Radhika's POV

My eyes shoot open as the sunlight entered inside our room through the open windows. I was taken aback to find Arjun still sleeping in the bed. It very unlikely of him to stay in bed for too long. He is very punctual about time but then today is special.

I turn to his side and I am awed by how handsome he looks. His messy hair are falling on his forehead and his defined cheek bones look so damn hot!

He is not wearing  a shirt and I can't stop myself from drooling over his ripped, muscular chest. I really hope my child takes after his looks. I should really wipe the drool now. I tiptoed inside the bathroom to take a bath.

I come out dressed in a chiffron white sari. I think I should go and find Sam. Also I feel my stomach growling in hunger. As I trudge towards the dining area, I bumped into....Lily!

I smile at her but of course she doesn't smile back. I understand and I am pretty okay with it. Just when I walk past she grips my hand and pulls me back.

She scoffed, "You think you can get away after snatching my love from me?! Do you even know what I mean to Arjun?!"

I replied in a calm voice, "Lily, look I feel sorry for you but there is nothing I can do for you. As for your question then I don't know what you mean to my husband and nor am I interested in knowing the depth of your relation. Arjun said he won't marry you or anyone and that's all I need to know."

I think life has been very unfair to her but the least I can do is not be a bitch to her for wanting to marry my husband. I'll speak chastely only.

She retorted with fury, "Do you know what are his likes and his dislikes?! What makes him happy and what makes him angry?! Do you know about his secrets?! I know him better than you and that proves I would have made a better wife."

She is not riling me up at all. I don't feel even a bit of anger or jealousy towards her. I have what I want.

I say softly, "Lily, you are forgetting I have a part of Arjun growing inside me. He loves his child more than anyone and any thing. I am giving him a baby and that surpasses all what you must have done for him in the past. I really don't have any problem with your friendship but you learn to respect the confines of your friendship."

She thinks she can make me feel worthless then she doesn't know me at all. Arjun and Lily are a history and I could care less about it. I am expecting and I should keep all negativity away from me.

I think my high tolerance has reduced her anger and she is coming close to crying. Before I know she breaks down in front of me and I can't help but feel empathy for her.

She says, "I love him, Radhika and you don't even love him. Why are you coming between us then?!"

If only you knew what I went though you wouldn't say this.

I asked her pointedly, "Who said I don't love him?!"

She confessed, "Mark told me everything but that's not important. The fact is you don't love him then why are you stopping him from marrying me. I didn't ask him to leave you, did I?! We both can be his wives."

Hell no! I went through so much because I am his wife and now you want me to serve him for you on silver palate. I am not so selfless at least not when I am carrying a child. I can't share him at any cost especially now.

I say in a firm tone, "Lily, I do care about him but he is my husband and the father of my child. You tell me which woman in her right state of mind will permit her husband's second marriage?!"

She is mum in a minute. Lily, would you agree to your husband's second marriage had you been in my place?!

I continue, "Look you should try to move on and find someone whose world will revolve around you. Why do you even want to be a second wife?! It's such a disgrace! I really feel sorry for what you must have gone through but I am with a child right now. I must think only about my baby before anyone else and my baby's best interest lies in Arjun not marrying again. Hope you understand."

I can't do anything or say anything to lessen her pain so I give up. I think I should eat now also we have a doctor's appointment in short while.

I hopped down the stairs until...

"Radhika, stop jumping down the stairs. It's not safe."

I smiled in my heart witnessing this big change in him. I caressed my belly and purred," See my baby there is still hope."

He advanced towards me and held me by my waist gently not gripping me hard like he use to. He looked in my eyes and his stare, softened," You have to be careful baby. It's not just you now."

I smiled sated seeing his tender care for me and our baby.

He led me downstairs and made me sit on a chair opposite to the dining table.

He says," You know what you must not climb stairs until you give birth."

I cocked my brow in a smug manner,"You want me to fly from the room to wherever I want to go."

He bristled, "Will you stop with that snide comments?! I think I am going to have a son who is going to back answer like you do."

How wonderful would that be?!

I chirp, "Oh I'll be delighted if he comes out like me."

He says, "Oh please I'll have a coronary if he takes after your personality. He should be my mini me."

I hope so too Arjun. I want him to be like you. Fearless, strong, committed towards family and loved ones if anything I don't want him to have is your ruthless and cruel side. I want him to have my compassion.

He asks playfully, "Thinking about me?!"

I shake my head, "No your son."

"Are you picturizing him like me?!"

