Recap: Isha questioning Sharan - Sharan willing to reveal the truth - Isha refusing to hear it.

Sharan's PoV
Finally I got the most deserving gift for hiding everything from Ishu. I can't win her trust once again back. She is a poor soul. How much did I hurt her ?? Then also she forgave me for my every single mistake and loved me more. What did I give her in return? More and more pain!!! Isn't it?? Why should she trust me again? Why should she hear my bloody secrets which I didn't will to share with her earlier? To bear more pain? for getting more hurt..???

No way..for once it's okay...second time also ok..and when I am repeating these again and again how can a woman bear so much...its over Sharan...she lost the belief on you.
Even if I reveal the truth now it will add more pain and also she don't want to hear anything now. I deserve this.

I moved towards Isha's side on bed where she is sleeping after sobbing for a long time. Tear marks are visible on her face which wrenched my heart. I slowly wiped her face and pecked her forehead without disturbing her sleep.

"I am sorry Isha..I know you hates me...but I will always love you no matter how much you hates me..."

I moved towards the couch to get some sleep which I failed to get till now.
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Ishana's PoV: At Morning
I woke up rubbing my eyes. I looked at the clock to find its 8 am already. Oh god. I have slept a lot. I found that Sharan's side on our bed is empty. A flashback of yesterday's events passed through my mind giving me a shivering through out the body. I saw him sleeping on couch. I clenched my fist in anger.

Sharan, I really wants to hate you now. But how much I tries, I can't. I don't know why. May be because you are the reason for me to live now. I am becoming weak when comes to your love. You made me like this Sharan. I loved you a lot such that even your single step of hiding things from me hurting me a lot. Why are you doing this to me Sharan? Why can't you trust me? That day when you shared your past with me, do you know how much happy I was? I thought that I am that most important person in your life so that you shares the secrets of your life that your angels even don't know. I was a proud wife that moment. I believed your promise of not hiding anything more from me. I was so happy to get you as my husband. But then also. You won't change Sharan. You are still living in a shell created by yourself where no one else have permission to enter. Your happiness, your sorrow, your past, your secrets...that only matters to you. When would you understand that I loved the Sharan accepting all his flaws and past? Nothing matters to me if you are willing to share everything with me. But you won't. Your insecurities won't ever go Sharan.

Why should I think about him? I know I don't need anyone to live. Let him live in his own world and I have my own world. I touched my belly.

I moved towards the couch with a blanket and covered him with that. I slowly touched his cheek.

"Sharan you are so cruel. You are again making me weak. Do you know how much I loved you? I know you will not cheat me with another girl. I know there is no girl in your life other than me. But the things you are hiding from me are more complicated than it. No Sharan. This time I will not forgive you for breaking your promise. You are a liar. I dont allow you to cheat me once more with your fake promises. I won't be a puppet for you anymore."

I went towards the kitchen and prepare a coffee for myself. I drunk it sitting on the dining table. I dont know how much time I sat like that. I was brought back to the world by Janimaa's continous shaking.
"What happened Isha? Why are you crying?" She asked.
It was a realization that I was crying continuously till now. I wiped my tears.

"Is there any problem Isha?"she asked with a mother's concern. That was the moment I lost all my control and I hugged her crying on her chest. She was shocked seeing me in this condition. I hate that time when my tears dominate me. I cried a lot hugging Janimaa. But felt relaxed after that.

After a few minutes she raised my chin and kissed my forehead.
"Come to kitchen. I will prepare you another coffee" she left.

I was surprised with her behavior. For my relief she didn't ask me why I cried. I followed her to the kitchen. I wanted to hug her for some more time. I saw my mother in her once again. Even though I have no reasons to smile now, my lips craved into a wonderful smile without my knowledge.
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Sharan's PoV
I woke up from sleep when I fell down on the floor from the couch. My body ached a lot. But it was nothing compared to my heart's pain. I wondered when did I fall into sleep. I immediately stood up from floor and didn't find Isha on the bed. My heart beat stopped for a moment.

Where did she go? What happened to her? I checked the bathroom and understood that she is not there. Did she leave me? That was the first question which passed through my mind. No. How can she? She won't.

I rushed towards downstairs and entered the dining hall. I heard some sounds from kitchen and moved towards there. I found Isha sitting on the kitchen slab drinking the coffee. She was very quiet like a lifeless body which is totally against her normal behavior. Janimaa was cooking something. For my relief they both didnt see me. I dont have courage to face her now.

