~Kyungsoo~

A short knock on my door pulls me out of my studying bubble and i pull my eyebrows together. I've been expecting Jongin home from class but he hasn't bothered to knock on my door in a while. He discovered one day when he came back and barged into my room while i had my favorite vibrator shoved to the base inside of me, that i don't really shy away from being watched and in the long run, it benefits him since he made me cum four times that night using my toy.

"Yeah?" i ask in a confused tone just in case it's not my boyfriend.

Much to my surprise, it's Yixing who pokes his head into my room and looks at me in slight distress. "Soo, you might want to come downstairs."

"Why? What's up?" I question spinning around on my chair.

"Jongin." Is all he says in answer, but the tone he uses forces me out of my chair and down the stairs in record time.

I notice some of the guys standing near the entrance to the living room and immediately b-line towards them. They part for me and i stop in my tracks, when i find Jongin angrily pacing around the room and muttering nonsense under his breath, while tossing and kicking around anything in his way. The look on his face is deeply distressed and judging by the way his body is ridged like stone and his hands keep contracting to and from fists, he's not in a good state of mind. 

"What's going on?" I ask Sehun, who sighs and looks at me with heavy concern in his eyes.

"Jongin is kind of going off the rails. SuJu is closed for the week and Jongin has been studying and taking his finals, but i think the stress is getting to him. He just got back from one of his finals and i don't think he did too well." Sehun explains.

I blink at the scene in front of me and cock my head to the side. "Why is he raging though?"

Sehun snorts. "Oh, right, you've never been affronted by one of Jongin's temper tantrums before." I shake my head, not having even heard of this being a thing before. Sehun sighs and begins to explain. "Jongin usually uses dance and work to kind of blow off his steam. He drops into Kai for a few hours, dances off his bad vibes, then goes on. But Siwon closed SuJu and the dance rooms are booked all week for the dance majors. His little stress filled brain can only handle so much. Jongin was kind of like this freshmen year before i introduced him to Baek and then he got the job on the weekends. After that he seemed to chill out a lot, but when every one of your outlets is gone, it's hard to deal. Especially since he's been trying a lot harder lately to get good grades."

"Why is he trying harder?" I ask watching my angry little tea pot muttering under his breath, while crouching on the ground and grabbing at his hair.

Sehun looks down at me with a really look that i don't really understand until i take a second to think of why Jongin would suddenly put more effort into school and it clicks. My stomach sinks and my chest aches at this revelation. Jongin's been pushing himself so hard because of me. Guilt ceases me and i really wish i could kick my own ass because through this week I've been so focused on my own tests and assignments, that i completely neglected Jongin's mental health and never once checked in with him. I'm an idiot.

I may be gifted at studying and academically inclined, but i never felt that Jongin needed to be as well. I want Jongin to be Jongin. He doesn't need to change for me. Once Jongin calms down we should have a talk about this. But right now he's not in that place, He's in another place entirely. New territory that I'm not familiar with, so i have to be careful about how to approach this.

A book flies across the room and i take a deep breath wondering just how exactly we calm him down. It's not like we can rapidly build a dance studio in the living room and i doubt with Jongin raging away, he'd be in the dancing mood anyways.

I'm surprised i never realized that Jongin uses SUJU and Kai to destress. It makes a lot of sense that he uses Kai to play the front for him while he flips his off switch and just exists in the background. Like he's disappearing for a while to let someone else take over so he can recharge and deal with the things causing him distress. It's almost like...

Holy Shit. Kai isn't just a form of protection for Jongin, but he's also Jongin's sort of sub-space. He goes into Kai as a coping mechanism when he just can't function or comprehend any longer. Kai gives him a break from his anxiety and worries. It's totally like a sub-space and I'm shocked i never made this connection before. It validates even further that Kai and Jongin are linked. A packaged deal and Kai is not a persona you simply get rid of.

Everyone flinches when the coffee table is effectively kicked over and lands face up with a loud thud. I sigh. This is getting to be a bit too much. Jongin needs Kai, but Kai needs to learn better ways of handling himself. It makes sense as to why he's like this, even if a bit dramatic. Kai was created when Jongin was a child. His safe space to fall into when he needs to disappear. Jongin and Kai are more alike than people realize, and Kai is just a scared, lost little kid too. He was formed when Jongin was young and that's why Kai still kind of acts like a child. It's like Kai is an extreme bratty version of a little.