"Yes."

I think if my son turns out to be like Arjun, he'll have females eating out of his hand. Girls will stick to him like bees stick to their beehive.

He queries, "He looks like me or you in your thoughts?!"

I answer honestly,"I want him to look like you but should have my kindness and my compassion."

He eyes grew alert and eager,"I never expected you to say that. I thought...."

I confess, "I don't hate you at least not right now but I don't like you either. You hurt me, Arjun but you are also the father of my child. I cannot let my dislike and dissatisfaction towards you come between both of you. That's just not me. I love my baby more than I have loved any thing else."

I think a mother's job is to love her child against all the odds. Now when I am going to be a mother, I can feel Arjun's mother's pain of staying away from her own child and rest of her life story gives me shivers down my spine. I think had I been in Arjun's place then even I would have avenged her death but I wouldn't have gone that far like he did. He is cruel but nothing like my father. And what do they say?! An eye for an eye will make the whole world blind. I must stop this mad rampant of revenge and try to forgive him.

I looked deep in to his eyes, searchingly. You don't hate me, Arjun! I see it in your eyes. Something has changed in them since the time I first time stared in to them. You do care for me but you are too much of a male chauvinist to admit it. 

He looked me in the eye, "I will try to be a good man for you but only for you. Don't expect an overnight change in me. I am not going to abandon what I do for living."

I think we have got somewhere at least. Even this much from Arjun is too much to take for today. I don't expect an overnight change, Arjun. I am not stupid nor am I delusional.

I smile, "Okay."

He nods and looks in the other direction, next minute. He doesn't like to show the emotion that fickles in his eyes. He looks back at me and now I see his eyes are clear, cold and empty like before.

"You should eat now. What do you want to eat?!"

I suggest in a exhuberent tone, "How about mashed potatoes?!"

He breaks in on me, "My mom loved them and...."

"You miss your mom a lot right?!"

Shit! I shouldn't have asked that. It's a very sensitive topic and I will be the last person he'll like to talk to about it.
To my surprise, he opens up to me!

"I breath her, Radhika. Do you miss your dad?!"

No! I hate that man!

I say gritting my teeth, "No I don't because after getting to know what he did to your mom then shame on me if I miss such a man."

He pops another upsetting question, "Hey I never asked you about your mom. You said you don't have many memories of her."

I murmur, "She is no more."

He asks in a lethal tone that scares me, "Did Rehan kill her?!"

"No but he was the reason of her death. I think she was free from all the pain after her death."

I don't want to talk about her.

He continues, "I have heard how he use to beat until she threw up blood. He was an unfaithful bastard. Is it true that he raped your mother's sister in front of her?!"

Oh please, stop! I feel pained just by thinking about my mom. I don't know if he really raped my mother's sister or not but people working in our mansion use to say a lot of nasty things about him.  I never believed all this rumours until I got to know about Arjun's mom and now I think maybe my dad did all of those shitty things the world talks about.

I am an inch close to crying, "I don't know. Can we please stop talking about him?!"

He wraps his arm around me and rubs my back to console me. He says," Radhika, don't cry for that man. He isn't worth crying for. He is a husk of a man. You must think about everything that is good in this condition."

Yes, like my baby, innocent and precious to me! I will only think about my child and no one else!

He kisses the side of my forehead," I have to tell you something."

I am all ears!

"Try me."

He stares into my eyes deep,"Okay so here it goes....You are an unbelievably strong woman and I am so happy that you didn't give up on me despite all the things I put you through."

I am floored by his confession that my ears longed to ear. If I say I am happy now then it won't be enough to describe what I feel right now.

I give him a shy smile, "Do you really mean it?!"

He takes my hand in his and gives it a light squeeze, " Do you think I will say it if I didn't mean it?!" He pecks my forehead," I will try, Radhika for you, I will, I promise."

As his words sink in, I realized that this is the moment I have been waiting for. He gave in reluctantly last time when he said he was giving us a chance but this time the emotion in his eyes is so true and so very real that I can't believe that this is really happening. You don't even know what that means to me, Arjun.

I say hesitantly, "Can I ask you something?!"

His eyes alert and suspicious, "I will answer if I want to answer but sure you can ask."

I ask with my fingers crossed beneath the table, "Did you love Lily?!"

This question has been troubling me day and night since the time she is back and his over the moon reaction to her comeback.

He answers, "I don't believe in love. Lily and I were really good friends and I was very protective of her. Once we got drunk and crossed the limits of our friendship. I regret it till date. I thought I took advantage of her."

