Radhika's POV

When I woke up, I was on our bed, in our room and my head throbbed. I looked around myself only to find Arjun sitting on a chair beside the bed with his one feet resting on his another thigh.

"What happened? My head hurts so bad..." I touched my forehead and combed my hair back that were disturbing my vision.

He got up from his chair," I know, I know baby."

I frowned," That man, he covered my mouth and then everything went just went blank!"

I looked down at my protruding baby bump to check if the baby was okay. He was okay, yes he was okay. I can feel it, I can feel him under my fingers.

"I was that man who made you unconscious." He said as he got up from the chair and took a seat beside me.

My eyes widened in shock at his revelation as I stared at him with tears of hurt and pain.

"But why? Why did you do this? Do you have any idea how scared I was?! Why would you do something....."

He cut me off,"To keep you safe, I wanted you out of the mall but I didn't had time to answer your questions. We planned this to get Rehan and Rahil out of their hiding because I knew they would come out if they see you."

I stared at him, shocked and pained that he lied to me,"You lied to me yesterday! How could you?! You made me think everything was okay...."

"I did what I had to for you and about lying then it was for your own good. I didn't had fun lying to you, I didn't sleep the whole night thinking about what would happen tomorrow."

"Why didn't you just tell me the truth?!"

"You would have insisted to stay with me and I didn't wanted you there at any cost. Don't you remember what happened last time? I was brought down to my knees because your fucking brother had you on gunpoint."

"So what happened?!" I asked him.

He narrated everything to me and my eyes widened in shock as I trembled in fear. Oh God! Thank God, my Father didn't get his hands on me or else he would have killed my baby the minute he was born! I don't want to even think about the godawful things he did to others especially Arjun's mother!

"Don't worry, you are safe now and it's over." He inched closer to me and I hugged him tight, weeping in his chest.

"Why are you crying? It's over, baby."

I sobbed in to chest, dousing his shirt with my tears and having had enough of my crying, he finally pulled my head out of his chest," I said stop crying! It's over, I told you."

I looked up at him, teareyed,"What if something had happened to you?! I already lost you twice...."

"You are crying for me?!"

I nodded, sniffling and he shook his head," Nothing happened, Radhika. Stop crying, okay?!

I wiped my tears," Is this what you were fighting about in the morning?!"

"Yes, he thought I was making a mistake and he wanted me to go through with the earlier plan."

"Which was?!"

He took my hands in his," Just hear me out, okay? It was my idea at first and then he jumped all over it but I came up with it. I just want to be honest with you and that is why I am telling you."

"I don't understand...."

"I thought about using you for my plan but then I couldn't do it, I just couldn't do it to you, to me, to us! After he left, I made another plan and he was angry with me because in his opinion, I betrayed him because I filled him in too late and I didn't tell him what I actually had planned and he was furious with me."

I kept quiet, as I still don't understand how should I react. I feel like that fish who is pulled out of water and just when it's dying, gasping for precious breath, it's put back in water!

Sensing my silence, he continues," I understand you are hurt but last night I thought about everything, each moment I spend with you has been the best moments of my life and I will not trade those for anything in this world even for my revenge which is and has been important to me."

I kept quiet, listening to him because I feel he deserves a chance to at least explain himself.

"I was scared to pieces when I thought about losing you. I knew I wouldn't be able to take it if something ever happened to you or my baby."

"Why didn't you tell me everything last night?! I kept asking you if something is wrong and you just..." I broke down in tears as I sobbed.

"I didn't wanted you to be worried and it's my duty to keep you safe. If you worry and you are troubled that means I am doing a shitty job! Also with the pregnancy, I don't want to stress you out, it will affect your health and the baby."

He cupped my teary face and lifted it up, making me look into his eyes," You really think I will be ready to sacrifice you and my baby for my revenge?! You really think I will stoop that low?!"

I shook my head answering his question without words because I am a blubbering mess right now.

He smiled," Don't cry, even if something would have gone wrong, I had the satisfaction that I got you out of there. I might not be a good person, I might not know how to be one and I am not even interested in being one but Radhika, I will always do right by you."

Without saying anything, I placed my head on his chest and he hugged me to his chest.

"Have you forgiven me?!"