This revelation hits me like a ton of bricks.

Kai isn't uncontrollable, he just needs discipline and direction. That's why he obeyed me that day at the club. He wants someone to control him. To show him structure and punishment when he acts out. Jongin needs someone to care and be responsible for him while he sinks into that headspace so Jongin can work out the dark parts of his head. Otherwise, he wreaks havoc everywhere he goes. So many things make sense now and this, i can handle easily.

"Kai." I call, fully stepping into the room. "Get your ass over here, or i swear to the gods."

Jongin pauses, his back turned towards me, while his breath seems to harshen. He reaches out, places a hand on a bookshelf, and i watch his demeanor change. Even down to the way he stands changes and it's fascinating. He pushes off of the shelf and turns towards me.

Kai stares deep into my eyes and i know Jongin is tucked away deep in his safe place where he can rest and process while this demon demands my action.

"What will you do, Soo? Will you punish me?" Kai jokes, but we both know he's not antagonizing, he's asking.

I step forward and i see a slight tense in his stance. "I won't tell you again, Kai. Come here."

Kai blinks at me a second and i wait for what his response will be, but he finally rolls his eyes and moves to stand before me. I'll let his bratty antics slide for now. Kai has gone without a caretaker for a long time, he will need discipline, but that takes time and I'm a patient man.

"Enlighten me, Soo. What could you possibly want now? The last time we spoke it wasn't exactly on good terms." Kai explains.

I chuckle and reach up to pet my hand down the side of his neck. His eyes flutter as he struggles to keep control. "What do i want? I want you, Kai."

Kai's eyes sharpen and his eyebrows bunch. "Me? I thought i was the obstacle to eliminate to get to him."

I smile softly at him and let my fingers slide into his hair. "I had to make you understand who your owner was, but i don't want to get rid of you. I love you. Both of you."

Kai stares at me with a level of disbelief and awe. I don't think anyone has ever tried loving both of them before. Either they love Kai for the careless, sensual side to use and exploit him or they love Jongin for the smooth, unobtainable side. Usually they see Kai as a part of Jongin they can heal him of and not a part of Jongin that is permanent and real. Maybe that's one of the reason's Kai is so harsh and angry all the time. No one has ever treated this side of Jongin with the love and tenderness he so desperately craves.

It's like neglecting a little just because they turn on a different persona to help them cope with life. It's wrong and the whole idea just doesn't sit right in my belly. This kid needs someone and i feel ashamed for not having seen that for so long.

"You... You want to love me too?" Kai asks, clearly taken off guard.

I smile fondly and chuckle softly at the boy. "I already do, baby. Now, how about we go make some snacks and then we can watch a movie together."

Kai's face morphs and the softness that enters his eyes tells me that this isn't Jongin either, it's a new side. A soft, delicate side. This persona has been living in the deepest darkest parts of him for a long time. Jongin's little.

"That... That sounds nice." Kai... no... soft Kai... Jongginni...still no... Nini? Says.

"Come on, Nini. My babyboy." i coo softly.

Nini's expression turns to mush and he reaches for me. I gladly pull the boy into my arms and lead him to the kitchen. Yixing meets my eyes and rushes up the stairs in an instant. He already knows what is going on.

The little bean and i make some snacks, which basically means Jongin sits on the counter, cutely swinging his legs back and forth, while i make the food. Occasionally I'd get attacked with hugs and adorable whines for attention, but i have zero complaints because Jongin's little side is too cute for words. I love him dearly as i do, Kai and Jongin. All of his personas are unique and completely him. It makes sense that he has two versions of himself that helped him cope with life.

Once we are finished we make our way back into the living room, i stop and gasp in surprise as i find a giant blanket fort engulfing most of the living room. When i squat down to look inside, Baekhyun, Sehun, Chanyeol, and Yixing are all huddled inside. They've managed to gather what appears to be copious amounts of blankets, pillows, and stuffed animals from the whole house and filled the space to look like the coziest and softest den. Any child would be in heaven and by the happy squeal and giggles i hear behind me, it's obvious Nini approves.

