Sharan's PoV
Sharan, you did a big mistake of hiding everything from her and giving her fake promises. Now see you lost her trust. Even if you are willing to reveal the truth, now she don't want to hear anything about you. If you had showed the audacity to let her know everything earlier, she wouldn't have come to know about it in this way. May be she would have given you another chance then. But now you lost it.

I held my head in defeat.

Why? Why I am always behaving like an idiot?

There was no limit in my happiness when I finally confessed my feelings for her. We were living in heaven after that. Those golden days, How can I forget it. Best days of my life. She made me believe that I still have a life remaining to love and to be loved. Even when I revealed about my mom, she accepted me understanding the reason of my worst behavior in the past. She forgave me for all my deeds realizing my state of mind. I should have tell the remaining part of my past that day itself. But my worst fear of losing her made me a coward to open up infront of her. What if she leaves me? That was the only question popped up in my mind that time. I was such an idiot to not realize that my Ishu would have been with me despite of what I was in my past. How can I know that one day my past will come infront of my wife in the form of Diana? I wanted to share everything with her when my mind became disturbed thinking about it.  But then she became pregnant with a weak uterus. How can I stress her more with this unknown part of my life in that condition? Then I decided to gave up on that thought. I got my baby to forget everything.

Diana...How could she come at this time itself? Why Diana?? Why? I haven't cause any harm to you till now. Instead I saved you from every danger that comes into your way. And why can't you now allow me to live? You are successful in separating my Ishu from me. She is mentally very far away from me now. And I can't do anything. I am helpless. Eventhough I wants to reveal everything and clears everything between us, she is not ready to give me a chance. Why should she? If it was me, I would have behave the same way. I wouldn't have given another chance to a person who broke my trust once. I broke her heart. Will she ever forgive me? Will my baby forgive me for being the worst father?

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Ishana's PoV

I don't know wht is happening with me after seeing Sharan in tears. Why can't I give him a chance to reveal the truth?? What if he is innocent and only because of circumstances he might have done something that I may not like? But Sharan you hurted me a lot. You have no idea how much I am feeling bad when you treats me like I am not trustworthy. Didn't you promise to share your every happiness and sorrows with me?

I was very much happy that day that I was even ready to do anything for getting you out of your past?? And what have you done Sharan???
You broke that promise. You can't imagine my feelings.

I am sorry Sharan for not being a wife with whom you can share your sorrows more than happiness. I failed in proving that. I wants to be a good mother atleast.

"I won't leave you Sharan. Not because I want to continue like this. I have already promised to be with you always. I don't know to break promises like you. Moreover I won't allow my baby to miss her father's love. I can't leave Appa and angels. I know I am the reason for Varna's condition. I am regretting for that. I shouldn't be this much close with them. Anyway I promise I won't cause any harm to my sisters or Appa. I won't leave this house to hurt anyone."
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During Breakfast
Everyone gathered around the dining table once again to have breakfast which they left earlier without completing. This time Isha sat beside Sharan at her regular place. It gave little relief to Sharan. He looked at her and smiled slightly. But she didn't look back. Diana sat opposite to them. Varna and Veena were happy as they thought that every problem between Isha and Sharan are solved. Durga knew there was something still burning between them. But he ignored it as he knows that they need some time to cope up with everything and solve the problems. He is sure that they can't stay like this forever and everything would be solved soon because of their love and understanding. He hoped so.

Sharan was restless with Isha's silence but still he is happy for her calm nature. Atleast she is taking care of the baby. He felt relieved. Diana on the other hand had a tough breakfast. She had to try a lot to hide the marks on her neck which was caused due to Sharan's attack. She didnt give any gaze on Sharan as she knows he is angry with her. But she didn't fail to notice the silence between Sharan and Isha. She can guess what is going on between them.
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Ishana's PoV
I was wandering on my room. Sharan left to office immediately after the breakfast. I know it's an escape from me. How dare he?? Nothing more to be expect from him. I touched my belly with love and affection.

"Baby, your mamma loves you a lot. Come to my world fast. I am feeling alone here. Your pappa doesn't care for me. Let him do his works on office and be happy in his world. Atleast should have been here with me. He don't know how much his presence can relieve me from all this stress. But who cares? And what about the baby? Did he forget that he have a baby growing in my womb?

I felt heavy headache. I sat on the bed holding my head with both hands. How much I am missing Sharan now? If he was here, he would have massaged my head.

