Ch - 75

It's 2:30 when both reach the hospital in a rush, there is no such commotion there because of night. Clothes are wet and dipped in dirt, it took them more than half an hour to reach even in speed driving.

Without wasting more time both move to change into scrubs and get clean. Naaz darted towards the operation theatre when saw sidhant also coming, kartik rush to them and start telling about the person's reports and condition.

It's a sudden case, he was not admitted to their hospital so it took a little time to do the tests and check his previous reports. Because of old age, the condition is deteriorating with each second, it needs immediate surgery they can't wait more..

Sidhant moves inside, after checking him and all reports it came out that his condition is not at all good and even after operations there is only a five per cent chance of his living. The operation will be going to be a tough one and in most cases like this patient can't able to survive.

Out of that he is in his late seventies and having few more problems. Sidhant run fingers on his hair and ask them to get prepare for the operation, he handled this type of critical cases before and get successful but this time don't know why he is feeling like someone playing with his nerves from inside.

Coming outside he informs the family members that they need to perform an immediate surgery. A man held his hands and requests, "Please save my father doctor, we came here because you are the best. Never failed any cases, please save him." The words are making his anxiety increase more..

A pressure starts developing inside of people's belief in him, of the life on his hands. He dealt with this type of situations before, the pressure and anxiety feeling before any critical surgery but today he is shivering with an unknown fear inside him.

He have to get successful in it anyhow, this what he promise after all that will never let anything happen to anyone by his hands. He can do this, he have to save the life. Taking a deep breath his hand is going to open the door when naaz come outside, "All ready." She informed.

Nodded he take a step when she squeezes his hand, "Sidhant, just calm down ohk.. We will do our best." She can see the tense lining spreading all over his face, in these months this is the first time saw him so tense. "We have to." The last words he said before entering inside.

The operation start near 3 am, sidhant is operating it with naaz kartik and one other doctor. The situation of the room is just getting worse by passing time, sweat bids forming all over their faces, heartbeat accelerate as the monitor shows patient's rhythm of beats is decreasing..

Naaz stare at his face, there's a fear start overcoming on his eyes, hands suddenly start shivering. This is the first time for her to experience something like this but right now her fear is vanishes by seeing his reactions..

All present there is gulping their saliva's in pressure, still trying their best to save the life. Sidhant's mind is not processing anything at this time except for saving him at any cost,.. All eyes turn to the monitor which causes them to suck their breath on the throat, the heartbeat stopped..

Sidhant calms himself a little and tries more, but nothing happens.. Now only the last option is left..
Naaz prepare the defibrillator device and start giving high energy electric shocks to his heart, keep trying it but nothing works..

Her hands left the device, a drop-dead silence spread all across the room, eyes fixed on the patient lying lifeless in front of them after efforts of hours. In mind the flashes of how the heartbeat stop slowly.

For five complete minutes, naaz is completely knocked out by the situation, this is the very first time she saw someone dying with her open eyes. At the time of choosing to be a doctor, so many thoughts were revolving on her mind but this important one never shows..

That time all thought how to be the best, treat people but is ever anyone thought what will happen when someone dies in front of you, by your hands.. Maybe you aren't at any fault but the thing is shivering her from the core.

Some say that one needs to aside the heart for being a good doctor but from where she learns, the person who is her mentor..has always taught to connect with patients, treat with heart, he always does this... The sudden thought of him is made her come out from the shock..

Lifting her eyes she saw him leaving the room, a flash of horror shows in her eyes. How could she not think about him? Wiping her face she looks at all and rushes behind him, the voices coming from outside is rising her fear..

"We trusted you doctor!... I want my father back!... You promised to save him!... What are you doing inside doctor!... Irresponsible doctor!..."..

The accusations are echoed on the floor, her eyes fall on him standing between them by lowering his head. The mere scene is enough to crunch her soul, this is not the way she ever wants to see him. Tears rolled down from her cheeks, it even hard to imagine what he is thinking right at this moment.

Taking a breath she rushes towards him in a hurry which leads her leg bumped into the chair.. Wincing she closes her eyes, "Shit."

"I am sorry." The last words she heard before he go far from her eyes. Jerking her leg she also run behind him, can't leave him alone at this time.. "Sidhant.." She yelled but he enter the elevator without turning back. Her hands pressed all other elevators in hurry, but seems nothing with her today..

Reaching down she saw him sit on the car and leave, again didn't pay heed to any of her yelling. This was the last thing she wants him to do, driving in this state.. It's six of the morning, taking a taxi she darted towards his place hoping to find him there.

Sidhant open the door and locked the room from inside, he doesn't want to be with anyone right now. A loud banging sound reaches to his ears, "Sidhant please open the door." She is pleading from outside..