The guys also managed to fit the tv inside the fort and have set up some Disney movie I'm sure they've all seen a million times. Clearly, Jongin isn't the only one in need of a mental break.

Nini crawls inside and then i follow propping myself up against a mound of pillows and then find myself with a lap full of Jongin, as he leans his back against my front and squishes down a little to make himself smol.

We get comfortable and the movie starts. I glance over to find Yixing with Baek and Sehun leaned against his side, while Yeol lays his head on Baek's lap with his legs sticking out of the forts entrance. Even if the structure is huge, it's still not Chanyeol huge.

Yixing catches my eyes and smiles at me. I mouth a thank you to him and he shakes his head and smiles fondly down at Nini pressed against me. He gets it. He always does.

I'm thankful for Yixing and the things he's been here with us through. We'd probably be a bunch of nutcases without him. Also, moving forward with Jongin and this new discovery, I'm so thankful and proud to have these amazing people by my side. Without a second of hesitation or an ounce of judgment, they grouped together to show support and give love to one of their own. I couldn't have picked a better group of men to call my family.

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Noiseless chatter fills the space around us, but we're both silent as the fallout settles from the bomb i just dropped. Honestly, i could have done it better, but seeing as this news would have been difficult to hear even if i did manage to reveal it a little easier, it really wouldn't have changed Jongin's reaction.

"So... so you're leaving?" Jongin says suddenly looking seconds from throwing up.

I nod and take a deep breath. "It's a big step for Minseok and me. We have to take this opportunity."

Jongin puts down his fork and sits back in his chair. Not a good sign, Jongin never refuses to eat, especially at his favorite restaurant that i had hoped would help with the news.

"When?" he asks in a somber tone and my heart feels slightly heavy.

Reaching for my water, i down a heavy gulp. "After Christmas."

Jongin's face crumples and he still refuses to look up at me. "That's only a few months."

I take a deep breath and nod. "It's moving fast. The property needs a lot of management and direction. Minseok wants someone to be completely hands on, but he can't go because Jongdae's job is here."

Jongin mumbles something under his breath and i can't even catch it and i have almost become fluent in Jongin mumbles. "Baby, speak up, please."

My precious boy lifts his head and i finally see the tears heavy in his eyes he was trying to hide and my heart breaks. "But YOU can go with ME here?" he asks and i swear my heart stops.

"What?" i ask for a loss of words.

"You're going to just leave me here and fuck off hours away without even considering staying for me? Minseok is staying for Jongdae's job and you can't stay here for me? Am i that unimportant? I know your job is a priority for you, but was i considered even once?"

I'm out of my seat and crouching next to Jongin in a second while he thankfully leans into me and releases a few sobs into my chest. I smooth my hand down his back, while he grasps tightly onto my jacket, hiccupping cutely into a sob.

"Baby, that's not what i meant."

Jongin takes a few minutes to hear my words then mumbles out a quiet, "What?"

I smile softly down at him and pull his chin up so he'll look up at me. "Jongin, i don't want to leave you behind. I want you to come with me. I want you to move in with me and live with me there."

The other stares up at me as a tear slides down the side of his face. "Then why were you acting apologetic and sad about it? It made me feel like you were leaving me."

I sigh, and push some hair off of his face. "Because you have another semester before you graduate, Jongin. You need to finish school before you can come with me. Then you'd be leaving behind your family and friends to be with me there. That's a big step and a lot of commitment. I didn't know if you'd want that." This next six months would be hard on both of us, but it won't be forever and then he can come join me and we can finally start our adult lives together. If he wants to at least.

"But... that's a long time that we'll be apart and it's my final semester. You'll be busy and I'll be busy. How is that supposed to work." Jongin asks with his signature pout. "Is this your way of getting rid of me? Are you trying to leave and put distance between us so we gradually grow apart so you don't have to feel bad about dumping me for cute guy you meet there?"

I blink down at my imaginative lover and shake my head. "Jongin, don't even think like that. You know I'm crazy about you."

