Lily's POV

That fucking bitch has him wrapped around her pinky finger! I know he doesn't love me now but in past I was the only girl he cared about after his mom of course. I love the way my name rolls on his tongue. Once he had told me that he likes my name as it reminds him of his mother's liking for lilies. Speaking of his mother, Martha aunty was a sweetheart. She would always braid my hair and bake cookies for me. I loved her.

She would tell me that she would like me to marry Arjun and stay with her as her daughter forever. As we grew up, Arjun started to take after his father and I got busy with my schooling. Arjun went to a mafia academy while I went to a normal school. He is not just droolworthy but ingenious at the same time. You could never tell what is going on in his twisted mind unless he tell you, himself.

I had a huge crush on him and later I fell for him, hard so much so that I overlooked the fact that he was going to be a mob boss one day. I weaved dreams of our marriage, our children and how I wanted to grow old with him. In past he was possessive about me and he would not let any guys to talk to me. He use to say, Lily you are my little flower and I need to protect you from predaters. How I loved it when he use to pull me in a tight hug and kiss my forehead. I use to lit up with joy just by seeing him coming towards me.

Everything was dandy until that day when we both got drunk and lost our virginities to each other. Yes, Arjun was a virgin the time he slept with me. Agreed, he had made out with other girls before but he had not fucked them. I was happy and upset at the same time. Happy because I gave myself to the love my life and upset because he threw it in my face calling it a irreparable damage to our friendship. Next day he told me that he cannot be in a relationship with me as I would prefer. He initiated a proposal that I can live my life the way I want and he can live his life the way he wants. When we both would be ready then we will get married. I was just years away from my dream to marry Arjun.

Each day was more sweeter than the day that passed, I was very happy that Arjun would one day sweep me off my feet one day. Unfortunately my happiness did not last long as a storm hit me and all my dream castles came crashing down. Martha aunty passed away and if that wasn't enough of misfortune for me, Arjun changed overnight. He started sleeping with different women each day thus wounding my heart that was helplessly in love with him. He needn't give me an explanation because he had made it clear we are not in a relationship. Still his sex escapades didn't hurt any less.

Once I had even witnessed him fucking a blond when I entered inside his cabin without knocking like I usually did. I teared up as he paid a deaf ear and blind eye to me and continued pounding in that slut. His eyes were icy cold and his face was placid. He didn't give a fuck about me at that time. Later he paid a visit to my house in the evening to apologise. I asked him, what is he sorry for?!
He replied that he was sorry for me because I was at the wrong place and at a wrong time. We had a heated moment and we were going to knock one off but he got a call and he left my house stating it's an emergency.

When I went to Mehra mansion the next morning, he and Mark were sitting facing each other. Mark asked me what is brewing between me and Arjun and what was he doing in my house at midnight. I was going to answer but Arjun beat me to it callously saying we are just friends and he need not worry. I was mortified hearing his answer and my eyes welled up but I had to suck it up. Mark would not like us being together because Arjun had a long way to go according to him and a relationship would be a hurdle.

That day I had decided I would go far from Arjun and come back only after he had achieved all his goals and when he can give a name to our relationship. I wasn't going to break this news to him because he would not let me go and I needed to get out. It was my biggest mistake and it cost ten years of my life. I was held captive by Vedh, an arch rival of Arjun. Vedh tortured, starved, lashed me but he did not rape me like he threatened to. I begged him to not to mutilate my core. Every day in his prison was a curse that I had to endure. I was breathing but life was already sucked out of my body. I was forced to strip off my pride and lick his feet just for some food. I had gone through so much still I was holding onto the hope of meeting Arjun some day.

I always wondered if he thought about me like I missed him day and night?! I prayed to see him again every second. As if my prayers were answered by God, Mark got the air of my existence in Vedh' s prison. He rescued me and gave Vedh what he deserved, a slow painful death!

When I asked Mark about Arjun and how he has been doing for all this years?! He replied that I shall know when I see Arjun in person. I couldn't wait to see the love of my life. I thought he will be overjoyed to see me alive and oh boy, he was thrilled to see me. However I was suspicious to find a girl standing beside Sam who was shedding happy tears after seeing me. Sammy was and will always be my doll. I couldn't figure out why that girl was in tears along with Sam and Arjun. When I studied her from head to toe, I found her breathtakingly beautiful. She was clad in a long pink gown that had frills at the end. She wasn't tall like me but had a decent height. She had baby brown eyes that could cast a spell on any man who saw her. She was like a beautiful goddess in front of my battered body. I had lost a lot of weight and I was so frail that I almost looked like a skeleton. Beautiful women was taken too. She had sindoor in her hair partition and her mangalsutra was lurking in the dark curtain of her bewitching hair. She had red bangles which only married women wear. I wondered who was her husband.

