Ch - 59

Love is the word that has several phases in her life, it gives her both beautiful and worst feelings. Just like different phases it also has several meanings,..the way she loves her mother is different and always will be the loveliest but the love she had with kunal is only left with broken pieces inside her heart.

His love is the reason she wants to go far away from this word, the reason that erases the emotions of this word for her and made it a meaningless, delusional word. Then comes the most beautiful love she feels in her life, love for the person who became the reasons of her dreams for years...

Whom she kept on top out of everything. Not all loves are the same, this simple word has many varieties of meaning for different people. Love for family, for friends, for some specific items, or for towards someone special.

The love she has for angel is not that lover kind of one, it's an unexplainable affection or bond.. It says that when you met your soulmate then it just takes a mere small conversation between you for binding both in a lifetime bond.

That soulmate can be anyone, it's not necessary to be your partner. The affection, the love she always has with angel is kind of that soulmate thing.

And then come the dangerous one, which set every present organ of her body in fire, which capable of mismatch every single wire of her brain, which is enough to raise her heartbeat faster than the speed of leopard., which is very easily able to made her lost...

The things she has for sidhant, the feeling she is trying to ignoring so long. This is the most important and dangerous right now, because of mixing her smoothie beautiful love into a fireball. The combination of both feelings for the same person is enough to blast every single nerve of her body.

This feeling is not an inch close to the things she had for Kunal. If that was love, then what is this explosion called?

Naaz keeps biting nails with her furrowed brows, almost finished all nails of her left hand she looks for the right but unfortunately, it bandaged completely. Sighing she rolls her eyes all over the room with an irritated pout, just then nina come inside.

"Finally, you are here..come fast I have something urgent to talk., I badly need your help nina." Naaz said with an eagerness in her voice, at this time she is the only person who can solve her problem.

Nina sit beside her on the tool and asks with a confusing face, "What happened? Why you look so desperate?" Taking few deep breaths she looks at her and tells everything about sidhant being her angel to the feelings she has for him..

Nina put her palm on her mouth, with widening eyes. It took her few minutes to come out from the shock, "It's unbelievable, i..never thought you will found your angel and out of that, the more shocking thing is dr. Sidhant being the same person.. Oh my god, naaz.."

"Why there is so much drama in your life?" Shaking head she says, "Hmm.. But this is not the important thing right now, what about my feelings for sidhant? Please help me to clear them? It can't be love because I never feel all these with Kunal."

Fisting hands nina thumped on the bed and roared towards naaz, "Shut your mouth naaz, is it necessary to take that monkey's name in such a beautiful time? And for your kind information, you never loved him my dear."

Narrowing brows she is going to get up but hissed, nina help her to sit without pressing her back. "What nonsense you are speaking? I lo..." Closing eyes naaz continues, "I loved him nina, that's the reason we were in a relationship for one year. No matter that all was my waste of time.."

Nodded nina sighs, "Listen babes, there's a difference between liking someone so much and love,..and many relationships in the world is running based on liking which people misjudged as love. Ohk tell me when you fall for him and why?"

She says with frowning brows, "What do you mean by when and why? I don't know..." Nina's questions made her more confused, how could be it possible that she wasn't in love. It might be her worst mistake of life but she loved him, or isn't she?

"I remember the time you came and told me about his proposal. The reason for your acceptance was, he being a fake gentleman to you, and he looks good.. So you can give it a chance, that was your words..

Then you started responding to his I love you and those three words are not any stamp of love.... Most of the time love express by your actions rather than words, you just like kunal, not love. And i can prove you that..". Nina finished by clapping her both hands.

Biting her lips, naaz hummed by looking at the other side, "Please prove." Nina smiles and asks, "Ohk, you just nodded in response. first of all you never missed kunal but get extremely restless in the absence of sidhant."..

"It's never bothering you to be with kunal or not? Sometimes you guys met after a month but you react normally, his talks never able to bring the blush to come on your face that comes because of dr. sidhant. You never get tired of talking about him but we never used to discuss much about kunal."

"I never saw you getting jealous for kunal but heard all your bitching about that era or priyal. The way you look at him is completely different, I notice each and everything when you both live in our place for a week. And yourself say that never felt anything with kunal which you feels with dr. Sidhant."

Naaz keeps nodded her head in positive response all time by stating at her lap. Suddenly her eyes widened, she turns to nina and yells, "Shit, this all means I am in love with sidhant. My...my intuitions are correct."

Chuckling Nina hold her shoulders, "Calm down babes or you want to announce it in the whole hospital right now?" Resting her head on the pillow, naaz closes her eyes.. The feelings she was trying hard to resist is finally entered after breaking all walls of protection.

Two months before she decided to not ever fall for this delusional word but see, again all plans, tricks go to waste. "I love him, I love sidhant...I mean the actual love, the negative one.. Oh shit... No.." Groaning she shook her head in no.

"What happen?" Asked nina in confusion. Opening her eyes naaz look at her, "This shouldn't happen, Nina, I done a blunder by fall for him, .this wasn't in the contract.. Fuck... He will hate me if come to know about this and especially after the mixture of angel truth in these."

She held her head in hand, in all these confusion of love she forgets about so many other things. She can't love him,.. Nina cupped her hand and asks, "What's the problem?"

Naaz exclaims, "Nina it's against the contract, he clearly mentioned there that never mistaken any of his gestures to love.. I done a blunder by falling for him,.. He doesn't deserve me, I am not good for him.. Why..why again I fall for the wrong person?"

With furrowed brows, nina cupped her face and says, "Stop talking nonsense naaz, and few letters on a paper don't hold on to people's emotions. Except that, the way he behaved after saw your condition, not just me almost half of the hospital doubts that.."

"He also loves you.. No one can react in that way for some casual flings...don't you able to see his actions?" A few drops of tears fall start falling from the corner of her eyes, so many moments of them Start coming in front of her eyes  ...

Shaking head in no she sobs, "He doesn't but even if..somewhere he does then it should be ended. He can't love me, I am not...good for him, he doesn't know anything about me... He is the best, I don't deserve him.. We can't be anything rather than a casual."

Nina pulled her into a hug, "Why you are saying all these naaz? You are best for anyone who has you in life, and doesn't think about the things that don't matter now." Clutching Nina's hand she sobs louder, "No nina, everything matters.. I.. "
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After sometimes kushal come inside the room with a tray of food, he looks at both girls sitting on the bed with smiling faces, "Hello ladies, here's your special food naaz.. Made especially under the supervision of your doctor., but I am on service because of his absence."..

Narrowing brows naaz asks, " Where's my doctor?" Nina help kushal to set the food in front of her, "Busy somewhere but messaged me to make you eat all these. So start."

She looks at the white soup in front of her, in all her existing life she never has soup not also the tasty one, hate every soup and he knows that.. Making a face she looks at the other side, "I will never have this yucky thing."

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