heroic - having the characteristics of a hero or heroine; very brave.

louis pov

then we go home

it is dark again

dad is drunk and alcohol stains the carpet

i hastily drag adrian into my room

he cries

i fill out papers

he cannot live like this

as he lays on his bed and silently cries

he asks "what are you doing, lou"

"a-adoption"

he cries more "please lou i do not want to leave you"

"you only know you love them when you let them go"

"no lou"
"adrian i will not let you do this"

"w-what"

"i cannot let you live like i do

i smoke and cut and have pain"

"i-i know"

"you i will not let you live like that as well you deserve a proper family"

"you are all i need"

"no adrian i am doing this" i yell at him

"l-lou you are scaring me"

i walk over to the bed

"im sorry bub"

"its ok"

"please let me do this

i am no hero but i need to save you"

"from"

"from the dark world"

"i do not want to leave you"

"i can visit"

"can you"

"yeah and you do not have to leave home until they find you a home"

"you still love me"

"of course"

"promise"

"pinky"

so he lets me

because i am the only one he trusts in the world

i play our song

lean on me

and he falls asleep

only to wake up the next morning

i love him

the next morning i wake early

dad is in bed

i scamper to his room

"dad, can you sign this"

"why"

"i need it to work" i lied

"you wake me for this" he scoffs

"please"

"fine"

he messily signs it.

i text haz and ask him to bring a nice suit to school

he asks why

i say i am going to the adoption center

i wake adrian and we do normal things

well our twisted definition of ordinary

i told haz to meet me by the tree he first bothered me at

"hi"

"hi"

"you are wearing a suit and holding one"

"astute observation"

i smiled "why styles"

"i am coming with you"

"no"

"why"

"i do not need help"

"you clearly do"

"how could i need you"

"to make sure you do it"

"why would i-"

"you are giving up the only person you trust and love"

"fine come"

"thankssss" he says smiling brightly

"you are annoying" i say rolling my eyes.

i change into my suit in the back of haz's car

as haz drives

after we quietly listen to music

this is best for adrian

this is best for adrian

this is best for adrian
"you ok" haz asks softly

"no i am not fucking okay"

"it-"

"sorry"

"nothing to be sorry for"

"i can not do this"

"yeah you can"

"why"

"it is best for him and lou just imagine him happy with a caring family"

i cry a bit

happy

not me

not sad

not filled with dark

we arrive and i feel sick
we approach the front desk

"hi sirs what can i do for you"

"my friend here inquired through a call about putting his brother up for adoption, unfortunately the father was not able to make it due to having to work-"

"did you schedule an appointment"

"no-"

"yes we did" i say finding my voice somehow.

"perfect your name"

"louis tomlinson"

"go into that room over there" she says pointing to a closed door labeled 7

i take a deep breath and we head over

haz rubs my shoulder

"thanks"

"for"

"thanks for coming"

"course"

we enter

a lady is sitting at a desk with two chairs on the other side.

"hello"

"hi" i say feebly

"what are you here for"

"file a child for adoption"

"you are merely children yourselves"

"i am his brother and this is my friend"

"sit"

"so i have a l-"

"why is the legal guardian not here"

"see we are quite poor and he cannot afford to miss work"

"can he not come on the weekend"

"he works weekends to"

"nice cover story"

"w-what this" haz begins

"please kids i have been doing this job for years i cannot count

your father works but spends most on drinks and not you and your brother

you made your dad sign the form without him knowing

he abuses you so he could never let your brother go and for some reason you cannot call 999

probably threats of some kind

so you are here with a friend to save your brother from the bad path he is on."

"y-yes" i say as the tears fall, "please file his paper"

"i will obviously just do not tell"

"will you not lose your job" haz asks

"i care far more about saving children's lives than my job"

with that adrian is one step away from a family

a real family

not my broke brotherhood

not my father's abuse

not my mother absence

haz goes back to school

where he has a life

where he has normal friends

and i

i got home

and i sleep

cause i do not sleep often

and now i can