When I probed for her introduction once again, all I received was that she was Sammy's friend. I wasn't satisfied with that elusive answer. I could smell something fishy here. Before I could shoot another question, Arjun took me to a room. I was unable to walk without limping so he scooped me in his arms and I rested my head on his shoulder. What a feeling it was! I loved the warmth of his body. I wanted him to kiss me and he did but on my forehead. I want him to kiss me on my lips and then make love to me. I had missed him more than I could put in words.

He dropped me on bed and covered my body with a comforter. I could tell he had a hell lot of questions to ask me but he was giving me time to heal myself. He got up to leave but I pulled him by his hand and we were so close that my boobs were pressed against the fabric of his shirt. I could feel his hard muscles that were ripped across his shirt. I was disappointed when he said I must take rest and he will come to check on me after some time. I wanted him to spend time with me and if possible even have sex with me. I did not have sex for ten fucking years and my body couldn't control more now that I have my love back into my life. Vedh offered me to let him fuck me but I denied him stating that I rather die than have his small dick inside me. That sassy comment earned me one hundred whips and I wasn't given food for two days but I hardly cared. I didn't wanted to sleep with any other man other than Arjun.

I slept a genourous sleep after a long, long time. When I woke up, there was bread toast on the side table for me to eat. Arjun still remembers that I preferred nothing other than bread toast in the morning. God! I love him.
I needed to find him and we need to talk. I had a lot to tell him and a lot to hear from him.

I asked a maid the direction 0f his room and she motioned me to go straight and turn left. I followed her directions and when I reached there, I heard a middle-aged doctor saying, she is pregnant and you must take special care of her.

I asked,"Who is pregnant?!"

Blood drained from Arjun's face hearing me and he looked pained seeing me there. Why?!

"Oh my God! Radhika is pregnant! I am going to be an aunt. I can't believe this. I am so so so happy!" Sam is jumping up and down with joy.

I think she didn't notice me who was standing just few inches away from her. I can't blame her though. Her friend is preggos and she is happy. But why is her friend staying with us in Mehra mansion?!

"Sammy why is your friend staying with you?! Who is her husband?!"

Dr butts in, "Arjun you need to take special care of her now. I have prescribed some medicines which are mandatory and I want both of you in my clinic tomorrow. We need to do some test."

"Yes doctor."

Why would Arjun take care of that girl?! He has nothing to do with Sammy's friend and her unborn baby, right?! It's her husband job not his.

"Why would Arjun take care of Sam's friend?! Why he has to take her to your clininc?! It's her husband's job not his." I said, ire itching in my tone.

Dr. Anita replies,"It is his job because he is her husband, lady. It's his child she's carrying."

His child?! This woman has lost her mind!

"What are you saying, doctor?! Arjun, what the hell is she saying?!"

Arjun looks at me for a second and looks back at the doctor and it's a cue for her to get her infuriating ass out of his house.

"Doctor Sam will escort you." He gestures Sam.

Now that we are alone, I bombard him with questions one after another. I feel as if my heart will leap out of my chest.

"Arjun, why are you quiet?! Tell me whatever she said is not true, is it?! Is Radhika your wife?! Is she pregnant with your child."

I hold his shirt collar and pulling me to herself. I am a crying mess right now. I was crying tears of agony. It was fucking melancholy to witness his care towards another woman.

"Yes." He whisper in a voice so feeble that I am shocked to know it's his.

I crashed on the ground with a thud. I weep bitterly as if mourning over a death. He tries to console me but I jerk him away.

With tears in my tired eyes, I say, "Why Arjun?! I was supposed to be your wife. I wanted to carry your child in my womb and you passed on my right to that bitch!"

That bitch stole my love, my dream, my everything and my sole reason to live. Agreed, she is ten times more beautiful than me but he had promised me not her. He was meant to be mine not hers.

He grits his teeth in white fury, "Enough! Don't abuse Radhika. She is not at fault here."

Seeing him defending her stungs my heart.

I shake him vehemently and yelped, "You promised me Arjun that you will marry me."

"I know but all this years l thought you are no more."

Vedh must have tricked him in some way to believe that I was dead. How stupid was I to think Arjun will find me and take me back?!

I cried,"There wasn't a day I didn't think about you, Arjun. With each heartbeat, I took your name. I thought you'll find me."

He lowers his eyes in guilt and rushes to my side. He palms my face and makes me look at him,"I am sorry Lily. I am sorry for your pain. I never wanted to hurt you."

You broke me beyond repair, Arjun! First you broke my heart now you killed my soul!

"But you did hurt me." I say in an accusatory tone

"I don't know what to say to you anymore." He tells me in a defeated tone.