So they have slept together once upon a time. Knowing your husband had a scandalous past is a different thing and hearing it from him is a different thing. Still I feel bad for Lily. She must have hoped to be Arjun's wife one day and I did crush all her hopes unknowingly.

I say in a low tone,"She is deeply hurt."

He replies, "I know but I can't give her what she wants. I just hope she moves on."

I think if he feels so guilty then he must do something to make the wrong right.

My lip quivered, "You can marry her still you know. I mean I wouldn't like it of course but...."

He breaks in on me, "No Radhika it's not right. I should not marry her even if I can."

Why?!

I ask, "Why is it not right to you?!"

He says softly, "Because I cannot hurt you or my baby. I have already wronged Lily's life in the past and marrying her would be nothing but a disaster. Moreover I am not interested in marrying her, all I want is you."

I look down, shyly," You meant it?!"

He lifts my chin up," You like hearing it again and again don't you?!"

Blush seared through my cheeks as he said it. I realized that I can never get tired of him saying that he wants me, just me.

I look up at him finally,"It means a lot to me."

It means the whole world to me, Arjun. You will never understand a heart of a girl who had nothing to call her own in this house where she was trapped forcefully but now I feel not he but I won him over in all sense. He wanted to conquer my body, soul and mind as a part of his revenge but I staked a claim on him instead.

He kisses my knuckles, "I am sorry for how I behaved in the past but I am not sorry for marrying you. I liked you when we met at the airport. There is something in you that draws me towards you, every time I see you."

Ah, this is just priceless! I always knew you had an affinity for me. To be honest I was spellbound the first time I saw you. Who wouldn't be?! Arjun, you are a smoking hot  but I am not telling you that. I hope our baby is a miniature version of you.

"I tell you a secret. I felt a good kind of wierd feeling after meeting you for the first time."

He arrogantly smirks, "Oh no darling you were wet. I could tell by the way you had pressed your thighs together and the way you were all red in front of me."

I deny, "Oh shut up! It's nothing like that."

Was I wet?! I know I liked how handsome he looks and not to forget his manly voice. Everything about him is so damn masculine and I felt chilled to my bone the day I saw him. I still remember how he looked that day. His curls were midnight black and his eyes were dark black framed by graceful brows. He had a sun-kissed glow on his face. He had prominent cheekbones and a well-defined chin and nose. Muscles rippled across every part of his body. He was a stunner in rest! I could still picturize how every girl on the airport was drooling over him that day.

He pulls me closer gently and his face is just an inch away from mine. He pushes my hair behind my ear to get access to it. He kisses my earlobe, "You know Radhika how much ever you tell yourself to hate my touch but you know your body craves for it. You like it when I fuck you hard but you are too proud to admit it."

I always sleep sated like a satisfied woman when it comes to sex. In the starting I hated it because it felt wrong to find pleasure in assault but i hate to admit it but my body likes how he makes it feel. His kisses are all fierce, hard and passionate. If he doesn't live traces on my body then he won't sleep peacefully. When I was taking bath today. My whole body ached and my ass felt like it was set on fire. I had purplish blue bruises on my breast and to my surprise, even on the underside of my breast. I soaked in the warm water for at least one hour to get some relief. I don't want to think about all this. At least not when I am going to eat.

I plead, "Can we please not talk about all this?! At least not when we are going to eat."

His eyes shone with mischief, "Oh you want practical. I can show you if you want."

"You bet!"

"Alright then later on don't be a sour loser."

He inched up my dress till my panty and pushed his hand inside in my lace panties. He rubbed my vagina moving his hand around my clit but not thrusting his fingers inside. Finally he pushed one finger inside my vaginal channel making me gasp out at the sudden intrusion.

"I love how tight you are." He whispered in my ear in a seductive tone.

He flexed his finger in and out first slowly making me feel so hot and flushed but I tried my best not to show it on my face. He smiled like a smug bastard that he is and thrust his finger hard and fast inside my vagina. I covered my mouth to stop the scream that could have made us a live porn show. I looked at him pleadingly to stop his ministrations but of course he didn't.

When I was least expecting he pushed in another finger in my small opening and I bit my lip to stifle the gasp of pain. He was thrusting inside harder and faster pushing me towards the unreal ecstasy of pleasure. When I felt myself getting wetter and wetter, he stopped his fingers from going deeper inside me. He had not removed them fully. I started bucking my hips incoherently to meet his thrust but he pulled his fingers out until only an inch of them was inside me.