Shaking his head he throws the vase placed near the door, this is the first time in his fourteen years of career he loses his patient.. He broke the oath that made to his brother of saving everyone's life. He failed in the surgery, he failed the expectations of the people who came to him with hope...

He trashed their hope.. How could he do this? Why he couldn't able to save the man? Groaning he pulled his hair and throw whatever comes in front of his eyes.....
Naaz flinched in fear, the breaking sounds are quicken are beats, killing her from inside.

She doesn't want him to get hurt by any of these, his state of mind is not good at this time.. No.. "" Sidhant please open the door, please..whatever happened it's not your fault. Please." Her voice choked.

He punches on the wall in frustration, anger on himself and yells, "No..it's my fault.. I can't fail..i..broke the promise...i...just leave me alone right now.." He is boiling with so many emotions from inside, and in all this doesn't want to hurt her in any way.. He doesn't have any control over his mind at this moment...

"I am not going anywhere, please sidhant stop hurting yourself... It's not your fault.. He came with the chance of five per cent of living.. No one can save him.. Please..open the damn door....please.." She banged hard trying to break the door.

"I could...I fucking could naaz.. I saved people before in two percent chances of living.. That's the reason they came with a hope..but what I did..just failed them... I broke the oath to save every life... It's my fucking fault.." He again hit the bloody knuckles on the wall and winced..

She can sense him harming himself and it feels like people keep scribble knife on her heart that she can't able to do anything..
"Sidhant no matter how much you try, you still a human.. Taking or giving life is not in your hands.. As a doctor you just can try to save anyone's life, just try... "

She rested her head on the door and continues, "People...treat doctors, or may think them as god..but the fact is they are not...all you are a normal human being.. The oath that you make to yourself, you prove it.. So many times..but to maintain it every time is not on your hands..

He was seventy-eight, with other health issues, he admitted with no living chances. You tried as always your best to save him, you did everything possible.. You are not at fault for his condition.. You can't save everyone, every time...please stop hurting yourself..." Slammed on the door and rest her hand there..

Her words, whatever she just said.. He doesn't know or maybe not in the perfect mindset to understand any of this... How could he? He saw a life, losing heartbeats lying on his hands..a life that supposed to save by him...

The crying, disappointing, broken faces of the patient's family is flashing in front of his eyes., their accusations.. They lose their family member today, just like the way he loose siraaj.. Even in saw naaz lying unconscious he left devastated, then how they all are feeling right now...

How could it not be his fault?..

"Sidhant, say something please.." Her voice broke his line of thoughts.. Wiping the tears by the back of his hand he rest his hand on the door parallel to her by closing eyes, "Naaz, just leave me alone.. I don't want to hear any fucking lecture.. just leave yrr.." He yelled unintentionally, in anger and darted towards the washroom..

Blood fall into the floor by mixing with the water, closing his eyes he tries to focus on the chilled drops of water.. A memory of the past is revolving on his mind...

Siraaj was admitted to the hospital after the accident, critical, soaked with blood. Sidhant was standing outside shivering, praying for his brother to be safe because doctors already said that it was impossible to save him..but still they would try..

And they failed.. That was the day sidhant promised him to never let any life die on his hands,..

His head rests on the wall, warm tears mingling on the chilled water.. It is not easy for him to forget the things, not easy to not blame himself.. He definitely did not try completely, otherwise the patient would be saved today.

It's hard to digest the feeling of losing your patient, that too for the first time.. His mind not able to process it's his fault or not? Coming outside he roams his eyes on the room, lamps are broke, showpieces broke, glasses, blood drops on the floor..bed look like a disaster..

"Fuck.." The thought came to his mind, that he yelled at her in anger.. That was the reason he doesn't want her to be near, what's her fault in all this.. He didn't realize before that it's her first time also, to see someone dying with open eyes...

Shaking his head he moves outside, not finding her in the living area he check on the rooms, kitchen, but she is nowhere, not at home. He shouldn't have said all these.. Groaning he tries to find his phone but it also laying broken...

He dialled her on the landline but it went busy, after trying several times also he got the same response..
"I am not going to leave you until you ask for." Her words hit him suddenly, shaking the core of him...

No, he just thinking too much, she is not that stupid to leave on this stupidity of him.. All his miseries are suddenly turned into fear, heartbeats increasing..

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Answers of previous chapters comments..

School is known for romance after study, i don't know about this type of but caught many couples at the time of morning assembly on last benches.. 😅😉 and then charged bribe also... 🤭🤭 ... Trespassing  is also fun, whether it's school or some other places.. Especially weddings.. ❤❤❤❤