"Then why can't you wait? Or i can just quit school... or..."

"Jongin, no. You're not quitting school. I want you and only you with me. The café can't wait, like I said, things are moving fast and they need me down there. But it won't be forever. We'll be together again before you know it. I'll come visit and you can come visit me until you graduate." i say trying to calm the other.

"You really want me there? A lot can happen in six months." Jongin says still with a pout but seeming to come a bit more back to reality.

"Jongin," I say with a smile and lean forward to press a kiss to his forehead. "Will you come with me?" I ask feeling a swirl of anxiety in my chest. I wait for what feels like a lifetime for a response but nothing fills the noiseless space around us.

My head starts to panic. What if he says no? What if he doesn't want that level of commitment? I know that he just threw a fit over me leaving, but now that it's sitting here in front of him, will he really choose to go with me? It's been a while since I've felt a waver in confidence about my relationship with Jongin. Over these past couple of years, we've been happy and secure in how much we love one another, but this is different. This is planning. This is the step to forming a future with me. This is saying, i want to move on with my life and i want you to be in it. But what if Jongin doesn't want the same? Yes, he's given me commitment and he's showed me that he's in this relationship for the long term, but we never considered after we both graduated. We never planned for "after".

"I -i want you there, Jongin. I wan- need you with me." I say further explaining my desires, playing with the collar of his sweater. Silence greets me once again.

I finally allow myself to glance over at Jongin's expression and what i find there unravels every thread of anxiety that weaved itself in my stomach. Jongin's eyes are glassy and he looks genuinely happy. Like i just fulfilled one of his dreams. I never expected to see so much love and hope in his eyes since i dared to think up this idea a few days ago.

"Will you stay by my side, Jongin?" I ask, meeting his gaze this time with far more confidence.

My beautiful boyfriend's expression morphs into pure joy and he laughs airily. "Kyungsoo, I'd follow you anywhere. Where you go, i go."

I grab the boy by his arms and pull him up from his seat, crushing him to me in a deep hug, Jongin breathes out a relived breath and hugs me back. Clearly i wasn't the only one who was anxious about being left behind. But luckily, it's obvious now that neither of us ever has the intention of letting the other walk alone.

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~Jongin~

The bag in my hand feels heavy as i walk towards the terminal, the sound of shoes padding against the ground behind me sounds oddly mournful. I hear a sniffle and stop in my tracks. I shouldn't have agreed to this. I shouldn't have let him of all people take me to the train station.

I set my bag up and turn around. Sehun's head hangs  way too low for a man with usually impeccable posture. Another sniffle sounds from the other and my lips threatens me with tears of my own by a mere lip wobble.

Sehun's been with me these last six months through everything. From day one when Kyungsoo actually left and i stayed in my room the whole weekend crying in-between skyping Soo, he's been right here. Sehun brought me ice-cream, watched movies with me, and even kept Tao and Yixing, our overbearing mothers, at bay. Sehun was also right beside me on the days he got me out of the house to go to class, the days he took me shopping, and the days he pushed my ass to the dance studio to let some feelings out. My best friend pulled me out of my sadness and made me realize that everything would be fine. On the good days we would go do things and have fun like we used to when we were freshmen, and on the bad days, Sehun was with me to hold me together and get me to lighten the fuck up. He even drove me down to see Kyungsoo one time when i had a breakdown and was certain Kyungsoo was cheating on me with his new assistant. It was a woman and she was very gay.

I was stupid, but Sehun never called me that. He never made me feel foolish for being sappy or missing someone to the point i missed Kyungsoo. He understood. Honestly, he was probably happy to see me care this much about someone. For so long he's watched me struggle in love and be hurt over and over, even if i thought i hid it well. Sehun probably feels the same relief i feel when i see him with Luhan. I'm happy his heart found someone. I'm glad he's accepted for who he is. Above all, I'm happy he's happy.

I still remember the day of our graduation, when Kyungsoo showed up to surprise me and the guys had a small party at the house to celebrate...

My gaze wonders around the party watching our families and friends chatting joyously and laughing in a way that felt so completing. I close my eyes to revel in the sound.