"I have nothing to forgive, you did nothing wrong."

"Aren't you going to ask me about Rehan?" He asked me gauging my face.

"No, I won't because he is getting what he deserves. I don't want to know because if I know, it will hurt me and then I will feel guilty for sympathising with a man as despicable as him so it's better you don't tell me."

"If that's what you want, baby."

He turned to leave but I held his hand stopping him," Where are you going?!"

I don't want him to go, I don't ever want him to  leave me.

"I have some business to take care of."

I shook my head," No, don't go don't leave me alone right now. Stay! Please stay with me right now, I am scared...."

"Hey, hey that's enough! You will get a bad headache if you don't stop crying."

He cupped my face, wiping my tears, he kissed my damp cheeks," Ssh! It's okay!"

I wrapped my hand around his waist, trapping him and he couldn't help but smile, as he kissed my forehead.

"Fine, I won't go." He came back to the bed and pulled me closer," I am not going anywhere, don't start crying again now."

"Seher disguised as you went there in your place, she helped me greatly! I thought the man who had wronged innumerable innocent women and children should be defeated by a woman and not a man even if its me! I wanted to hurt his pride, his ego and manhood, I enjoyed every bit of it!"

I know Rehan is my Father but when I got to know the dark and ugly side of him, I started suspecting he had something to do with my mother's death! I feel sick to my stomach when I think about what he did with Arjun's mother!

"You did right, but wasn't this girl scared for her own life? He is a strong man....."

"Scared?! And Seher?! I have never seen that woman scared, maybe that is why I like her...."

I frowned," You like her? How dare you?!"

He rolled his eyes at me," Seriously baby?! You think I will cheat on you?!"

"You said you liked her! What is that supposed to mean?! What am I supposed to think?!" I say, exasperated.

"Instead of jumping to conclusions, let me continue?! I meant, I like her as a person not as a man likes a woman or not as a man who wants to fuck that woman. She belongs to another Mafia family and she wants to be the heir which is justified since she is the eldest daughter and she is deserving too but they are passing her right to her younger brother who has a screw loose and is absolutely as dumb as soup."

"That's unfair but I don't remember you ever talking about her."

"It never came up, we just know each other through extravagant parties and dinners that we have to attend. I don't know if I could call her a friend all these years but now I guess she is a friend."

"That's very sweet of her to risk her life for me, you should narrate the whole incident to her father and try to knock some sense in his head and tell him that his daughter deserves the recognition he has been denying her."

"I will but not right now, tomorrow I will go there."

"You are all praise for her how come you don't want your daughter to rule after you."

"Well if my eldest son was a dumb-ass then sure, why not?! I will not discriminate in terms of their achievements. I just feel a woman is too vulnerable and it's easy to break a woman in comparison to a man who goes through rigorous training to train as a Mafia man even if the woman is subjected to the same rigorous training. I mean as a Father, why would I want a hard life for my daughter, of course if she is an exception like Seher then I won't stand in her way."

"Will the same thing apply to your Son?!" I asked him.

"No! No fucking way! I will tell him, he is a man and he doesn't have a choice but to be tough and strong. He is born as a man, and that means hard life. There will be some rosy moments but mostly its a big bad world out there for men.  His Father is not going to be there forever to protect him, he has to learn to protect himself and his family, he has to multiply everything that his Father has passed down to him, he has to protect his Father's legacy, empire that his Father has given his blood, sweat and tears to. If he isn't deserving of the crown, then I won't give it to him. Can't have a fool wearing a crown, can I?!"

"So you are fine with the daughter ruling if she is deserving?!"

"I guess so, but I don't want my daughter to suffer or have a hard life. I want her to be happy, safe and in front of  my eyes where I could watch over her. For a men it's okay to go through physical and mental trauma but for a woman it is a completely different story anyways we are having boy first so this question is irrelevant now. "

I frowned, "Why irrelevant?! You just said...."

"I know what I said, you think I will raise a soft ass dumb fucker? Then you don't know me at all...."

"I know you!" I stared at him, angrily.

"Then trust me, I know what I am doing, what I will do and how I will do it."

"Okay, let's talk about this girl."

