and I don't need your permission to roam freely here."

"This is my house too." He said as he walked towards me.

The nerve of him to claim this house as his. This is only Arjun's house and no one else's!

"This is my husband's house and you are not him." I stated rigidly.

"Are you always like this?!" He asked me.

"Like what?!" I queried him.

A smile coiled on his lips,"Fiesty?! Do you always talk back or it's just me who is bringing this out of you?!"

Oh he thinks he brings out this side out of me. He should be told that he means nothing to me and I just hate him.

I shake my head in disapproval," You can never affect me in any way. All I feel for you is hatred."

Because of you I am alone without my husband. It's only because of you my and my child's future is put on a back burner now. I don't know what's going to happen to us. It's all your fault!

He stares me in the eye"Arjun wasn't a good man either. You know all about his sex escapades right?!" He asked me in a demanding tone.

Of course I know but that's all in the past. I am done bemoaning Arjun for what he did in his life before me. I have hurt myself and him a lot over this and now it feels like waste of energy and time. What's important is that Arjun never strayed or cheated on me. He doesn't even look at other women anymore and he has been pretty much vocal about that.

"He didn't hide anything from me. He never cheated on me but why am I telling you all this?!" I asked myself not really paying any heed to him.

"That's not important. You know Radhika, believe it or not he has blindfolded you with his love but you never got to see the world outside because you are blinded by your love. You don't know anything except Arjun and that is what he wanted. You are not a wife but a beautiful object that sits high on the shelf and pleases him. Tell me the last time you have done something crazy?! Something which made your ears hear the thumping of your heart?!" He pleaded with me to answer that though it is of no concern to him.

I don't understand this man at all. Why does he even care so much about what I have done or haven't done?! I am his enemy's wife and he is supposed to hate me. Here he is being too nice to me which is giving me a bad feeling inside my gut.

"He loves me and that is enough. I don't need to do something crazy to feel good about myself. I feel the happiest when Arjun smiles and strokes my cheek with affection. I am only hungry for love and family." I replied to his question anyways not because I wanted to but I felt I owed this to Arjun.

It's true when Arjun smiles, my whole world lits up and all I feel is eternal bliss. When he tells me he loves me and when he touches my baby bump and talks to our child, I feel the happiest. That's all I need in my life and I can't wait to have that back. I feel like a fish out of water right now.

Veer says something that I couldn't make out so I asked him what he said.

"Nothing. I think I should call the night it's already 2 am and I suggest you should sleep too. Staying up that late isn't good for your or your child's health."

Now this man is really getting on my nerves. First he takes over the house now he is trying to take Arjun's place! How dare he?!

"Mind your own fucking business. I know what is best for me and my child. Having my husband's face doesn't make you my husband." I haugtily replied as I gave him a look that says fuck off.

"I don't want to be Arjun."

Oh yeah and I am Queen Elizabeth reincarnation, will you believe that?!

"Stop acting like one then." I tell him in a hard tone.

Him being concerned about me and what I do fills me with so much rage. First this face that tortures me every second and now his actions that take me back to our world where I and Arjun were so happy until he came and ruined everything!

"He talks to you so nicely, I am surprised." He says in a funny tone but I will not have him belittle Arjun never in front of me.

"What is there to be surprised about?!" I ask him, irritated.

"Oh he is an arrogant brute who doesn't know to talk to anyone with respect." He tells me casually with a smirk.

How dare he even say that?! You are standing in Arjun's house that too before his own wife and you talk so disrespectfully about him. I wish I could just slap him but then I don't want to touch him, do I?!

"He is nothing like that." I have raised my voice now as I can't take it anymore.

"Radhika, debating over Arjun when he is not even here is the last thing on my to do list. I know you don't want my suggestions but please I beg you get something better to do in life." He tells me in a suggestive tone.

Why don't you get something better to do in life?! You are in my house giving me all this suggestions when I can't even stand looking at you.

"Why don't you just leave from here?!" I glare ask him.

"You want me to go from here. I am just going." He gets ready to scoot.

"I meant my house. Why don't you leave my house instead of torturing me with your presence?!" I ask him in a fuming tone.

God! I can't stand this man. Now I am regretting coming here to stay but then I have to keep an eye on him too. My room makes me feel Arjun because I inhale his cologue from the bedsheets that I cover myself with. As I run my hands through his shirt I kind of feel I am touching him. I can't go away from all this. I need all of this to survive.

"You should be thankful towards me. You must not be missing seeing him now that you see me." He says in a flirtatious tone.

Missing?! Does that word even simplify what I feel right now. I am pining for him. I feel as if someone has locked me in a room and there is no way to get out. He thinks just because he has Arjun's face then I won't miss Arjun that much. He is so delusional and so stupid to even think like that.