A tear drop escaped from my eyes and landed on my belly. The only thing I need now is Sharan's chest to cry out all my sorrows. But he is not. He won't.

The door opened suddenly and it was the person I didn't expect at this time.
I was angry and shocked at the same time seeing her face.

"Isha. Pls don't look at me like this. I would be scared."Diana said.

"Don't take my name. I hate it." I said with hatred.

"I know there is no reason for you to love me. I am a person who came here to destroy your life according to your view. But believe me..it was not my intention..I didn't think about causing any harm to Sharan's life till now."she said without any shame which made me more angry.

"Pls stop this nonsense. How could you come infront of me after doing all this to me? Pls leave me alone" I snapped at her.

"Isha...Pls give me a chance. Atleast here me patiently."she said now in a requesting tone which was least expected from her.

"I dont want to hear anything. Leave me I said" I shouted turning my face away from her.

"Isha..if you dont hear me now, it's your lose. It's not too late now. You have still time to retrieve back your life. I am again saying. You would lose your life if you close your ears infront of me and your husband. Give Sharan a chance to explain if it's not me. May be you can still gain back what you think that you already lost." She said confusing me. I turned towards her.

"What are you saying?"I asked.

"Believe me. I have blackmailed him a lot for making him do what I want. But that doesn't mean I am here to destroy his life. It's not my intention and I will never think like that. Infact I can't do it with Sharan. I can't make you separate from Sharan when I know that you are the reason for Sharan's new life. His reason to live now. How can I do that with Sharan who saved me a lot of times?" She said making me shocked.

I already knew they dont have any relationship. I am sure Sharan wouldn't betray me with another girl. I am the only girl in his life. I believe his words. I was sure there is something between them which is more complicated than that. Now Diana's words scaring me to hell. I felt regret for not listening to Sharan. But he deserves it for breaking the promise to me.

Diana came towards me and held my both hands together.
"Trust me.. Sharan loves you more than anyone else in this world. If you leave him, I am sure he won't survive even for a minute.."she said.

"Who are you? How do you know Sharan? I know you are not his collegemate..tell me the truth...what is your connection with Sharan?" I asked this time with a hope.

"I dont have right to say anything related to our relationship..but trust me Isha...he is not a bad person like you are thinking..may be he have done mistakes..but his reasons for doing that are justifiable..he didn't have any other option..so pls forgive him..only you can do that...when you bared that rude Sharan and successfully changed him to a new person..I am sure..you can forgive him once more..give him a chance...atleast for your baby..you know how much he is excited for his baby..he is begging me continously only because he can't afford losing you both...do you know how much lucky you are for getting an husband like him? Only rare woman would get that chance...don't spoil it in the name of any past..he is now the best husband..he cant live without you Isha..." She paused wiping my tears.

I closed my eyes tightly.
"I can't live without you Ishu" his words recalled in my ears. How many times he said that to me? Tears are flowing continously from my eyes.

"Isha.."Diana touched my shoulders.
"Do you know one truth? You are the best woman I have ever seen in my entire life. Sharan is the luckiest man on this earth for getting you as his wife..no one can lose a gem like you..I can understand why he is begging this much infront of me for not losing you. When I heard your stories, my respect for you have only increased...how can I make my Sharan lose you? I am very happy..because my Sharan have got the best wife..."Diana wiped her own tears..I don't know why she is crying. But automatically my hand reached her face and wiped her tears.

"Dont cry" I said in a shivering voice.
"Thanks Isha..I am the reason for your current condition..still you are caring for me...how can a person be so kind?"she asked me.
"I ....you.." I stammered even though I had a lot of questions to ask.
"You will get the answers for your every question..you deserves it...so calm down...today I saw how much this family is loving you. I can guess the reason for that..you are not living in this house Isha..you are staying in the heart of each and everyone here in this house. I am very lucky to meet you..I have a request..don't hate me"she said turning to leave.

But she again looked back and held my hands.
"Isha..can I see you as my sister? Any problem for you?it's just a request..."she said.
"Yes" I said determinantly.

She kissed my belly.
"Take care of your baby.."she said and left.

I stood there stunned. What is happening around me? I can't stay away from him anymore..I am ready to hear anything from him even if it kills me. I can afford it and I want it asap. I took my phone and send him a message. I waited for the response.
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Sharan's PoV
I was sitting on my cabin with my head resting on the table. Isha's words are killing me. Thats why I came to office for escaping from all this. Atleast I shouldn't have to face her. the guilt is making me restless. Yes..I am a coward..I should have trust my Isha..why did I think that she won't accept this truths about me? I was wrong in understanding her..I should have believe that she will be there with me forever without considering my past. Now it's too late. I can't do anything now.