I say in a manner to move the direction of the conversation. You see that, baby, your Father has pretty high expectations from you. You would have been lucky if you were a girl but I guess we will see how you turn out to be in next twenty years.

I really want a daughter, I just want a lifelong companion. I know this boy is going to be more of his Father's son than his mother's son. How I know this?!  I just know it in my heart that this boy is going to be a miniature Arjun and he will give me a hard time but it's okay he is my baby, I love him.

I am grateful to this girl who saved my life, I would like to thank her personally. 

"I am going to Seher's house tomorrow."

"Can I come? I want to thank her personally...."

"No, Radhika I don't want you there. It's a risk to expose family to another Mafia man in his house. I could have her come here for dinner then you can thank her all you want. I trust Seher not her family."

"But don't you have good relations with them? I mean you are the King so....."

He shifts his gaze from me,"Two years ago, her father proposed that I marry Seher, he wanted to unite the families in an unbreakable bond and I refused because I didn't wanted to marry and even if I wanted to marry, I was sure as fuck it wouldn't be Seher."

What?! Now my interest in this girl has increased ten folds!

"But why? I mean I am glad you didn't but didn't you say you liked her as a person...."

"She is not my type! Can we drop it there?!" He asked me, frustrated.

"Fine, I am sorry you don't want to talk about it. I won't ask."

"There is nothing to talk about, I have nothing to say. It's simple, she is not my type." He replies, looking me in the eye.

"What is your type?"

He smirked, "You are my type, you tick all the boxes on my list!"

"List? You have a list of expectations?!"

Why am I not surprised?!

"I don't have written it down, baby its all here." He pointed to his head.

"Tell me more." I asked him curiously.

"Well, beautiful to start with, very beautiful in fact, nothing against not so good looking women, for me looks matter then...." He leaned closer placing his hand on my neck, cupping it on the side," A slender neck....." He slid his hands down to my clavicle bone," Defined clavicle bone, I just find it hot."

I gasped, taking a sharp intake of breath as his hand went down to my breast," Not too big, not too small should fit my hands." I moaned as he leaned down, placing a deep kiss on my breast and even through I was wearing clothes, I felt myself growing wet with his ministrations.

He went down to my belly," Now you are pregnant which I am so happy about but do you know you had a very thin waist, when I first saw you?! I loved holding it with my hands as I fucked you raw!"

I blushed furiously as his hands lowered to my ass, he squeezed it," A very fuckable ass, that I can put my hands on whenever and wherever I want and yeah my cock too!"

He slid down, bringing his hands between my thighs," Oh, my favorite! A virgin pussy that should know only one cock and it should be mine, only mine!"

I moaned as he touched my intimate area even though there was a barrier of clothes. His hands went down as he grabbed my leg," Last but not the least,  long legs that I could put to good use in bed! If you know what I mean!"

Of course I know what you mean!

"What if I become fat?!"

"Then what?! You'll still be the same person, right?! About becoming fat then I don't want you to neglect your health so in case you put on weight, you can work out with me or my Sister although I will suggest you pick Sam, I will push you too hard."

"I am sure you will do and I hate working out, I am too lazy for that so let's just hope that I remain God's favourite child and I get away with eating anything!" I added dreamily.

"Its your wish, although I would like you to become a bit stronger physically. You are too fragile which concerns me."

I frowned,"You are not just saying this because you want me to look beautiful..."

He cuts me off,"You are beautiful! You will always be beautiful for me! You are giving me the greatest gift a man can ever receive from a woman! You are having my baby and that means a lot to me, more than I can ever tell you."

I kissed his cheek for those sweet words. He cups my face and leans in, inches his face closer to mine," You can give me a real kiss, this are high school kisses."

I blushed at his comment but then I remembered that he was telling me about the expectations list.

"You didn't complete your expectations list." I reminded him.

"I think I wanted a girl that is pure by her body, her heart and her soul That also is very important for me. She should be a sweetheart just like you are, not a mean, selfish bitch who I can't."

" She should hold my attention inside the bed and outside too! Sex is very important to me but I should be able to talk to her, feel something for her other than wanting to fuck her. She should be honest, loyal and proud but not proud like me, I am an arrogant son of a bitch, I know that but proud as in a girl who knows her worth, and she is confident in herself, by herself and around other people too especially in front of me because I am the most difficult man ever. I am an ass and truth to be told, I won't like to hang around a man like me."

