Arjun's POV

Now at the moment all my guest are seated in the hall with me and Mark. We are negotiating few points about our new deal just then a man by the name Ravindra stood up and asked," Is that your wife?!"

I turned my attention to where he was pointed out. Radhika and Sam were in splits as they were descending to the hallway. They were having some sort of a private joke that had them laughing so much.

"Yes she is." I gave him a short answer.

"Oh she and I were in the same college." He explained.

Somehow I feel there is something more to this story than he is letting on. His gaze is fixated on Radhika as he smiles perhaps going down in memorylane to revisit some past memory. I don't like it at all in fact I hate it. He has no right to look at her that way. She is mine, all mine.

"Radhika."

She turns around as she hears her name being called out. Much to my own displeasure, she fights a smile that tugs on her lips in instance before it goes away. She knows him beforehand and now she is trying not to show it.

"So here you are hiding yourself, the prettiest girl of my college." He says in a conquettish tone.

Does he have a death wish?!

"I think we should proceed with the meeting gentlemen." Mark says in an attempt to divert my attention but I want to know what is the story between the two of them.

"Radhika, darling come here." I play along as I want to know what is so amusing to both of them that they can't stop smiling.

"How are you, Radhika?! Such a pleasant surprise to see you here but I never thought that you will be married off so soon. I mean what are you, 22 or 23 so soon that too with Mr Mehra." He throws a barrage of questions at her.

"Hello Ravi. I am good." She answers shortly completely aware of my angry stare that is fixed on her. She knows to behave herself after what happened with Mathew.

"And how is Neil?! I mean I thought you two were...." No complete what you wanted to say bastard.

Her eyes widened in shock as she heard him mention some Neil. She starts fidgiting with her dress nervously as her face paled in fear. She looks at me and I am seething with rage. I glare at her fiercely. She was with some Neil in her college days and this newly discovered juicy piece of information has shoot up my chagrin. I thought she was clean but how wrong I was!

"Forget it anyways congratulations on your marriage." He smiles at her and she nods her head and quickly scoots back upstairs.

"Gentlemen I think it's time for a lunch break. Why don't you have your refreshments?! We will meet after some thirty minutes." I stood up and ask them to disperse.

"Arjun, she is pregnant so be careful." Mark says as he had already read my face.

"I don't care!" I march to our room only to find her crying with some tissues rolling on the floor as she would wipe her eyes and throw them away.

"So crying for your destranged lover now, are we?!" I clench the words through my teeth that are chattering with rage.

"You misunderstand me, Arjun." She says as she shakes her head to express how honest she is despite the fact that she is a liar.

"Then why would that fucker link your name with that Neil?!" I ask her furiously.

"I don't know." She whispers in a daze.

"You are lying, you ungrateful little slu.." I swallow my words back in instance before I make

"I am not telling you any lies."

I pull her to myself harshly and I hold her by her neck," Who would think such innocent looking eyes hide such dark secrets! He was your lover, wasn't he?!"

She whimpers as I grip her neck hard," You are hurting me, Arjun."

"Is that why you never gave me a place in your heart?!" I say in simmering rage.

"No please let me explain." She joins her hands in front of me as she cried her eyes out.

I hold her face firmly,"So you and Neil were in love and wanted to marry but you couldn't marry him. Such a disgraceful woman you are! I thought you are a pure girl but no your heart was soiled though your body wasn't!"

I know the saving grace is that I was the one who took her virginity but that doesn't take away the sting that I feel right now.

As if my words poured petrol over the fire within her, she stared at me with flaming eyes,"Don't! Don't you ever raise a finger at my character! I am done explaining myself if you are going to jump to conclusions on your own. He was like a brother to me. That's it and I don't want to say anything else."

"How do I believe you?! You might be lying...."

"Then believe what you want to believe. I don't care anymore!"

"Come back here I am talking to you." I rant behind her as I tail behind her.

She turns back swiftly,"You know what Arjun, you are so obsessed with controlling me that you forget that I had a life before you and you can't control it neither can you change it. You are the last person on this earth who should be demanding an explanation from me when your score in women is more than your age perhaps more than even Mark's age."

