Arjun's POV

"Are you making love to me, Arjun?!"

Her question knocked the wind out of my lungs! I would be a big fat liar if I said I was fucking her and this was nothing but cold, empty sex! The truth was what I knew but I was emasculated to say it on her face.

I don't make love! I fuck hard!

Those were my words and now it felt as if they vanished in thin air!

I looked away from her hopeful eyes as I could not look into those eyes and lie. I contemplated saying nothing but the way she was staring at me, waiting patiently troubled me.

She is nothing like me! She was so good, so pure, so true nothing like her fucking father! How could a man like him even father a daughter like her?! Pure good! No evil, no jealousy, no meaness, no deceit, just good.

She made me want things I never thought about in my entire life. Things I always stayed away from, I disregarded them and thought of them as weakness. She was like sweet poison and she made me want to consume her, all of her!

" I guess I am, you wanted me to make love to you so...." I stopped because I didn't know what else to say.

"You fulfilled my wish?!" Her eyes lit up with joy!

"No I did what I did for myself! I wanted to see what is so great about making love." I stated rudely.

"You have not made love to any..." She asked me pensively.

Love is for fools! I have grown up hearing this so very often from Mark that it is instilled in me to not care, to not feel anything and to be so cold that not even a strand of humanity touches my inner being! The only thing that he couldn't flush out of my system was my love for Sam and Mariam. Other than that I and he are the basically the same.

"Now what did I tell you in the morning?! I must say you are very forgetful!" I taunted her.

"Then why me?! Why did you feel that you should make love to me?!" She asked me upfront.

I didn't had the answer to her question so I made up something in my head that will not disappoint her.

"You are my wife. Now no more questions. Go to sleep. We have a party to attend tomorrow." I gave her a kiss and turned over to the other side.

"Come here."

I invited her to sleep in my arms like she snuggles closer to me every night when I watch her sleep peacefully. I can never sleep like her so peacefully, with so much serenity on her face. Even the slightest movement around me can wake me up but she sleeps like a log. She will not wake up even if I touched her or kissed her in the middle of the night.

" I still like fucking the daylights out of you but we can do this sometimes. It's not so bad."

I still enjoy fucking because it takes my mind off things that I stress myself about, it's a part of my make up now and it's inseparable from me now but what happened between us today was different and beyond words! It was as if we were one person and not two different people but united on some deep level.

She cupped my face," Are you playing me, Arjun?!"

Playing you?! I think what I did last time is still fresh in her memory but last time was different and now when I have come so close to her and I did not mean sex but something else which is beyond sex!

I have allowed her close to me and I never let people come close to me neither do I open upto people. It just happened so organically but I am still a man true to my principles and what I believe in. We can start over on a good note maybe but she should stay in her limits and not push me to be someone I am not.

I pinned her down by my body but I did not put my weight on her, supporting myself on my arms, I faced her," If I was playing you then I would not have compromised with my rules and preferences for you. Don't make me mad, thread carefully and we will be fine."

She wants a real marriage, I will give her one. She wants me to be monogamous, I will give her that as it is I have not been with any woman sexually after our marriage. She wants us to have a relationship other than sex, we will have one but I do have my own reservations.

Don't provoke me.

Don't talk back.

Don't ever talk about your father in front of me.

Don't make me angry because I myself don't know what I will do in my anger and I don't want to hurt her but I have temper issues, I have always had them because of my father because of the way he treated me when I was a child.

And just be yourself, your sweet, innocent self. Don't ever change!

She broke my trance,"Do you mean you are giving us a chance?! Our marriage...."

"Do I need to spell out each and everything?! Go to sleep! Don't irritate me, I have to get up early."  I replied in an angry tone because she should have got this till now that I was really giving us a chance.

I slept on my back, closing my eyes but her gaze on me was unerving! She shifted closer to me and slept facing me. Now I wasn't stupid to not know that she was pondering over what happened between us but I didn't need her to think so much. I wanted things to flow on their own.

Without opening my eyes, I warned her,"Stop staring at me, Radhika. If you are not sleepy we can continue....."

She cuts me off," NO! I am sleepy see I am sleeping." I said as I closed my eyes tightly.