I chuckle,"Hahahaha. You are not even close to his fingernail. You think just because you have my Arjun's face then I will accept you." I cock my brow as I ask him.

No one can be him because he is one and only. There are many stars but there is only one moon in the sky. You can have his face but you cannot have what it takes to be Arjun Mehra. He wasn't the one to pull a woman in front of him to protect himself! What a coward!

"My world doesn't revolve around you, Radhika." He states.

"Good you know your place." I give it back.

He should know his place in this house and my life both. He isn't going to stay here forever. Let my Arjun come back and then he will be shown his right place. I can't wait for that to happen. He will pay for every minute of my misery.

"Radhika, you know the world around you is not black and white it's gray. There are a lot of things you don't know. Even the Arjun you love is not what you choose to believe he is."

"What you mean?! Don't talk in riddles."

"I will just say you should go to the depth of the matter before making a judgement because very often the truth is right in front of us and we don't see it."

"Everyone's truth is different and never the same." I reply to him firmly.

"True but don't you want to know my truth that might change the way you think about me?!" He asked me softly.

Do I want to know?! Am I afraid to know him?! Will it change my thinking about him?! Radhika, Stop! He is playing with you. He is trying to affect you and you can't let him affect you in any way. You are on Arjun's side and you can't be chitchating with his enemy at this hour of night even if it's you bashing him.

"I..."

He cuts me off,"Don't answer that I know you are not ready still. I know what you are going through and how hard it is. I just want you to know that whenever you need someone then I am there."

"You'll be the last person on this earth I'll seek comfort from." I reply in a cold tone.

"Still I am there for you."

"Can you please leave me alone?!" I say in a tired tone.

"Goodnight." He wishes me as he leaves.

I was lying in my bed curled up like a ball. I have no desire to get up as the day is as dark as night. I don't want to get up and find myself alone in the room without Arjun. Oh God! Please just put me to a deep, deep sleep and wake me up only when Arjun comes back. This time without him is like a never ending misery.

"Radhika darling are you up?!"

I heard mary's voice and I closed my eyes again partially ignoring her.

"Darling you have to see the doctor today."

Oh yeah. It's my routine check up day but I don't wish to go anywhere. I just want to be in the bed.

"Radhika, common get up I know you are awake in there." She said as she snatched my comforter from me.

I looked at her with drowsy eyes," I don't want to go."

"What do you mean by you don't want to go?! Darling you can't play with your health like that. Don't you want to know if everything is okay with the baby?!"

"Without Arjun I don't want to go."

"Without master?! I thought he would be accompanying you. He did not sleep with you last night. Did you guys fight?!"

How do I tell you that the one in the house is not your master?! He is an impersonator and I can't breathe a word about it for the safety of my child. I have to stay mum until Arjun comes back.

"I think it must have slipped out of master's mind but that's very unlikely to happen master never forgets a thing."

"Mary, I'll go alone as it is it's just routine check up he need not come along."

"But you know how upset master will be if he gets the air of you going alone."

"He won't be upset, don't worry. Will you take out a nice dress for me from the wardrobe?!"

"Of course darling."

"I will take a shower meanwhile."

"What would you like for breakfast?!"

I wanted to turn down her offer as I really wasn't in the mood to eat but then I realised how pissed Arjun will be if he gets to know how I starved myself and the baby. I wouldn't wish that so I asked her to make me something light.

I dressed myself in the neon pink dress that Mary picked for me. I spared a glance at the mirror and tied my long hair in a high ponytail. I didn't really want to look good, I just wanted to look presentable also I didn't want Dr Anita to suspect any foul play in the household. She is Arjun's long-time friend and she must not know what is going inside the house. I have to be very careful as my child's life is at stake.

I ate my breakfast and was ready to sit in the car but a hand held the door for me. My eyes travelled from the hand to its owner and I fumed in rage," What the hell is your problem?! Why won't you let me live in peace?!"

"Where are you going?!" He ignored my outburst and shot me a question instead.

"That's none of your business." I replied him coldly as I opened the car's door for myself only to have it shut by him again!

"Radhika, I want to know where the fuck are you off to?!" He asked me in a slightly raised tone.

I grit my teeth as I answer,"I am just going to see my doctor. Happy now?!" I asked him sarcastically.

"Doctor?! Are you ill?!" He asked me in a concerned tone.

I don't like this fake behaviour at all. He is just faking this care to lure me in like he did with Lily but he doesn't know me at all. I am not going to fall in his trap.

"What is it to you?!" I asked him rudely.

"Nothing but I will come with you. I need to play Arjun, remember?!" He winked at me!

I glared at him fiercely,"Its my routine check up and I don't want a man who is not my husband to be there. How difficult is it for you to grasp?!" I ask him as my chagrin shoots up.