A nudge against my shoulder pulls me out of my little bubble and i open my eyes to find Sehun standing next to me. He watches the crowed just as i do, like the wallflowers we are.

"Having fun?" i ask glancing over at him in time to see him sip from his drink.

Sehun smirks and chuckles clearly feeling the same awkwardness in crowds as i do. "A real blast."

We stand there for a few more seconds till i find my eyes locked on Kyungsoo talking with my parents. My mom laughs and looks just as captivated by Kyungsoo speaking as i feel. My dad isn't much different as i watch a few rare chuckles leave his own lips. Soo really does have that affect on people, so i get it. I'm just relieved they seem to like him. This isn't their first time meeting, but my mom has been a little overcritical of my past lovers. But I honestly think she'd choose him over me at this point.

Another nudge comes from my side and my eyes shift to my peripherals to look at my best friend in a silent question. He's smiling and just shakes his head. "Happy looks good on you."

I blink a couple seconds then follow his gaze over to Luhan who is chatting animatedly with his own parents who have basically adopted Sehun and even flew in for his graduation. I could have sworn i saw a few tears earlier when Luhan's mom hugged Sehun and told him she was proud of him.

"Yeah, you too."

"So, i guess we got what we wanted." Sehun comments offhandedly.

I break away from Luhan and focus back on Sehun. "What do you mean?"

Sehun chuckles and shifts a little bit, then casually shoves a hand inside his tailor fit dress pants pocket. "Remember rush week when we got locked in the bathroom together during EXO's rush party?"

I snort. "That was the night we became friends, how could i forget?"

Sehun nods. "That night we talked about what brought us to college and what we wanted out of our lives. We had one of the deepest conversations I've ever had in my life and i even told you about my parents and my struggles with mental health. You told me about your broken heart and how it's never healed, how you keep people out because it's easier than watching them leave. That's when you told me you wanted someone who wouldn't ever walk away from you and i told you i wanted someone who loved me for who i really am. We both came here to get away from what was holding us back from being happy and find ourselves as well as love."

My best friend smiles one of his dorky smiles that I've always adored and wraps an arm around my shoulders. "We did it, Jongin. We got what we wanted."

I smile softly and lean my head onto his shoulder. "Yeah, we did, buddy. I'm proud of you."

Sehun sighs and kisses the top of my head. "I'm proud of you too. Always have been."

....

I come back to the present with a heavy heart and my kicked puppy lookalike of a best friend standing in front of me.

"Oh Sehun, Baekhyun spent two hours on my makeup to help me look good for Kyungsoo when he picks me up at the train station. You are not allowed to make me cry, asshole." i say resisting the urge to stop my foot. 

Sehun mumbles a bit and i sigh "What?"

Sehun's head shoots up and i finally see how red and blotchy his face is. "I said, I'm going to miss you, dickhead."

My lips tremble even harder and i blink a few times. "I'll.." my voice breaks and i take a deep breathe. "I'll miss you too, cock breath."

Sehun's bites at his lip and looks up to try and blink some tears away, but one escapes and slides down, which apparently breaks a damn, because then he's cursing and wiping at his eyes with his sleeve.

My own fight with tears is lost the second his is and i reach forward grabbing at his arm and pull him towards me. He fits into my arms like a ragdoll and i pull him close against me.

Leaving Sehun behind is by far the hardest part of all of this. I'm ready for the next adventure in my life, but this was almost a deal breaker when i realized I'd have to go without my best friend. Sehun of course was the one who called me an idiot and even slapped the back of my head when i told him i was even thinking about staying.

I came to my senses and then realized I'd really have to live hours away from my best friend. Leaving a piece of my heart behind. "Promise, you'll come visit soon."

Sehun smiles and hugs me tighter. "As long as you promise to come up for Yixing's birthday party."

"Deal." i say into his shoulder. "Take care of Tao and Yixing for me. Keep Baek in line and tell him he better come see me after his summer classes are over."

"Of course. I'll keep everyone on their toes." Sehun says. "Make sure Kyungsoo takes care of you and if he ever hurts you tell me so i can break his fucking dick off."

I chuckle and nuzzle my head into his neck. "Same goes to Luhan."