I shifted towards her and pulled her closer by her waist and hugged her tight. I pushed my face in the dark curtain of her hair which had their own exotic scent. She had an unique scent nothing too strong just sweet like her. It should be transformed in the bottle and should be exclusively mine only so I could spray it around me when I am not with her.

I watched her with interest and adoration, she looked so flushed after our lovemaking. She could not have tried to look more beautiful to me than she did today.

She looked real to me, not like those women who put 5 pounds of make up on their faces and body even when they are blessed with great looks. Realization dawned upon me that I have never observed some girl's face with so much interest and admired each and every thing about a girl. She was coming so close to me and so fast that I was terrified by our connection! My eyes finally gave up as I felt drowsy and welcomed the slumber. 
   

I got up at 4 as usual as I cannot sleep more than that rather I don't allow myself to sleep once the clock strikes 4. A smile crept on my face when I saw her curled up in my arms, her cheek resting against my heart. I slowly detached myself from her trying my best to not wake her up. I covered her amply, she wiggled a but but went back to sleep.

I have to go work out with Mark and I am sure he must be in the gym already by this time. I did not meet him in the study last night because Radhika was so vulnerable and I could not leave her on her own after she just tried to take her life!

I changed into my workout gear and l left the room to head towards the gym. I entered inside our spacious gym to see Mathew doing pull ups on the bar and Mark doing biceps with dumbells that I think were of 100 lb. He was all sweaty and shaky, his face was red and his teeth were chattering but he wouldn't give up!

"You are growing old, old man!" I teased him.

"Better than a man who has hand over his fucking balls to his wife!"

The fuck I have! He was just trying to get a rise out of me so I decided to go as crass as he did.

"Better than a man who is living with blue balls every day." I shot back.

Mathew who has been listening to both of us, guffawed at my remark.

"The fuck I am, Arjun! Not that I am interested to discuss with you but I do have sex...."

"Once in a week or once in a month?! Is it that worst?!"

"Arjun, don't push it." He said in a warning tone.

"Fine I will stop. Look I am sorry I didn't mean to disrespect you last night, you are the only thing close to a father in my life and having you disappointed in me bothers me. Having said that I won't marry again not because of Radhika but because I don't want to turn into my father and you very well know why." I said calmly.

He argued,"Your father loved you, he was a sick...."

"I don't want to hear it, Mark. Can we stop discussing that man?! It's not about him it's about us. Am I forgiven?!" I asked impatiently.

"Fine but you are off the hook. What happened to your hand?!" He asked as he did pull over on the bench.

"A small cut." I gritted my teeth in pain as lifting up dumbells with a wounded hand is a bit tough.

"Give it a break, Arjun! It looks you have cut your hand and man that looks ugly!" Mathew butted in.

"Geez! Thanks! Good way of letting something you know actually care about them." I said as I moved to do the second set.

"Jokes apart. How did you even cut yourself in first place?!" He asked as he did front and sides with the dumbells.

Now I can't tell them I cut myself accidentally because I was trying to save my wife. I know Mark wouldn't care if she died or lived, he would just say good riddance. And I think some things should stay inside our bedroom only.

"Its nothing Matthew. Can you please stop babying me?!" I said, irritated.

"Its just a small cut, isn't it Arjun?!" Mark said in a dismissive tone.

"What are you saying?! He has a fucking bandage wrapped around his hand and he is working out..."

How could the doctor inside him keep quiet?!

I cut him off,"Its nothing buddy but thanks for your concern."

"He said he is fine. Stop acting like his wife, Math. He doesn't want a second wife, do you Arjun?!" Mark smirked.

Now I know he is going to rub it in for next few days.

"Mathew, I am fine! This is nothing remember that time in school when I broke my nose in the field. You were more scared than me."

That was a story to tell. I got into a fight with a boy from the opposite team after he took a cheap shot at Mathew during the game so I punched him and he pushed me to the ground. I remember coming home with a broken tooth and bleeding nose also with a complaint in my diary stating I was a violent kid. Actually I didn't stop when I broke my nose because of the fall, I got up and punched him in his stomach and when he fell down, I kind of took it overboard because the kid was rushed to the hospital as he complained that stomach hurts. I think I did some damage there. What do I say in my defense?! You mess with my friend, you mess with me! I remember my father telling my teacher that kids fight and we as adults shouldn't interfere. My mother did gave me a cold shoulder for what I did but she melted when I said sorry which obviously didn't I didn't mean at all, I just said it to make her feel better and get her to talk to me. I wasn't sorry because I had just one friend and if some punk thinks he can take a cheap shot at my friend and get away then he is going to pay dearly!