That makes me laugh but I don't because I don't want her to feel that I am callous when it comes to my past with those sluts which is true In fact. I didn't give rat ass about any woman in my past.

"Come here I don't want to fight." I try to make amends but she is not having any of it.

"Who started it?! You love picking quarrels, don't you?!" She accuses me.

I pulled her closer and cup her face," I am sorry. I shouldn't have behaved so irrationally but you have to promise me that I was the first man in your life."

She rolls her eyes at me,"You already know it. You took my virtue."

I smile salacious,"Oh one of the best moments of my life." I cupped her pussy," This is mine, all mine like the rest of you. All of you is mine. I am the first man and I will be the last man who ever entered in you or your life. You will never know another man." 

"I don't want to know any another man because I am done with the whole man race after knowing you."
She said despairingly.

"Am I that bad?!" I feign hurt.

" You have no idea. You called me a disgraceful woman and a slu.."

I silence her by placing my finger on her lips,"No don't say that word. It's not for you. I was just too angry but I never thought about you in that way. You are very special to me."

"Were you jealous?!" She asks me as she teases me.

"Jealous and me?! No not at all." I try to avoid the evil eyes of my naughty vixen.

"Yeah I believe you."

I pushed her gently on the bed and hovered on top of her," I am not jealous, I am territorial. You are mine and only mine if you even think about betraying me let alone doing it, I will kill you." I gave her a death glare and smirked when she was terror-striken.

To be continued....

Radhika's POV (continued)

I feel as if my heart is squeezed in pain as I take in his words. How would you feel if I was that kind of a woman, Arjun?! I won't ask him that because I already know I wouldn't be here had I been that kind of a promiscuous woman. Sometimes I feel how many secrets are yet to be revealed?! I just want to know all of them and feel all that hurt and heartbreak once and for all.

"Baby are you alright?! Look I know what I told you, it's hard to digest but it is what it is. I don't want to lie to you." He touches my cheek and I lean more into his touch.

I know that with all his vices combined together, Arjun cares for me deeply even though he is the one who has hurt me the most.

"I know I was thinking it will feel weird to be around her under the same roof now." I say in a iffy tone as I stare in to nothingness.

"Don't worry she will go away soon." He looks in the eye as he assures me with his words.

Go away?! Where will she go?! She doesn't have anyone and if Arjun sends her away, she will be homeless and broken. I know it's none of my concern but I don't want her to bear any ill will for me and my baby. Yeah we live in a modern world and I shouldn't be superstitious but I love my child too much to think rationally. Don't take me for an emotional fool or a biblical character, I am selfish and I don't want Lily to curse me and my baby more than she already does.

"Arjun, I don't want you to send Lily away or break ties with her for me. I can understand her pain of losing her love. She waited for you all this years hoping that you will come for her. You broke her hopes and she has a right to be angry." I try to explain him but he is not having any of it.

His temper shoots up,"She might as well take it out on me not on you. That's a hard limit for me." His face is flushed with red hot anger as he talks about Lily.

"I understand but try to see things from her perspective. She loves you madly and maybe the same love made her do all this. Give her a chance to redeem herself."

He breaks in on me,"I can't risk yours and my baby's life to give a chance to Lily. She is going away. Period!" He says in a final tone.

So this is it! End of discussion now! Once Arjun has said the last word Then no one can challenge or question his decision.

Another part of me is lit up with joy just by that thought of Lily going away from our lives but then I am not going to show it because who wants to laugh or celebrate others misery. I am just a protective mother who is looking out for her baby. How does that make me bad?!

Inspite of that selfish streak in me, I sympathise with Lily so I should make an attempt to convince my Mr Hot head husband.

"But..."

He cuts me off,"End of discussion and now take a bath fast and come down. I don't have whole day to stand here and talk to you on topics that piss me off to no end. Listen one thing, Radhika, you are my wife and you are supposed to listen to me when I say something. Being pregnant doesn't change the ground rules that you must abide by in this house."