He said in a slury voice "See I told you, Radhika. Your body likes what I do to it. From your lips to your slender neck to you brea...."

I cut him off in urgency, "Okay okay stop you win, I lose!"

"You want me to let you cum, don't you?! But you have back answered me a lot since morning so a bad girl like you doesn't deserve the pleasure. You must remain wet and aroused till I fuck you with my cock not with my fingers." That smug bastard!

"Oh no please...." I stop abrubtly realising what I just said. I wanted him to continue fingerfucking me but he pulled out in instance.

"I'll go wash my hand and I'll tell the cook to make mashed potatoes for you."

He left just like that without paying heed to how aroused and hot I was feeling right now. I wanted to cum but he didn't let me. Arg! This man will make me mad one day!

I adjusted my dress and tried to put on a passive face as if nothing happened but I can't ignore the ache in my clit. I feel so wet and turned on that I cannot sit in my place without squirming.

He came back and sat beside me nonchalantly as if he didn't fingefuck me few minutes ago. He smiled a sultry one and winked at me.

"Don't worry I'll take you after we are done with our breakfast. I am so hard right now for you." Saying so, he took my hand and placed it on his big thing. I quickly snatched my hand back.

He says in a seductive tone,"Oh don't be so prude. You know you love what I do to you with my hands, lips and my co.."

I break in on him, "Shut up! I won't eat anything if you don't stop...."

His eyes darkened in anger,"I'll fucking forcefeed you if you don't eat."

In a minute he was serious and angry from being playful. I guess I shouldn't have made a threat that I won't eat. I mumbled a sorry and he softened. Hush! That was easy.

"Where is Sam?!"

He answers, "She has gone to her friend's house."

I say as a matter of fact, "You know I feel Mr. Dracula doesn't like me."

"Who the fuck is Mr. Dracula?!"

I say in a muffled voice," Your Mark."

His eyes stares at me intensely,"Interesting but don't you say this in front of him. Yes, I know he doesn't like you but that's okay. You have nothing to fear. Once he gets to know that you're giving me heir. He'll be on cloud nine. You have me and do you really think I'll let anyone touch a hair on your head let alone harm you."

I don't think so but....

He holds my hand and pulls me to his chest. He holds my face firmly and makes me look straight into his eyes," Radhika, you are mine to hurt and you must fear no one but me. Do you understand me?!"

"But you said you'll try...."

"And I won't break my promise but you must respect and obey me precisely in front of others. I will not put up with any disrespect from you."

I nod though I am not sure about what I am getting myself into. He wants respect and obedience and I want love and care. I have the latter but is love too much to ask for?!

I turn my face away, "I think mark prefers Lily for you."

He holds my face and lift my chin to make me look into his eyes, "And I told you I won't marry her. He thinks good friends can make good life partners but I don't feel that kind of attraction towards Lily now. Earlier I did but now it's gone. When I think about you then I think about the last time I fucked you and when will I fuck you again."

I chide him, "God! You're insatiable!"

He assures, "Only for you. Listen don't worry about Mark and if his approval matters to you so much then I'll talk to him. Does it matters?!"

I reply affirmatively, "Yes because he means so much to you. I don't want to be the reason for rift between both of you."

He shakes his head in denial of my fear, "Rift?! Never! He loves me more than his own life. He is my mother's Rakhi brother so he protects me with his life. He can lay down his life in a split of second for me and..." He pointed towards my belly and continued," my child."

I smile"I am pleased to know that."

If Mark is that kind of man to lay down his life for my baby then we could have some tryst between us.

At last my mashed potatoes arrived and I practically gobbled them and he couldn't help but burst out laughing. Whatever, I am hungry and I have to eat for two unlike you.

"Arjun."

"Yes Lily." He replied without getting up from his chair. He was still looking at me.

She says quietly, "I want to talk to you."

He finally straightened up and walked casually towards her," Lily, if it's about our marriage then I am not interested. I told you where I stand on this. You know I don't like to repeat myself."

"No it's not about it. Can we talk somewhere private?!" She eyed me with pure hatred.

He refuses, "No whatever you want you should say it in front of Radhika."

She whines, "Arjun please....."

I have already unintentionally snatched her love now I shouldn't be a barrier between her and her friend. They can be friends, I guess.

I strode over to him and said," Arjun, I will wait for you in our room."

I trust him and I hope I am not making a mistake by trusting him.

To be continued.....