When I say
"I have nothing to say with you"
That means I'm depressed
I'm lonely
It feels like a black hole
You don't know where to go
You can't see anything
Everything seems to reject you
I'm scared of everything around me.
Why?
Because I know I can't count on anyone
Even rely my back on
What makes me scared?
I'm afraid that I can't runaway from here.
Like a jail
I'm in a jail
I can't go any further
No one to confide, to share my opinions.
If I have one,
I will concern that
They'll tell my confide to others
What should I do now?
Should I go away from this world?
Hopeless, wretched, frightened
Is all what I feel
When I was here.
I want to give a big hug
to a person
I really believe in.
And told he/she that
I'm not strong enough
As I have shown to everyone.
I have my weak point!
Whenever I feel angry
I try to hold it as long as I can
But I know it's impossible
One day, the vase will fill up
With water
And when it can't hold much longer
It'll be broken in pieces.

Dear myself
I always want to live my own life
But now I can't
I want to make a big cry
So boring, everything around me.