I laughed lightly and he continued," Also whose laugh delights me everytime I hear it. There should be a childlike innocence to it."

"The most important thing, she should respect my family and know that my family is very important to me. She should not compete with my sister who I love a lot. She should respect and be polite to them even if she might not love them, that's fine....."

"But I love them!" I cut him off.

"You sure do because you are a sweetheart, the most perfect girl ever!"

"No, I am not....." He doesn't let me finish as he kisses me hard.

Breaking the kiss, he says," Now you are just being modest, you are the most perfect girl to find good inside a man like me. You held onto to me at my worst, when I was cruel to you, you held onto to me when we were separated. You held onto to me when you had the choice of letting go but you didn't! You were loyal to me when I wasn't around to watch over you, you always had my best interest at heart. I never saw myself with a wife, children, and living a family life but it's all because of you."

"And to tell you the truth, there was no such list, of course there were some conditions but I never thought about marriage or a long term relationship. I didn't wanted to make a promise I can't keep."

I stared at him, wide-eyed and confused by his words.

"So you made all this up?"

He shook his head," Yes and no, I had certain expectations, but they didn't matter because I knew I am not going to marry anyone."

He looked me in the eye," Radhika, I have seen my Father be an absolute asshole to my mother, he cheated right in front of her eyes, he brought sluts home and he broke his family, his home with his own hands. I saw the pain of my mother closely and I developed an aversion towards the word love and marriage because of them. I will not whitewash my own sins and put all the blame on my Father, I was very clear that if I can't keep a promise of being loyal, being satisfied  with one woman then why make it?! Also with marriage, there are children involved and I come from a broken family, I understand how it feels to be alone, to eat alone, to have no one to talk to, to have no one to ask you about your feelings, to cry alone and have no one to wipe your tears. After they separated, he didn't stay with me, he didn't let her stay with me, he didn't like to come home to me, he said I reminded him of her even though I don't look like her. I didn't wanted to put any child of mine  through the pain I went through."

I feel sorry for him, he was just a child and then he had to go through so much so early in life. First he had to deal with his parents separation and this mother's unfortunate death because of my Fat....Rehan and then his Father's assassination.

"I am sorry you had to....."

"Radhika, I am not telling you all this because I want you to sympathize with me. I was just trying to explain you the reasons behind my life choices."

"Then how did they change?!"

He rubbed my lower lips with the pad of his thumb,"You showed me a different route, you showed that things could be different. Whole my life, I believed that I am my Father's son as much as I hate to admit it. I am his blood and I used to think how can I be anything different than him."

"But you're not him! You value family, you value me....."

He cuts me off," I didn't value you initially but then things changed, you changed the way I think about love and marriage. Even right now I still don't fully believe in both, but I believe in you, I believe in your love for me, I believe in your undying faith in me."

My heart warms at his words, and I feel giddy with joy. I carress his cheek, he has a faint stubble growth on his cheeks and his perfect jaw which makes him look so goddamm hot!

"Of course, I am having your baby and I always wanted a real family, a home that didn't had conversations of murder, revenge and death at the dinner table."

He smiled, "You got it, baby. I will never bring any of it home, I won't quit my way of living for you because I have duties and obligations to fulfill as a man born into this family but home is all yours, baby."

"Okay." I said making myself comfortable in his embrace.

I took his hand and placed it on my protruding belly," I want this, I want this forever and I don't want anything to ruin this."

"Nothing can ruin it, nothing!" He said, looking straight into my eyes.

"You promise?" I asked him.

"Why are you always making me promise?" He rolled his eyes at me, but I didn't miss the smile tugging on his lips.

"Because if you promise, you won't break it, you won't let anyone or anything break it. You will move heaven and earth just to keep your word, you made one to your mother and you fulfilled it even after being through so much, you never gave up on it. You made one such a promise to me too, when I asked you for real marriage, a real relationship, you said you will try. Now I want another one, a promise of lifetime."

He cupped my face," Then let's seal the deal, baby." He kissed me, giving me the promise of forever.

To be continued.....