CH - 79

She is sitting in front of him, her eyes are fixing on him in complete shock. The heart is pounding so loudly that it can be echoed on the whole room, she not for a second expect to hear this from him. His mentioning dr. Sinha is the sign he already knows everything.

But how? She comes to know about all these on the day sidhant left for Delhi and only share it with nina, and any doctor would never share the personal information of the patient just to anyone. As far as she remember, never give any doubt which leads him to go and research about these things.

"How did..you know?" She asked. Sidhant look at her for few seconds then says, "I saw the message of dr. Sinha on your phone, asking to collect some reports on the cottage, after coming back I go to her and asked for the reports. She can't deny me, no one can.. It's my hospital..

But, now you tell me one thing naaz, is this the only reason you decided to leave me?" He asked by gritting his teeth, doesn't know why suddenly a wave of anger rose on his veins. The date mentioned on the reports is when he visited Delhi and she went missing for half of the day and then drunk.

Naaz look at the other side by pressing both lips together, yes this is the only reason she thought he might leave her. This is what she saw, how her uncle divorce her aunt because she wasn't capable of giving birth even after many surgeries and medications.

She was fifteen at that time, saw how her aunt begged him for not leaving but no one listens, even the people around there think that whatever his uncle done was right. All blamed her for not capable of giving him the happiness of his own children.

In the crucial time of nurturing a child, few things that happen on the surroundings unknowingly make a place inside them which haunts them whenever they face some situation like this.. She saw everything, how he used to beat her aunt, cursed her all the time...

Every taunt, every incident become fresh on her mind when come to know about her infertility. There is no confusion on the thought that sidhant not a bit like her uncle but, he is also a man..he might have the same dreams of having his own children like others..

He can never beat or cause her, but can leave her.. That's the only fear which is killing her from inside every day.., still.. The fact of not able to get pregnant ever, is less painful than the thought of him leaving her for this reason,..and she will be left devastated like her aunt.

Sidhant's stomach twisted painfully from inside by saw the teardrops escaping from her beautiful eyes, it feels like piercing sharp needles on every inch of his body. He never wants to saw her like that, but wants to know the reason behind her thinking like all this..

Gulping saliva he bend to her and asks, "Tell me naaz? Why the fuck you think like this? When did you know about all these?" She lifts her red watery eyes towards him, which is enough to kill his soul into thousand pieces.
She bit her lips in order to control the sobs,

"Because everyone does sidhant,..no one like a woman who can't give birth ever..and in my case dr. Sinha said there is no..no need to waste money on surgeries or medications..this problem will always be the same..like my aunt..and in the end you will also leave me as my uncle does..

Everyone wants, their children..y.." Before she continues anymore he grabbed her arm in anger, this is the worst feeling that even after being with him for four months, knowing him all inside out she still think like that about him.

Cleaning jaw he yells with hurt filled on his eyes, "Seriously naaz, you comparing me with your uncle..that man who might be treating women like shit as the men of your family. Do you not understand me at all these months? I am don't fucking care about any children.."

She flinched by his sudden voice, but her mind is not yet functioning in any logical ways.. She can't able to hear him, still all the incidents she saw is roaming on her mind,. Shaking head she hold his hand and sobs, "Not now, but you will,.. You will want or need it one day.."

Chuckling sarcastically he leave her and run fingers on his hair by standing up, "I want? You know what naaz, you don't even know what I want and need in life,.. Don't put your assumptions on my wants, I never say any of these.. You are talking about these children things..

Before you come into my life,..you know what my plans were..to live an alone life and die alone. I already planned to spend my life alone, but then you come as a blessing..for me.. Put love, life, happiness in this baseless, life..

You become someone who not only put life on me, but also in this cemented house. You don't even have an idea, how it feels when your giggling, yelling, sweet puppy voice is not echoing here..even the snores.. You made this house a home, naaz..

You made me complete, you are my strength in every single step, you are bloody hope of life, a belief that makes me realise that I also can be happy... You are the only family I have naaz, the only person for whom I want to do  everything..

I fucking don't know about your shitty uncle, but I love you naaz.. It's not just the three words for just saying, I don't know much about love but know it does not depend on any situation nor anything can change it. You talking about my wants right, you know what..

I want you, I need you, I wish you, I worship you, I hope, I believe you, I breathe you, and I love you naaz,.. Everything that comes in my life is related to you.. And you are thinking that I will leave my life for this simple thing.. I am feeling hurt that you never understand me naaz.." He exhales by wiping the corner of his eyes..

Never was so vocal about these feelings but meant everything he just said. The day when he was on the verge of losing her,  know the reality that how much she matters to him... Because of his past experience he used to think that there is no love or feeling type of things exist..

He thought it was myth..but that's the thing about love.. For some, it's a myth and for a magic..a magic that can change your life entirely.. Not all are lucky to feel the magic, because there is a huge difference between mutual understanding and love..