Suddenly a hope flickers in my broken heart. He could take me as a second wife. In mafia world, mob bosses can have as many as wives they wished for. I could still be his wife though second. Who cares?!

I jolt up and hold his hands and says jubiliantly, "I think I know. We can still marry, Arjun. I can be your second wife."

As if my joy is short-lived for his expression gives away how repugnant he is to my suggestion.

"Lily, I can't marry you. I can't hurt Radhika when she is carrying my child."

Yes that bitch is with a child and it would mean the end of the world to her to have her husband remarry at this time.

"After she gives birth?!" I plead him with earnest eyes.

I am so close to begging him right now.

"Lily you deserve better." He tries to placate me but I am not buying that.

I don't want anyone but him.

"But I want you." I insist teareyed.

"Lily, you don't know what you're demanding. A life where every honour will be given to Radhika first and if little of it is left then will it be thrown at you. People won't even bow their heads in front of you like they do for Radhika. You'll have nothing except the derogatory of the title second."

She can keep the title of his first queen and her majesty. I don't fucking want it. I want him, only him! He is my love and if I have him then nothing else matters to me.

"But I'll have you and that's all I need." I beg desperately.

"Lily, I can't marry you. As a son I hated my father so much for cheating on my mother. He married twice and I always felt like an outsider in my own house when my father banished my mom from his house. I can't risk the hatred of my son when he is here. I hate to tell you this but my child is my first priority. I know how loyal sons are to their own mothers and he'll hate me if I am the reason of his mother's tears."

So it's all about that bitch and her baby now. I can't take it anymore. I can't see his eyes full of pride and joy for a baby that he did not make with me but some other woman. I storm off to my room. I cry myself to sleep. When I woke up, it was 6 pm and my stomach growled in hunger. I think I will eat with Sam so I took to my heels to find her. I bumped into the person I hated with a passion. My love's wife and the mother of his baby. I so wanted to just end her life but Arjun will hate me forever if I hurt a hair on her head. She is carrying his baby after all.

I grip her hand and turn her harshly,"You think you can get away after snatching my love from me?! Do you even know what I mean to Arjun?!"

She added fuel to my fury by smiling as if nothing happened.

"Lily, look I feel sorry for you but there is nothing I can do for you. As for your question then I don't know what you mean to my husband and nor am I interested in knowing the depth of your relation. Arjun said he won't marry you or anyone and that's all I need to know."

Her calm demeanour is unnerving!

I screamed in fit of rage, "Do you know what are his likes and his dislikes?! What makes him happy and what makes him angry?! Do you know about his secrets?! I know him better than you and that proves I would have made a better wife."

Still she doesn't lose her temper. What is she made of?!

"Lily, you are forgetting I have a part of Arjun growing inside me. He loves his child more than anyone and any thing. I am giving him a baby and that surpasses all what you must have done for him in the past. I really don't have any problem with your friendship but you learn to respect the confines of your friendship."

Her response only accentuates his rejection and make me go insane with mad fury. When I think calmly, I realise what is her fault in all this?! She is his wife and like a good wife will do, she is giving him a heir. Still this doesn't mean I hate her any less. She took my place in his life.

I break down, "I love him, Radhika and you don't even love him. Why are you coming between us then?!"

If she permits him then he might just marry me. I must convince her first.

Her smile vanishes as she stares at me hard,"Who said I don't love him?!"

Mark has told me Arjun and Radhika are not in love with each other. Love and Arjun! Makes me laugh even in this sorry state of mine.

"Mark told me everything but that's not important. The fact is you don't love him then why are you stopping him from marrying me. I didn't ask him to leave you, did I?! We both can be his wives."

I will not ask him to leave her because she is his wife and she is giving him a priceless gift. We can have some tryst between us. I can share him with her.

She shakes her head as if to emphasize her refusal, "Lily, I do care about him but he is my husband and the father of my child. You tell me which woman in her right state of mind will permit her husband's second marriage?!"

Her question stuns me. I am dead quiet and I badly want to say something but I am at loss of words.

She continue, "Look you should try to move on and find someone whose world will revolve around you. Why do you even want to be a second wife?! It's such a disgrace! I really feel sorry for what you must have gone through but I am with a child right now. I must think only about my baby before anyone else and my baby's best interest lies in Arjun not marrying again. Hope you understand."

Yes that fucking baby who ruined it all! If she wasn't carrying his baby, he would have just said yes to me. Not a problem, bitch! I was going to share him first but now I will have all of him. I didn't go through so much for you to push me out of the picture and take my place. He will be mine soon. How would it be if Radhika dies?! Arjun will be devastated after losing his first baby and I will give him my shoulder to cry on. Soon I will get him in my bed and one day I will give him the baby he wants so badly. Just a matter of time, Lily. You'll have everything you dreamed off.

To be continued....