"Sir" I got up hearing Karthik 's voice.
"What do you want now? I told you already to not disturb me."I said.
"Sir..I am here to know whether any problem is there. Because you seems like you are not in a good mood."he said.

"I am alright and I want some peace now. Pls leave me alone." I almost shouted at him.
He left with a worried face.
I held my head.

"Isha..can you pls give me one more chance? this time I won't break your heart...I won't break your trust.. promise.... atleast for our baby..Pls Ishu..I would compensate for all my mistakes..only thing I am asking is one more chance for being your Sharan."

Suddenly my phone vibrated and I took out the phone to see a message from Isha.

Your baby is searching for you...what should I tell her?😠

My face brightened seeing her msg especially the emoji..I looked at the msg again to confirm it is from my angry wife. I smiled almost giving me back my life.

Baby or her mamma..who wants me now actually?😉

I replied back holding the phone close to my heart.

Both... come fast...you are gonna taste good medicine today.

Her reply made me laugh. I took the key and rushed outside. The lift was already started moving. I can't wait till it come back. I moved towards the staircase and climbed down the steps. When I was about to enter the car,my phone vibrated once again.

Don't drive fast...take care
She is absolutely mad and I am the reason for her madness.

I love you😘😘
I sent a msg back. I got the expected reply the next second.
I hate you😤😤
I smiled and started driving the car.
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Ishana's PoV
Where did he go? Its been half an hour I started waiting...where the hell he is?? 

I saw the door opening and I sat on the bed.
"Finally I am here my sweet angry wife."he said giving a try to pacify me.

I turned my face to the other side.
"Do you know how you look like when you are angry? A goddess directly landed from heaven..that's you when you are angry with me."he said trying to hold my hand.

"Dont touch me" I shouted.
"Am I allowed to touch anyone else other than my wife?"he asked making me angry.
"Not at all..."I said shouting.
"Then bear me.."he kissed my hand.
I pulled my hand back. He looked at me confusingly.
"Okay...I thought someone had messaged me to come back home. May be its from customer care...anyway bye..."he said standing up from bed.
"Can I kiss my baby?"he asked before going.
"It's your baby..why are you asking my permission?" I said.

He smiled and knelt down. He encircled my waist and kissed. Tears started flowing from his eyes.

"Sharan..." I called.
He looked up at me and stood up. I made him sat beside me..he rested his head on my chest and hugged me tightly.

"Tell me now Sharan...what did you hide from me? "I asked.

"I am bad Isha. I don't deserve you."before Sharan completes I stopped him by putting my finger on his lips.

"What are you saying? I don't know what was you in the past..but one thing I am sure..the Sharan I loved, Sharan who loved me... that Sharan was perfect for me..I don't care about your past...I know that the Sharan who tied knot on my neck won't do any mistake willingly...that's enough for me.." I said for which he hugged me tightly.

"Isha...I will tell everything to you..I can't handle it alone anymore..I want your support..."he said crying.
"Tell me...I would be with you always..." I said determinantly.
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Flashback (from Sharan's PoV)

That day when my mom left us, dad had a heart attack..we admitted him in hospital immediately with the help of some company staffs. Doctor said me that only an emergency surgery can save his life now. I was in a dilemma as it was an expensive surgery which need 2 lakhs. We lost everything within a single day...Dad's money, mom's jewelry everything...I didn't know what to do that time...with each passing minute, saving dad becoming risk. I have begged everyone for money..no one has helped me as they know that I can't repay the amount.

That time I remembered about my old friend Surya.

His father is a business man who is doing some illegal activities for money. when my dad came to know about it he made me promise to stay away from Surya...I kept that promise till that date...but that day....for saving my dad, I called Surya again.....

"Hai da.."

Introducing Gopi Chand as Surya

"Surya I need your help...my dad is serious..I want 2 lakh rupees urgently..." I detailed him everything.

"I can understand you..but you know my dad well..he wont give money without any returns even if it is for me or my mom....I am sorry da" Surya said helplessly.

"Pls Surya...I would definitely pay back the amount..."I requested.
"Okay I will call you back after talking to dad..."he ended the call

Exactly after 15 minutes he called me back.
"I have talked with dad..he agreed to give you required amount.... but.."he hesitated to tell remaining.
"Tell me Surya pls" I said.
"He knows that you can't pay back the amount as your dad's business has collapsed...he want you to do a job in return..."he said
"What's it?? I am ready to do any job in return..."I assured.
" He will give you a packet .you have to deliver it to the correct destination...and it's very dangerous job...I won't force you to do it... I know you may be caught by police." He said
"What's that packet?" I asked shockingly.
"Drugs...." He said.