We laugh for a second and then the atmosphere changes as my train is called over the loudspeaker to be arriving soon. My heart aches and i clutch on tightly to my brother.

"Jongin,"

"Yeah?"

"Be happy."

My breath catches in my throat and i place a small kiss on his neck. "You too, Sehun."

I pull away and give him one last smile through the blurriness of my eyes and the wetness covering my cheeks. Sehun practically mirrors me, as he holds my hand, his frown deepening with the threat of more tears, while i step away causing us to separate. I hold up a hand in goodbye and he does the same. I turn around and make my way to the tracks.

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5 years later

~Kyungsoo~

"Jongin, are you home?" I ask closing the door to our apartment and smiling when i hear the jingling of dog tags fluttering against a collar ring.

The tiny poodle rounds the corner and greets me happily, jumping up on my leg while wiggling it's whole body with happiness. She doesn't get much further than my ankle due to her still being relatively small. Jongin had brought her home a few month ago claiming one of the shelter dogs had puppies and they all needed a home since they were now big enough to be adopted out. The smile on his face alone made me cave before he even finished his explanation.

Our other dogs look up from the couch with barely a second glance and goes back to snoozing in their favorite sun spot. Our cats also seem dead to the world as they lounge on their cat tower that takes up way too much of our living room. Honestly, my husband might be an animal addict.

"Where's your daddy, hmm?" I ask, scratching her head and bending down to pick the puppy up.

She looks up at me with hearts in her eyes and i melt. Her putty expression is almost as cute as Jongin's... almost. I might be biased, but I'm gladly whipped for that boy.

"Jongin." I call out again trying to contact my lover.

"Kyungsoo?" I hear in response and feel my belly flip. Even after years together, he still sends my nerve endings into overdrive.

"Baby, I'm home." I announce, setting a box down on the table i had picked up from Jongin's favorite chicken place. I don't let him eat these things often, but i figured tonight was a special occasion.

Jongin suddenly appears to the door of our bedroom, looking slightly flustered and out of breath. He wears nothing more than a silk robe that barely covers his crotch and seems to be covered in a thin layer of sweat.

"You're home early." Jongin says attempting to look nonchalant but failing miserably at it.

I raise an eyebrow and cock my head at him. "Jongin, what were you doing?"

Jongin blinks at me and seems to be searching his head for any excuse possible, but i stop him before its out of his mouth. "I can deal with a lot of things, Jongin. I can forgive you for most anything, but don't lie to me."

My husband's cheeks darken with a dusty rose and he drops his eyes. "Listen, you know i love you, right? We've been together for years now, yeah?"

I side eye Jongin and nod my head. "Yes..."

"And you can strive to forgive me when it comes to it, because you love me, yeah?" Jongin says slowly.

My head starts to cycle and i start to think about all of the possibilities of what Jongin could have done. Of what could have happened. Each and every road leads back to how much i love my husband and that no matter what happened we can get through it together and i will always forgive him if he's truly sorry.

I soften a bit and reach out for him, pulling his hips to mine. "Whatever it is, i love you and that won't change."

Jongin seems to relax a little and goes to open his mouth, but before he can explain himself a small, sad sounding yip calls from the closed bathroom door. The very same door Jongin just came out of.

"I change my mind. I want a divorce." I say bluntly.

Jongin pouts at me and hits my shoulder with his fist. "Don't say things like that."

My demeaner crumbles within seconds of seeing my husbands adorable pout and i sigh. "We agreed to not get another puppy, Jongin."

My husband nods and drops his head a little, "i know, but he was brought into the office today and Kyungsoo, i couldn't leave him. He's so small and needs lots of care. I couldn't let him go to the shelter. I just couldn't."

The look on Jongin's face melts away any annoyance or anger, not that i was really upset to begin with. Jongin can have an army of dogs if he really wants them.

"Okay, show me the dog." Jongin squeals and bounces while holding my hand. "We're going to have to move. Our landlady said we couldn't have any more." I say as Jongin reaches for the bathroom door.

"Wait, what?" Jongin stops and turns to me.