Then also I wanted to go near her and hug her into my arms. Only she can console me. But I left that thought realizing the consequences. I know she will treat me badly if I try for it. I need to make her calm and anger free first. She didnt give me my daily coffee today. I can understand how much she is angry with me now. I went back to our room to freshen up. Before that I called Karthik to inform about my leave.

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Ishana's PoV
I finished my second coffee. I am not a person who is so much obsessed with coffee like my husband. husband? Then only I remembered about Sharan's coffee. Why should I? Tell that Diana to get him coffee. No,she can't. Why should she bring coffee for my husband? He is only mine. I was confused on my own thoughts. Then I finally came to a decision that Sharan dont need to drink coffee today. I relieved from my thoughts when I realized that Janimaa is staring at me just like she is seeing me for the first time.

"What happened to you Isha? A single night had brought so many changes on you." She asked caressing my hair giving me all love of a mother.

Yeah. Single night. A single night changed my life, showed me the real colors of my husband,broke my heart completely. Anything more left?? It was my mistake to expect this much from him. It would have been better if we didn't create such a bond where we both cant live without each other. Just like our earlier days where he treated me like an enemy. Why did I fall for him?

I touched my belly where our half life is growing. I closed my eyes.
"Isha. I know how much you are loving your baby. You can't be like this atleast for the sake of baby."Janimaa told.

I opened my eyes only to hug her tightly. She hugged me back.

"I lost everything Janimaa"I said like a lost soul.
"What are you saying? What have you lost? You haven't lost anything dear. It's just your thought. See. Everyone here are loving you the most. Your Appa, angels..and more than everyone your husband.. Sharan would be there for you always."she said to console me. Her last words made me broke the hug.

Sharan. He will be there for me always. The man who can't realize his own wife's pain.

"Now I understood the problem. Did you guys again fight? I feel like you both are still kids." she laughed.

I looked at her with sympathy. This innocent lady don't know what that kid is capable of doing.

"I have fed up with your husband. Can't he atleast control his anger when his wife is pregnant?"she sighed.

"Isha. Don't take him serious. He dont know how to express his love. How to make others feel his love. Sometimes it will come out as anger. It's not like he is bad. It's just he is possessive for you. You know him well more than me. Then why are you behaving like seeing him for the first time? Mark my words. Soon he will come to apologize for shouting at you. You will become happy then. Because I know that you can't be angry at him for a long time. So now don't stress yourself and the baby." she said caressing my hair.

Janimaa is right. The thoughts about my baby gave me some strength. I left to our room fixing a fake smile on my face.
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Sharan's PoV
I came out from bathroom only to see a broke down Isha on bed. She is sitting on bed with her head resting on her knees. I went towards her and forcely cupped her face only to be pushed away by her. I could see her angry eyes that made me scare a lot.

"Isha. Pls hear me for once."I requested.
"Dont touch me and stop your acting."she shouted back.
"It's not acting baby. Pls believe me"I said.
"Sharan I am fed up with all your acting. Leave me alone. I don't know what would I do if you again come to talk with me. I have lost all my control. Leave I say"she shouted at the top of her voice.

I had no option other than moving away from her. This Isha is not familiar for me. Atleast for the sake of our baby I can't hurt her again. She need her own space and time to calm down.

"Isha ..take your own time....I wont disturb...." Before completing my words she interrupted me jumping up from bed.
"Can you please leave from here? If you can't leave me alone then it's better I go..."saying this she started moving towards the door. I held her wrist blocking her.

"Dont leave..I will go."I was about to leave when we saw Janimaa on door.
"Why are you both again arguing? Stop your fights and think about the baby. Are you aware about what you are doing to your wife Sharan? You are making her tense unnecessary. Dont you know about her mood swings? Why can't you adjust realizing her state instead of again fighting with her? And Isha you should start thinking about your baby more than anything around you if you really loves the baby. Baby's health will depend upon mother's condition during the pregnancy stage." Janimaa scolded both of us in a loving way just like a mom.

We forgot the fact that we both don't have a mother for a moment seeing Janimaa. We both bent our head looking at each other.

"Breakfast is ready... Come eat ..."Janimaa left after giving us a beautiful smile.

I looked at Isha and found that she already occupied the bed. I went near her.

"Come Ishu..let's eat" I slowly placed my hand on her thigh. And as expected she pushed it away.
"I dont want anything...go eat.. fill your stomach...don't need to show your fake concern for me...."she said for which I tried to hide my tears.