Listen to you?! What else have I ever done other than obeying you?! You treat me like a slave even though I am your wife still I don't hate you. Who do I have other than you?! I have no family except for Arjun and now all the relationships I have got are through him. I got a sister like Sam because she is related to him, a mother-like figure like mariam aunty because of his relationship with her and now I am going to be a mother of his baby. How do I hate you?! When you have given me so much though you have taken a lot away. I don't hate you Arjun but I don't like you either because of the way you treated me in past but I care for you like any wife would. I will be left with nothing if something happens to you. I frown when he leaves me alone and cold.

Fine! Be that way even I won't talk to you then whom will you go to?!

I wrapped myself in a towel and slide inside the closet. Just then a knock on the door made me jump in fright. Is it Arjun?! Oh God! I am standing here naked under this thin towel which is barely covering my modesty. He doesn't even take my permission before intruding my personal space. He will just come and he will want to do it again. I am so sore to bear his onslaught right now. The warm water hasn't helped like it always does. He had taken me too roughly last night and he didn't stop because he wanted to put some sense in me. Initially it pains but then I enjoyed his caveman attitude. Of course it all comes down to my inexperience in man and sex. I have never had sex with anyone else and I won't ever do it with anyone again. I know I have no choice in this matter as Arjun keeps reminding me that I am his, only his! Still I want to be just his now because he is the only family I have got.

"Radhika, sweety are you inside?!"

Mariam aunty's affectionate tone snapped me out of my trance.

"Yes aunty here in the closet." I replied back.

She entered inside with a smile," Good morning darling. Look what I have got for you."

I looked away because I am standing in a towel and she can see the hickeys on my neck, shoulders and some even on my thighs. Thank God! She can't see the one on my breast or else she would have passed out. My God!

"Radhika, you don't need to feel shy in front of me. I exactly know how you got those hic....marks and who gave you those."

Suddenly I feel so shy that I want the earth to burst open and swallow me," Aunty please..."

"I must say Arjun really loves you by the looks of it." She teases me.

Love?! No he doesn't love me aunty and I wish I could say that out loud but I don't want her to think that things are not exactly rosy between us.

"Okay I won't trouble you anymore. I am leaving this new sari here which I want you to wear for the pooja function and I have also kept a new necklace for you outside near your dressing table." Saying so, she sprinted out.

I signed in relief as those two or three minutes that she was inside with me, it felt as if I was in a close scrutinity. Oh dear Lord, please never let anyone know how Arjun treats me. Let them think that we are happy with each other. Happy?! Yes, partially happy but what is hurting inside, no one knows!

I wear my blouse and underskirt and come out to drape my sari. I don't like saris but Arjun loves to see me only in saris. Initially he didn't let me wear anything else other than sari but nowadays he has loosened his leash on me.

I was struggling with the sari. I know to wear a sari but it takes me time to wear one. I am not a pro at wearing sari. Out of blue, my heartbeats rocketed in my chest and these happens only when Arjun.....Oh God! He is here. Why is he here?! What a stupid question! This infuriating man doesn't let me breath in peace.

He turned me towards him with a jerk and by the longing look on his face, I know what is coming next. He lifted my chin with his forefinger," Wrap your legs around me baby." I did as I was told to do but I am very tender down there for him to take me again.

Now he had brought me to his face level otherwise I don't even reach his shoulder level. He looked me in the eye with those mesmerising dark eyes that had darkened some more with darkest passion,"I could just take you against the wall baby" My heart was in my mouth just by hearing his words.

He kissed my neck region, nibbing on my tender flesh that was already red with his hickeys. Despite myself, my hands found their way in his hair as I caressed his curls unknowingly. He had thrust his face in the valley of my breast and next minute somehow he had got rid of the blouse. God! Wasn't last night enough?! How can someone want to make love all the time?!

Now I was standing in front of him in just bra and undershirt. He loosened the knot of my underskirt and that pooled on the floor. He looked at me with those eyes that have so much power over me. I flinched under his heated gaze. He unfastened my bra and detached it from my body. He was salivating just by looking at my breast. He seems to be obsessed with that part of my body. He can't get enough of them. He took my left nipple in his mouth and sucked so hard that it became unbearable. He had bitten all over my breast last night and now also he isn't even being gentle.

