Recap : Ishana questions Sharan - Ishana-Sharan share a moment

Ishana's POV

I can't believe this. Is he the same Sharan who scolded me this morning? He seemed to me just like a kid. Wow. Is he bipolar or what? One second he is Mr. Rude and next second he is like an adolescent. Anyways I can handle Mr.Rude better than that soft guy standing in my arms. How can a person be both at a time? But I think I can understand. 

Anger is a very consuming emotion and when it leaves us we feel very empty. May be that was why he was behaving like that.

I was pulled out of my thoughts by a knock on the door. Veena and Varna are sleeping so I tiptoed to the door in order to not wake them up. I was surprised to see Durga uncle at the door after opening it. He was looking pale and lifeless. I know he is passing through a lot of stress and strain which he hiding intentionally from his children. I respects him for his courage even though I don't know what he is experiencing.

"Ishu can you spare a minute? I need to talk to you about something" he said. What does he want to talk and that too at this time? I nodded at him and we went towards the balcony where our conversation wouldn't disturb the girls.

"What did you want to talk about uncle?" I asked sensing his tension.

"What happened to Sharan?" he asked me and I was surprised by his question.

"Nothing that I know of. Why are you asking me about this?" I asked and I was proud of my steady tone. It didn't even weaver.

"I saw him crying , that too in front of you, just a while before dinner." Shit. He saw us.

"Sharan's past has given him a lot of reasons to cry but I have never seen him cry in the last ten years. Why did he cry in front of you now?"

"Uncle if you are thinking that I did something to make him cry then let me tell you that I haven't done anything wrong...." He cut my sentence off in the middle.

"No Ishu. I am not trying to say that you made him cry. Instead I want to appreciate you" Wow. Why would he appreciate me when I made his son cry? 

"Sorry uncle. Did you just say appreciate?" I asked, just for confirmation sake.

"Actually I felt more relaxed when I saw him like that. Do you want to know why?" Do I even have a choice in that matter now that I am so curious. I nodded in response.

"Sharan always tries to be strong. He tries to win over everything and in this process he has lost the respect he has for everything. He treats them like they are just things he needs to win over. No other feelings for them but anger. His world has become confined to me and his sisters. Along with everything else he has lost himself too and he has been this way for the last ten years." he stated.

"What happened ten years ago uncle?" I asked unable to hold my curiosity back.

"Ishu it isn't my place to tell you all those things but I will when the time comes. I just wanted to tell you that please don't hate Sharan if he is rude to you. He has his reasons but even then he shouldn't be rude to you but if he is then please don't hate him" Wait where did this come from? I might dislike Sharan, even that I am not sure about anymore but hate never.

"Of course not uncle. In a way I respect Sharan. It is not easy to stay angry for so long. To stay without peace. If there is any way I could help you uncle?" I asked him. He has helped me after my parents death and after I last spoke to Sharan...If there is anything that I can do then I most definitely will.

"There is something that you can do but I'm not sure if I should ask you of it?" he said confusing me. Now what could that be?

I stayed silent knowing that he would tell it and he did.

"WILL YOU MARRY HIM?" What???? Did he just ask me that. Woah, he did. To say that I'm shocked is an understatement. That was totally unexpected and it took me a whole minute to process it and uncle stood there fidgeting in his place.

"Ishu I know that you would have never wished for a person like him to be your husband. Somebody who is so angry and rude but you saw for yourself what he can be like when he is not angry. You can do it. You are the only person whom I know who can reduce his anger." he requested again.

"Uncle you've mistaken us. My specialization is in making Sharan angry, more angry and extremely angry. You have seen how he has only been shouting at me. he doesn't even want me to stay in this place. The crying incident was a fluke and if I ever let his sisters burn their fingers he will most probably chop my fingers off and throw me out of this place." I tried to be funny but realized that I was thinking that it was completely possible. What I had told was an almost truth. Everything except the fingers part. He might just break them instead of chop them off completely.

"Ishu you know that that's not true. He can be rude to me too but that doesn't mean he doesn't love me. You made him cry something that none of us could do in the last ten years. It means that he can share his sorrows with you. May be you can make him smile too." Yeah. Let me take another ten years to do that, I thought but didn't say anything.

"May be you can teach him how to throw his anger aside and feel other emotions. Till today I had no hope that he will ever learn to live again but after today I have hope and that's you" he continued.

I never expected this. I do know that when he is not angry Sharan can be a pretty decent person. Sorry nice person but how do you teach someone who is forever angry to throw his anger away?

"But uncle..." before I can complete my sentence he knelt down in front of me and started crying. God. This is too much. I can't handle this. I immediately pulled him up into a standing position.

"Uncle what are you doing? Don't do this. Didn't you tell me that we are family. Does someone ever beg in front of their family?" I tried to be logical. I can't think of anything else to say.

"Ishu I'll do anything for my son. What happens to him when I die and his sisters get married? He will no longer have anyone to care for and then his anger will destroy him. He needs a purpose in life. He needs to have a life of his own. Even his career is in favor of us. I know that I am being selfish but I treat you like my daughter. Will I let something bad to happen to you? 

I know my son. When he starts loving someone he loves them with complete devotion. When he realizes that it is not you he should be angry at then he will take care of you very well. He will love you like no one else. I won't let anything bad happen to you. Please marry my son." I knew that uncle is desperate now and is trying his level best to convince me.

"Ishu. I promise that you will be happy. Please say yes."

Does he really think that Sharan will love me one day? 

Will Sharan really love me one day?

I know about his anger and also how he is when he is not angry. Maybe this isn't such a bad thing. 

"Uncle, I'll do it but why would he agree to this marriage? I don't think.." he didn't let me say anything else.

"Let me take care of that. I'll convince him but I want to know if it's a yes from you." He asked with so much hope.

I thought for a while before answering. I remember my mother telling me about her brother. About uncle. How he loved her so much and how she still broke his heart.

"Please apologize to him on my behalf if you ever see him. Pls do anything for him that makes him happy. Because I had only hurted my brother who always loved me like a daughter" she had once told me.

She had trusted her brother so much maybe I should too and Sharan...

"Uncle it's a yes from me but that's only if Sharan agrees to it of his own free will. Please don't force him to do anything." I didn't need to elevate his anger or fuel his hate for me if I intended to ever find peace and love in this marriage. Understanding at the very least.

"Thank you Ishu. I swear on my daughters that he'll make you happy one day. He may shout at you but that doesn't mean that he does not love you. It's his way of expressing love. You'll not regret this decision. He will start loving you soon and even you know how Sharan treats his loved ones. Thank you for believing me dear."

"I hope so too" I said.

"Thank you dear. Good night." He greeted me.

I greeted him back too but I didn't sleep that night.

Did I make the right choice or is it the completely wrong one? How could I agree to marry him? I remembered uncle's words...the peron who always shout at me for no reasons, the person who wants to get rid of me asap...will love me one day?? Am I hearing some serial's story? And most importantly will Sharan agrees for this marriage?

A new beginning or an end to everything?

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Final Editing Done On: 14/10/2018
Edited By: k21pt11