"I want you to make love to me." I whisper.

Jack's breath catches and he pulls his head back to look into my eyes and I feel my world stop briefly.

"Are you sure baby?" He whispers back as if the wind was just knocked out of his lungs. He's breathless. I've always expected to be nervous when the time eventually came, but after the words left my mouth I felt a sense of calm wash over me.

"I've never been more sure. I want you." I speak confidently, making sure my eyes never leave his.

Jack brings his lips to mine tenderly and I feel the world start to spin again. The kisses we just shared were passionate and hungry but these are different, softer.

He lifts me off the bed and I spin around so he can unzip my dress.

He takes his time slowly unwrapping me, his touch lingering on my skin. His lips gently caress my neck and his nimble fingers slide my gown slowly to the floor. I carefully step out of it and turn to face him.

The gown was tight enough that it held my breasts in place and I didn't need to wear a bra, so now that it has slid off I'm completely exposed.

I resist the urge to cover my body and instead give him permission to gaze over me entirely. My stomach flips as his diamond eyes linger and I tenderly help him slide his dress shirt off his shoulders.

My fingers graze over the muscles in his chest memorizing them.  His skin is silky smooth, despite his rough exterior appearance.  My fingers trace the novels on his ribs and I bite my bottom lip in an effort to control my sudden nerves.  My confidence wavers as I take in his stunning physique and find my own lacking in comparison. 

I keep my eyes fixed on his and with shaking hands, I unbutton his pants. With a little help, they fall to the floor and he casually steps out of them. My gazes plummets to his boxer briefs, I can see the outline of his erection and my fingers play with the elastic on his waist. My eyes meet his again for permission and I slowly slide them down his legs to his feet.

We both stand in awe of each other naked, completely exposed and vulnerable, drinking each other in. My nipples stand in attention from a mixture of excitement and the chill from the room and his hands reach to cup them. But they don't linger, instead, they teasingly graze passed my breasts, my collarbones, my neck, and cup my face.

"You're so beautiful, I can't believe you're mine." Jackson whispers and brings my lips to his in a gentle kiss while he lowers me to the bed.

The silk sheets lay softly beneath my naked body and their cool embrace gives me goosebumps as Jackson hovers over me. One of his hands reaches between my legs and finds me warm and ready.

His lips trail kisses down until he reaches the spot between my legs and I feel his tongue flat against me. His tongue grazes my center and begins to lick in circles while his fingers start slipping in and out of me. I feel a stirring inside my stomach, reaching further down between my legs and I arch my back about to easily come undone when he stops.

Jackson reaches for something in the drawer and I watch him use his teeth to open a shiny square package. He tosses the empty foil on the floor and he carefully scans my face as I watch him slide the condom over his stiff erection.

My breath catches at the sight of him touching himself and I feel the wetness spread between my legs. We gaze into each other's eyes as he lowers himself against me. My breath speeds up as my nerves threaten to get the better of me.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asks me again and I nod swiftly while I hold my breath.

Jack's knee parts my legs, spreading them wide and his fingers start pumping again but this time he adds a third to prepare me. It stings slightly but starts to feel good. My head falls back into the pillow and I let out a soft moan.

"This is going to hurt he says softly. So if you-"

"I'm sure." I swear if I have to reassure him one more time. You'd think he was the one losing his virginity and not me.

I feel the cold rubber condom brush against me and I take a deep breath, ready for the initial shock. His lips brush against my forehead then he lowers his eyes to carefully examine my face as he gradually presses into me.

My eyes squeeze shut as I feel him entering me and my body attempts to stretch around him. It's painful but bearable, it feels more uncomfortable than anything.

He lets out the breath I didn't know he was holding and moans. "Fuck."

Jack slides a little further into me and I gasp from the pain. He freezes in place, "Are you okay baby?"

I nod with my eyes still squeezed shut, "Keep going." This is not nearly as romantic as people make it out to be. I feel like a soldier toughing out the pain.

He slides back out without fully submerging himself in me and I'm thankful that he's so patient. I'm sure he's been with loads of women and this is probably just as awkward for him as it is for me.

"Fucking hell." Jackson moans, his body shaking over me. I grip his arms tight as he continues moving in super slow motion. I feel tears welling up in my eyes and I wipe them away.

"Baby do you want me to-" He moans, his breathing is labored. "Do you want me to stop?"

"No." I manage and he brings his lips to mine. Our kisses taste of my salty tears and I start to concentrate on the affection he's showing me to dull the pain.

The discomfort starts to fade as I watch him in wonder. His muscles shake and contract from moving tortuously slow and his lips trail delicate kisses all over my face and neck. His breath is hot against my skin and leaves goosebumps with every exhale.

"I'm not going to last very long." He admits and I'm actually thankful for that.

I start to return his gentle kisses with my own with each of his slow movements I kiss his neck, his cheek, his forehead then I linger on his salty lips. My fingers thread through his hair pulling him closer and molding his mouth deeper into mine.

I pull back and meet his eyes. "I love you."

He moans and brings his lips crashing back down to mine. I can't help but moan in response to his soft lips and his tongue slips in my mouth and dances with mine.

He pulls back slightly, "I'm going to- I'm going to come baby."

I nod and he brings his lips to my forehead kissing me sweetly. We stare into each other's eyes and I feel our hearts beat in sync as I watch him come undone.

He collapses onto me and I can feel his heartbeat pounding out of his chest as he gasps for air. He gradually pulls out of me and my breath hitches from the empty feeling.

"Are you okay?" His brows pull together in concern.

"I'm better than okay." I say with a smile.

"How-" I stop myself from asking a silly question.

"How what?" He asks smiling.

"I was going to ask a stupid question." My face blushes and I cover my face with my hands.

"Tell me baby." He says sweetly.

"I was going to ask, 'How was it for you?' But I realized that was a stupid question. I just laid there and obviously, you've been with so many women-"

"Stop it." He interrupts seriously and pulls my hands from my face. "Don't ruin this moment."

His expression is serious as he looks me deep in the eyes, "The other times don't even compare. This was my favorite."

I try to hide a grin but I don't need to because he brings his lips to cover mine. Jack brushes away the strands of hair that have been fastened to my forehead from sweat then his fingers tease down between my naked breasts to my belly and back up.

"Does it hurt?" He asks a little worry in his voice.

I prop myself up on my elbows and see a crimson spot on the sheets.  The second I realize it's blood I collapse back onto the bed in shock. I hadn't thought about making a mess, and I've probably destroyed his new sheets.

My hands cover my face again and I turn on my side to bury my head. "I'm so embarrassed. I've ruined your sheets."

He giggles and kisses my hair. "It was well worth ruining the sheets babe."

I remove my hands and stare into his striking diamond eyes. I just gave this beautifully broken man another piece of me and despite the pain, it was all worth it. I love him even if he's not able to reciprocate.

"I love you." I whisper as I pull him in for a kiss.