"Isha. It's me who hurted you. But now you are punishing our baby for that. What sin our baby did except being Sharan Sharma's blood?"I asked and she looked at me in shock. I know I am playing the right card now.

"See you can't hurt our baby for her father. Because you loves her more than anyone. You were once ready to die for saving our baby. That Isha can't do this." I said kneeling down infront of her. I saw her in tears.

Finally it seems like she melted for baby's sake. She wiped her tears and went along with me. Our hands touched each other while walking. Suddenly she moved little away from me. We walked with a clear distance in-between. I occupied the chair which I usually sit. She sat on a chair on opposite side instead of sitting beside me. I felt sad.

And finally that happened which was the last thing I wished to happen at this moment. Diana came and sat exactly on the chair adjacent to me. And it's complete now. I looked at Isha who is glaring at Diana as if she will burn her now. I could see extreme anger in her eyes instead of jealousy. No one can define the amount of anger that she possessing now.

Isha served everyone including dad,angels and me. Something is missing na? Yes,she didn't serve Diana. Diana looked at everyone with her empty plate.

"Ishuuu..you forgot to serve our guest...what happened?"dad asked little serious.

"Why should I ? She have two hands just like me. Can't she serve herself?" Shocking everyone to the hell Isha shouted loudly. It was a new experience for everyone. No one could believe that she raised her voice against dad. I pleaded her with eyes realizing what is coming next.

"Isha why are you behaving like this? You were not like this earlier."dad declared.

"Why can't I change? Everyone can change according to their benefits. Why can't I? I am also a human with feelings and emotions. Don't I have right to express it?"she asked hitting on the table hardly. This conversation is going to something that shouldn't happen. I should make her calm. I went to her and held her palms. She pushed it away.

"Isha just calm down. It's okay. I said to serve her because usually it's you who used to serve everyone and you don't like even Janaki doing that. If you don't want, I am not forcing you. I am sorry." Dad said making me shock.

Varna and Veena were worried witnessing the sudden turn over of events. I looked at Isha who is standing like she didn't hear that dad said sorry. Diana is calm and cool as usual. Wait. Is she smirking? Diana, you are dead. Just wait for this to over. I will make sure that you are dead in my hands.

"Am I a servant here?" Isha asked hitting on table, making us again shock. This time she didn't forget to push the plates away.

"Isha, stop this. You are interpreting us in a wrong way." I held her strongly.
"No I can understand everyone's intentions. I did whatever I can to make your family happy. Did anyone care about my happiness? Everyone enjoys in hurting me. I am also an human and sometimes I can't control myself. To be frankly I am fed up. Fed up with this life."she said sitting back on the chair.

I can see both Varna and Veena crying. Dad's face became pale. Isha's words hurted him a lot and that is clearly readable from his face. That was the edge of my patience level.

"Stop this Isha. Firstly you made my dad apologize to you. Now you are again hurting him and angels with your words. Why hurting my family? If you are angry at me, show it on me. They didn't do anything bad for you."I shouted stressing each word. I was equally angry especially after seeing dad's miserable state.

"Oh, great Sharan. Your dad, your family. So what's my place in this family of yours? Who are they to me? I thought that they are my dad and sisters too. But now you showed me my real place." She said with a smirk.

Why Sharan? Why are you always messing up matters with your anger?

Varna and Veena went to hug her for which she moved away from them.

"Dont touch me. I am not anyone to you. Didn't you hear what your brother told? I was just a servant and my job was to make you all happy."she cried covering her face with both hands.

"Bhaiyya is mental. Why are you taking it serious Ishudi?" Veena asked.

"We are seeing a mother in you..not servant..." Varna forcely hugged her.

"Sharan what's wrong with you? Why can't you just control yourself? Or are you also pregnant to show your mood swings? You are always forgetting about your wife's health." Dad asked looking at me.

Both my sisters gave me a glare. I didn't fail to notice Janimaa's pleading look at me.

"Isha pls listen to me.." I tried to hold Isha for which she jerked away my hands.
"Sharan stay away from her...don't touch her..."dad ordered me.

He went near Isha and cupped her face.
"Isha, we can understand your feelings. Here everyone loves you genuinely. Let's talk about it after you are relaxed. Veena, get her to the room" dad said.

"No, I know my way. I can go myself."Isha left to the room leaving us behind shocked and confused.
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Precap: A new shock - Heartbroken Isha - Sharan's attack on Diana.

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