As minutes passed by, I basked in the joy of him making love to my body.

"I want to take you baby. Can I?!" He asked me in a seductive tone.

How do I say no when I can't say no?!

I bobbled my head giving him a silent approval. He hurriedly unstrapped his belt followed by his pant and his fly. He brute-force his way inside me and I screamed out in terrible pain that I felt.

"Oh baby why didn't you tell me to stop." He asks me in a guilty tone.

I don't ever want to give you a reason to not to come back to me or fulfill your needs somewhere else. I will not say no to you ever because I will be damned if you get bored of me and go to some other woman. I don't want to suffer from the pain that my mom went through. I don't want to be shamed as a wife who doesn't keep her husband happy. Who will ever understand my pain?! People will hold me responsible for my misfortune even if Arjun does something bad. That's how the society works, doesn't it?!

"I wanted to please you, Arjun. I just thought that if I don't keep you happy then you will go to another women and I can't share you. I will just cry and die if you ever...." I try my level to not to cry but I see myself miserably failing.

As if words worked like a live wire inside his body and he exploded like a ferocious volcano.

He yanked me closer until we were nose to nose and chest to chest," Radhika, this is strike three since last night and for the same mistake. You wouldn't wish to know what I would have done to you had you not been pregnant. This is my last warning, if and if by any chance I hear you talk about dying or leaving me then you'll will have it from me. I repeat you won't wish to know what I will do with you." He gave me a death glare that had me tied up in knots.

"You can't hurt me." Am I saying it to him or more to myself?!

"Why?!" He asks me in disbelief.

"Because of the baby." Of course this is the best I can come up with. No matter how angry he is, he won't hurt me for the safety of the baby.

"Just because I won't hurt you that doesn't mean I can't. I can give you a punishment but not the ones that will hurt you badly."

Punishment! One word is enough to gives me cold feet.

"I am sorry." I say in an apologetic tone.

"Good now get ready for your punishment." He gives me a boyish smile but I know better to fall for that charming smile.

"But I said sorry." I said in a pleading tone.

Can't he just forget it and move on?!

He narrowed his eyes at me,"So?! Sorry doesn't take back your words that will haunt me."

Yeah right everything is just about you. I don't have feelings. Sometimes I feel I am just a submissive inside this room who has got this glorified title of a wife. He plays with my feelings, my body, my heart and most importantly my life. I have no control over anything. Will my life always be like this?!

"Okay." I say in a sad tone. Can't afford to have him mad, can I?! I can take punishments but not drive him to some other woman who will willingly submit to him. That will kill me from within so it's better I don't let that happen ever.

"Give me a head." He gives me his smirky smile.

What is a head?! How do you give it?! It's so confusing, why would anyone give one's head to another?!

"What is a head?!" I ask him and a ghost of a smile breaks on his face. He is having some kind of peverted joke that he won't tell me.

"It's another name for a blow job." He says simply.

With that, he gives me the shock of my life! He wants me to kiss him no scratch that he want me to perform oral sex on him. Oh Good Lord, why all this has to happen to me?! And who kisses a man's private part?! I know some girls do it but I have never done it.

Radhika, you better do it or else....

I make a face,"Ewwww! I am not going to do that. I have never done that and you don't talk to me."

How can Arjun expect me to do such a thing?! I know very well that my husband has sucked his jollies off from many but will I be able to please him in that way?!

He smiles a wicked one,"There were many things you didn't do before you met me and I am so glad about that but now you are my wife and you must submit to me."

Haven't I already submitted to you?! You have taken me every way you can possibly take me.

"Ewww! I don't want to do it. How can you expect me to do it?!" I reason with him.

"Why?! You are my wife and weren't you the one who wanted to make me happy a while ago." He says softly trying to convince me.

So I have to give him a blow job to make him happy?! What a sick man!

"Yes but..."

"Just do it, Radhika and this will be your get away from your next infraction."

I don't even get to say anything more as he pushed me down to get the deed done. I look up at him pleadingly but he returns my gaze with a lustful one. Just do it, Radhika. I tell myself and keep repeating it.