It's a feeling, and it doesn't need any compatibility... Just like she said soul doesn't need to see gender, age, cast.. He might seems philosophical type at this moment.. But this what he feel, it's about his feeling, he doesn't know about others.. For him she is enough and will be enough..

Naaz blinks her eyes at him, his every word reaches directly inside by piercing her soul. She never imagines that one day she can be meant so much in anyone's life. A slight smile appears on her lips by realising that she holds so much importance on his life.

But due to some reason the thoughts not leaving her side, as he said. He never think of loving anyone, but then she came and he changes.. What if in future again something happen and he starts wishing for a child, own child.. Feelings can change again..

His eyes are fixed on her face searching for an answer, what she is thinking? And then she speaks by fidgeting with her fingers.

"What if the wants change sidhant? Imagine you saw kushal playing with his children, do you feel like having one then?" She asked in a cracking voice, her insecurities are overpowering her senses.

He gives her an unbelievable reaction, didn't get why she is not getting a simple thing. Huffing he rub hand all over his face and kneeled down in front of her, capturing her hand on his he sighs,

"Just for your satisfaction, and reminding you that there is a thing called adoption..

If by chance in future, it will need then we can easily adopt children. Many orphan children in the world are waiting for their someone parents. And many people do adoption and he happy without any problem..

If you want, for your sake I want.. Then we can choose that option anytime my love. And if you are thinking that I am that type of man who is very desperate to have their own blood.. Then trust me, you are absolutely wrong..

What blood relationship could do to us, I am very much aware of that., and you know what may be if this thing was not the issue then also I prefer the adoption. Any relationship in the world is build up with bond, not by blood..

You can say it this is also, from one of the things that society and person like your uncle filled in people's brain. The pride of having own blood things, is the reason still women have to suffer so much..even educated people do this shit..

I am getting that children are important for people but it shouldn't be restricted to having their own.. Every child is same, they will be the way you mend up them into,..I don't find any importance of blood anywhere..  forget all, it's not for me...

And whatever I just it's for your satisfaction, for me.. You are enough naaz, I am complete and extremely happy having you.. All I wish to keep you with me forever like this, for me.. We are enough for each other... " Said he placed lips on his knuckles..

She just looking at him with disbelief eyes, it's true that.. Before the time she came to know about her infertility, she also never thought about children ever.. Can say never get time, for some reason this thought not for once hit her mind..

And, before him she also decided to live a alone life with her work.. But then things changes, he becomes everything..her family. She falls deeply, how couldn't she? Look at him, she doubts that if there is anyone in the world who control themselves for not falling for him..

In every way, he is perfect than one can even imagine if we aside his anger and breaking things part..but then again everyone has little flaws. But it's shocking that he loves her, because she is filled with flaws. Don't know how she filled happiness in his life, because from where she is watching..

He is the one who always busy filling happiness in her life, accepting her all flaws, and still loving her the way one can ever imagine. Is this type of love still alive in this world? Or it's just she is the most lucky one.

In this selfish world, he is showering selfless love over her. The time doctor said about the problem, she only thought about him, his reaction more than her pain. But the pain is not there anymore, if she has this type of love in life then ready to give anything in return..

His words are assured her from all way, but again a little question comes to mind. What if anyone forces him to leave her? She might sound stupid, but don't know..any questions can come to your mind. Peaking at him from side-eyes she clears her throat,

"Um..if someone asks you to leave me?" She asked her last doubt finally. But it pisses the hell out of him, he keep his heart, mind all open in front of her but she ends up asking a baseless question again.

With a frustrating face, he get up and says a little loud in anger, "Actually you know what? You are not intended to listen or understand anything I am barking here. I am fucking done, for now, we will talk about your bloody confusions later."

He said and stormed out of the room in anger by taking all the keys, naaz narrowed her brows and rush behind him. She doesn't want him to leave like this ever, because of her stupid question. Before she reaches to him he move outside by thumping the door.

She hurriedly going to open the door but didn't, frowning she yells, "Sidhant, the door is not opening."

He keeps the keys in his pocket and replies, "I know that, what you think madam.. I will leave you alone with open doors. So that you get successful in the planning of leaving me again..this is not happening sweetheart..

I will be back in half an hour till then you will be inside, because I took all keys with me. And I would love to see you in single piece when came back, please clear the dirt of your mind till then and do prepare all baseless questions..

I will give all the answers at once.. Ufff.. Bye love you." Said he go leaving her to stand with open mouth.

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Let's see what happens next!!!

Whatever i wrote, the uncle part is the reality i saw in my neighborhood. The so called high class educated people, torture the woman as shit, the husband roam with other girls and at the end throw her out of house. They did the same with their elder son's first wife because of infertility issue and he re married shamelessly..

And the sidhant part is also a reality, other old couple in my neighborhood at their late sixties now. They are still just two of them, and it says na, happiness face p dikhti h the glow., the smiles, it enough to say that how happy they are with just each other.

There are always good and bad, both present on the our surroundings.. ❤❤

Thank you so much pyaare readers for your beautiful comments and votes.. ❤❤❤❤❤🙏🙏