For sometime I was in shock and decided to reject the offer...but when doctor said to me that dad's surgery has to do immediately, I forgot all my ethics and morals...the only thing visible for my eyes was my dad's critical situation in ICU and angels' crying face....

Present:
"Sharan..."Isha touched my shoulder.
"Yes Isha..I have done what Surya's father asked me...I have delivered the packet to people who wants it..I nearly escaped from police.. Surya's dad gave me the amount to save my dad..Surgery was successful and I got my dad back..." I said.

"It's ok Sharan...you have done it only for saving a life. .it's justifiable..there was no other way for you...I can understand it."she said.

"Will you forgive me when you hear that your husband became a drug mafia agent after that first successful attempt?" I asked looking at her eyes straightly.

"What?" She withdrew her hand from me shockingly.

Flashback continuing:
When I successfully delivered the packet after overcoming all police traps, Surya's father got impressed. He appreciated me a lot. He gave me an offer that changed my life.

"Do you want to continue here? You are really intelligent and brilliant. I want people like you here." Chakrapani; Surya's father asked me.

Introducing Lal as Chakrapani

"No...I can't..I won't...My dad will get furious when he get to know about what I have done today..even if I say that it was to save his life...he won't forgive me..." I said

"Your dad won't get to know about it...It's my promise..I will help you to escape from all financial troubles. You would get your company back as earlier." Chakrapani assured.

"Dad, pls dont force him..he have a family...they needs him..dont drag him into this dirty job..." Surya said.

"Surya..shut up..you have no voice here...you are also living with the same money which you always say that illegal dirty money...money is the ultimate king..."Chakrapani laughed.

"Ok beta..it's ur wish to continue here or not..I won't force you..if you want my help, don't hesitate to come here..there will be a chance for you here always..."Chakrapani said.

When I reached back home, I was shocked to hear that our company is in a big debt..If I didn't pay back the amount within one year, I will lose the company which is the hard work of my dad. I went to the hospital to hear another shocking news. After the surgery my dad went into a depression state because of the multiple shocks he got within a single day...I didnt know at that time wht to do...one side depressed dad, another side angels who are crying continuously for their mom and the threats from various money lenders.....I had only one option left.

I returned to Chakrapani to make money to save my family... Chakrapani and his team welcomed me. He trusted me. He helped me to continue my studies while doing his jobs... Initially Surya didn't like my idea of joining his dad..but later I convinced him with proper reasons. I didn't make friendship with much people as I started to become rude... There I met Diana for the first time...She is also a working member of Chakrapani's gang.

"I didn't want to do such jobs here..but my circumstances made me to do this just like you..My family needs money..my father died few years ago..my mom is a mental patient..I have three sisters..my elder sister got married long ago. But her husband left her saying dowry reason. My mom's hospital expense, younger sister's studies...everything made me like this..."

Diana's story made a soft corner in my heart to her. I told everything about me to her. She was the only person with whom I behaved softly. She was a good friend and helper for me. We have done a lot of operations together. We managed to escape from police trap always. Chakrapani trusted us more than anyone. I hid my original identity from everyone except Diana...even from Chakrapani team members... I had another name there. Within no time I became a wanted criminal for police department. I succeed on all our missions. Police trapped me many times but I managed to escape from them.

Within three years I gained all my wealth back...Dad slowly became normal. He thought that I have retrieved back everything by legal money. But the guilt inside me always killed me. That's the reason I decided to end everything and fully concentrate on business..my dad and angels needed me...

When I said this to Chakrapani, he was sad as he lost a brilliant agent. But Surya was the most happiest one for my decision. He supported me and said to escape. I adviced Diana to also quit this job. But she didn't...I even offered her a job in my office...but she said she is used to it and she can't change suddenly. I said good bye to everyone and retrieved back my original identity as Sharan...I didn't look back to that dirty way after that. I concentrated fully on business and lived only for my family after that.

Present:
Isha was sitting lifeless on bed. I touched her but she didnt respond.
"Isha I can't hide anything from you anymore...Hear this too. Can you accept me even after knowing that your husband killed one person?"I asked.

She stood up from bed shockingly.

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Precap : Sharan's Past continues.

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