"I will stand outside, I promise."

I give up realising he is going to come with me either way. I think he is keeping an eye on me to see if I don't mess up his whole game. The whole drive to the hospital was as quiet as it could be with none of us breaking the ice. He did steal occasional glances at me much to my dislike. I looked out of the window whole time feeling very sad that I have to go without Arjun.

When we reached I got down from the car leaving Veer behind and walked ahead of him as I really didn't wanted to walk with him. When we reached Dr Anita's cabin, I turned to him," You wait here, I'll go inside." I announced.

He nodded without any argument as he had already given his word.

"Hello doctor." I greeted Dr Anita with a big smile and tone full of saccharin.

"Hello dear. How are you feeling this morning?! You look pale." She asked me in a tone full of care.

"I am okay it's just my morning sickness." I replied shortly.

"Well we'll have to see if it's just morning sickness or something else. Do you want to see your baby?!" She asked me smilingly.

Oh how I wish Arjun was here with me today. I cannot put in words how much he loves seeing the baby on the screen. He would be beaming had he been here. My eyes fill up at the very thought of him not coming back to me. No Radhika, Stop you will not think negative, Arjun will come back to you and you know it in your heart that even he wouldn't be able to stay away from you and the baby for too long.

"Yes I can't wait to see him." I reply in an enthused manner.

"Him?! It could be her too. Do you have a preference?!" She asks me.

Well truth to be told, I don't have a preference but I also know Arjun really wants a son first. He has time and again spoken about it but he has also made it clear that he would love the baby equally even if it's a girl. Still I want him to have his wish so I pray that it's a boy.

"No but Arjun really wants a boy." I tell her honestly.

"No surprise there. I would be surprised if he didn't had a preference." She laughs as she confesses.

She knows him too well, doesn't she?!

"But he would love the baby even if it's a girl." I say in his defence.

"I am sure child. Who wouldn't love their own child?!" She says as she touches my cheek affectionately.

"Doctor when we will know what we are having?!" I ask her impatiently.

"It's too soon to tell, Radhika but I can tell you in let's say fifth month." She replies as she jots down something on her notepad.

I nod letting the topic go as it's no point discussing since we can't do anything with the laws of nature.

"Lie down dear and lift up your dress."

She spreads cold jell on my belly and I gasp the very next second. It actually feels as if ice cubes are placed on my skin. She moves the monitor in my direction and gestures me to take a look. I smile with tears in my eyes as I see the baby has grown a lot since the last time we saw him. Arjun should have been here to see this. His joy would have known no bounds had he seen this. From what I see the baby has tiny arms and legs and his tiny ears have popped out too. He has a very small face but his features have not come out yet. He is about the size of my palm right now.

"Radhika, from the growth rate I think I can tell you in the fourth month itself. The baby is growing really fast and now it's time for you to take extra care of yourself."

"I will." I say in a promising tone.

"Where is Arjun?!" She asked me as she closed my file that she had on her desk.

My eyes don't meet hers as I look everywhere but her," He is out of town for some work."

"Well I was just surprised to see you alone here." She shrugged.

I don't say anything as I have no words to reply to that. Arjun would have never let me come here alone had he been here but he is not! Oh, Arjun, where are you?! Are you fine?! There are so many questions but no answers.

I come out of the cabin and the tears that I had held back in my eyes before Dr Anita, betray my eyes.

"Are you okay, Radhika?!" Veer asked me as he looked at me.

"No I am on cloud nine, my husband is missing and I have no clue if he is alive or not." I reply Veer sarcastically.

"How is the baby?!" He asked changing the topic clearly.

"Don't you dare ask me anything about my baby! Dare you to even think about the baby." reply to him angrily.

"Radhika, I don't understand what I will have to do to prove that I mean no harm to you or your child." He replied in a defeated tone.

You have already harmed the baby, without Arjun, there are so many enemies out there craving for a piece of us. He kept them at bay and no one could even glare at his family let alone harm. He isn't the most feared Mafia King just like that, I know there are some scary stories floating around.

I have seen Veer isn't capable of protecting himself and he had to use Lily to protect himself. I can't expect much from him, can I?! He is smart to have had plan all this but he isn't what it takes to create a fear so deep that people shiver in front of him. As a mother, I am concerned till when will I and my child be safe?!

"I am going home." I say as I start to leave tuning him out.

He followed me to the car and opened the door for me to slid inside. I wanted him to just leave me alone and not be around me. I didn't like seeing him at all. It felt as if I am looking at Arjun but I know he is not my Arjun. My heart was losing hope every second because of him.

"I'll come in another car." He told me as he closed the door.

Finally! I am on my own. I leaned back closing my eyes as I felt emotionally tired from all the chaos that was happening in my life.

To be continued.....