"I was scared because you told me you are going to die! And all that bleeding from your nostrils made me crazy."

I actually played one on Mathew as he was so fucking scared and he was crying even though I was the one who was bleeding and I was the one who was in trouble. So I told him I am going to die and he must tell my mother that I love her the most on my behalf after I am dead. He believed because he was such a goody during those times that anyone could make a fool out of him. He has evolved now though and no one would believe he is a mafia boss now. He has been one loyal friend to me, he even gave up the chance of a normal life for me years ago.

"You were such a fool when you were a kid. It was so easy to pull a fast one on you and he always did it because he knew you will fall for it." Mark noted.

Now that was just mean! I feel Mark is taking it out on Mathew because he is still mad at me but he will get over it, I just have to give him time to put this behind him.

"I felt guilty because he jumped in the fight for me and he got grounded and suspended for a week." Mathew replied.

"Did I ever tell you how much fun was it to miss school for a week?! You were too good in the past that is why I always had to protect you." I said as I jumped and held the bar as I did pull ups.

Witnessing that Mark had left to take a shower in the bathroom in the gym, Mathew walked to where I was doing my pull ups," Can I talk to you for a minute?!"

"Yeah sure buddy." I jumped down as I let go off the pull up bar.

"I am glad you have turned down Sheikh's proposal. It would have really hurt Radhika if you...."

I glared at him,"Its not about Radhika. Its about me! I am not going to let him use me as a scapegoat to buy more allies."

"Yeah lie to me, lie to him but at least don't lie to yourself. Marriage doesn't mean anything to you, the last time  we talked about you producing an heir, you said you will hire a surrogate! One or more wives, you wouldn't have cared even a bit. You know it and I know it." He smirked.

That's it! He thinks he can smirk stupidly and taunt me, I will show him who is his king.

I punched him in the stomach with my uninjured hand and instead of screaming out in pain, he rolled on the floor, howling with laughter.

"This is just epic! You are so pussy whipped! Never thought this would happen but....Oh God!....Fuck..." I kicked him hard and I crouched down to face him," Stop laughing you fucker! I said stop it!"

"You like her! You actually like her no you liked her from the time you first met her...."

I kicked him again this time harder than I did because I was not really hitting him hard before but he was really getting under my nerves now.

I smirked watching him groaning in pain. Smirk now! Laugh now! I will see how you laugh now.

"What the fuck was that for?!" He finally stopped laughing and held his stomach," I still remember the way you looked at her, you wanted to possess her completely it's just her bad luck that she is that mother fucker's daughter."

I forwarded him my hand to pull him up which he took," She can't change that and I have to try to move past it now and I was just attracted to her in the beginning. You are a man and you know how we are when we see a beautiful girl with a great body in front of us."

He grinned,"I know we think by cock and not by brain when it comes to beautiful women but you wanted her to be exclusively yours and I don't remember you being possesive about any girl that I tried to woo after you were done with her. You had no problem sharing women with me before not in college neither when we...."

I silenced him as I raised my hand to stop him from talking,"They were not mine to share in the first place. I never paid them to fuck me or even to fuck you after I am done with them. They went to you by their own free will. Radhika is mine, only mine!" I stated.

I was the first man to know how it feels to be inside her and I will be the freaking last man!

I still remember how I took her virginity. I wanted to hurt her, break her heart and what not but when I entered inside her for the first time, I was blown away by the peace and calmness that spread through me. I did remember my wicked intentions the next minute so I sticked to my original plan of hurting her. What happened that night wasn't what I had imagined it to be.

I thought it will just be like any another night for me, just me fucking the daylights out of a girl, a virgin girl precisely but when I had her once, I couldn't stop myself from taking her over and over again. I was pretty rough and I should have been considerate of her virginity and that it was her first time but I was blinded by my hatred and my revenge.

"As long as you don't let Mark get inside your head, you'll be fine." He said as he got down in plank position to do push ups.

I nodded and smiled reminiscing what happened between us last night when we made lov.....Fuck! I don't even have the courage to say the word because a man like me never had anything to do with this word until now...

To be continued....