It's okay, he is your husband and you are his wife. He has proposed this and you must do it. You should not upset him. Will you be able to bear it if he cheats on you?!

Arjun took my hand and placed it on his hard, fleshy cock. I have never had him right in the face. He is so big. How does it even fit inside me?! Maybe that is why it hurts so much when he thrust inside me.

Radhika! You are supposed to look at it with love not disgust if you don't then you won't be able to give Arjun what he wants. I chide myself.

I stroke him gently up and down but looks like the big man isn't satisfied. He wants more just like Arjun does. Arjun brings his mushroom head close to my mouth. Ah, I am supposed to take that in?! Can life get any more worst?!

I closed my eyes and pecked the head and finally took him inside my mouth. This is so weird! Why do men expect women to kiss their dicks?! He is not even wrapped in those rubber things for me to get some other taste. Of course he wants skin to skin and my mouth to his cock. He never uses condoms with me. That is why I got pregnant so soon. I am just 21 and I am already going to have a baby. I don't regret my baby but the way it was made leaves me in tears.

I couldn't take all of him at once so I took him inch by inch. Slow misery but when I looked up to see him with his eyes closed and the sated smile on his lips took my breath away. He is enjoying this, isn't he?! I kept all my repulsive thoughts aside and I really started sucking him like I loved doing it. I can do this for him. He looks very happy and if it takes me to suck his dick to make him happy then so be it!

"Common baby do it as if you love doing it." He said as he kissed my hair.

I smiled with his member deep in my mouth. Amidst all this, I was shaken up by the new discovery of the extent of my feelings for Arjun. How do you care for a man who forcefully married and raped you on your first night?! Sick as it sounds but I do care and maybe even love him. Love?! What do I know about this word?! My mom use to say when you love someone truthfully then you can do anything for their happiness. You can go through any pain just to see them smiling. You can sacrifice anything even your own life for them. Can I do that for Arjun?! I can do all of this things for my baby but for Arjun....

Before I know, I am being jerked forward by him for him to deepthroat me. Yuck! I could feel his tip touching my throat and I don't feel any disgust now as I thought I would.

"Fuck Radhika you are amazing." He moans too loud!

"Radhika, I am going to cum so if you don't want me to fill your mouth then you must withdraw right now." He warns me.

This is how it is, you can do anything for this person, even swallow his cum. Ewwww! Sounds disgusting to think but I am doing it anyways.

He explodes in my mouth and his thick cum fills my mouth. Salty but what did I expect?! It won't taste like vanilla ice-cream will it?! No don't compare, Radhika otherwise you won't be able to eat your favourite vanilla ice cream ever.

He doesn't withdraw until I have taken every last drop. He finally let's go of my hair that he had fisted and I sign in relief. I am tired actually but then the smile he is giving me right now took all my weariness away. He is happy so I am happy that I made him happy.

I swallow his cum in instance and stand up on my feet. He is giving me a goofy smile. Yeah I know, you are on cloud nine that I sucked you off.

He closes up to me and kisses my forehead tenderly," You were amazing and I loved it. Thank you."

"I hope I made you happy." I say embarrassed and I rush to the warmth of his arms. My safe place, where on one can hurt a hair on my head. He caressed my hair as he whispered soft nothings in my ears. I couldn't help but notice that how tightly he had enveloped me in his arms. He is not feeling me up though my breast are pressed against his hard chest and my clit is in par with his cock. He is just holding me and stroking my hair and rubbing my back. I like this Arjun who cares for me and who isn't afraid to show that he cares

We stood hugging each other for minutes and neither of us moved. I love the start of this day. There is still hope for us, isn't it?! I parted when my legs gave up and standing for too long during pregnancy is not good. I raised my head to look at him and he looked back at me.

Why do you hurt me, Arjun?! I wanted to ask him but it felt as if my lips were stitched together and my mind was too afraid to ruin our moment. This moment is so beautiful that I can't describe in words how beautiful it actually is. It felt as if not just our bodies but our heartbeats synchronize and our souls were one!

To be continued.....