I give Jongin a blank stare. "Did you miss that whole conversation where i told you we couldn't get anymore because the landlady stopped by and said it was starting to sound like a zoo being hoarded out the door every day when you took them on a walk?"

Jongin bites his lip and winces. "I kind of checked out because i got sad after you said no more pets."

I sigh and shake my head. "Good thing i just put a down-payment on a house."

My husband blanches and looks at me in shock. "Excuse me, what?"

"You're not the only one who can keep secrets." I tease knowing he won't be mad about this.

"Wait, Kyungsoo. What the fuck do you mean you put a down-payment on a house." Jongin says standing up a bit straighter.

I smile and cock my head to the side. "Remember that house you showed me a few weeks ago?"

Jongin narrows his eyes and looks off trying to recall. "The one with the views and the pool?" i nod and Jongin's jaw drops. "No. Shut up. Kyungsoo, you said that house was a bit far from work and that it's too much land for only two people."

I smirk. "Well, that's the other surprise. Someone bought that house and the lot with a smaller portion of land next to it. They sectioned off the land and evened it out between the two houses and made it a bit more easier for us to manage. Plus, i think you'll appreciate having them as our new neighbors."

"Who bought the land? Who is our neighbor?" Jongin asks with wide blinking eyes.

I chuckle and reach for Jongin's hands. "Sehun and Luhan. I've been in discussions and meetings with Sehun for the past couple of weeks as we checked the house and land. He bought it last week and then sectioned off the land evenly and then put ours up for sale. I put the down payment on it today, though i honestly feel he's asking way too little for reselling it."

"Is this real life?" Jongin asks and opens the bathroom door and walks in.

Our other dogs that I noticed were missing earlier when I came home, are all chilling inside on the floor, except for a small ball of fluff that's barely peeking it's head over the side of the bathtub, which must be our new addition. Jongin swoops over and picks up the puppy out of the tub, that I note is covered in dirt and sand, which explains why my husband is practically naked. I smile and shake my head. I've told him a million times to stop letting the dogs run along the beach because they come home filthy.

Jongin sits on the edge of the bathtub. "So, wait. Sehun and Luhan are not only moving back to Korea, they are moving in right next door to us?"

"Actually, they'll be moving in with us for a while till they get their house built, so you two will be under the same roof together again." I say watching my husbands eyes sparkle in excitement and disbelief.

"Are you serious?" Jongin says petting the new addition, which i take a second to coo at and scratch the top of its head.

"Dead serious. I wanted to surprise you. I know you said you don't care about where we live and that you trust me to find us a place, but i can tell you want more room to run. You want more space and we can maybe get a few other animals not just dogs and cats. Plus, it's close to your job which will be better for you. I'll be fine with the commute as long as i know my husband is happy." I explain.

Faster than I'm prepared for, i get an arm full of Jongin as he clings to me. The puppy is squished between us and whines forcing Jongin to back up with a chuckle. I notice the slight collection of tears brimming at the edge of his eyelines and i place my finger under his chin.

"Baby, are you crying?"

Jongin sniffles and sets the puppy down before invading my space once again and wrapping his arms around my neck. I pull him in close and hold him tightly. "I just have the sweetest and most amazing husband. A gift is flowers or chocolate, hell, even jewelry. Not a house. How could you buy me a house as a surprise? My dream house of all things."

I shrug and pull back to look deep into his eyes. "I just want to make you the happiest man in the world."

"You already made me the happiest man in the world on the day you married me. You made me whole Kyungsoo. Not just by loving me, but by teaching me to love myself and by giving me a safe space to come to. You made me realize that my demons aren't actually demons but parts of myself that were never dared to be loved till you loved them. You proved to me that i wasn't broken, but a work of art waiting to be finished. I love you more than i could ever fully articulate and you've already given me more than i could have ever dream of, just by allowing me to be your husband." Jongin says tears falling down his cheeks.

I follow him with sniffles and let the sweet, beautiful words from Jongin's vows he made to me on the day of our wedding, fill my chest with happiness.

"I love you, Jongin. I love you as effortlessly as breathing. You made me feel calm and at peace with myself from the day i met you. Hearing your voice was like listening to my favorite song. Your hugs are like coming home and your kiss is like the best Chocolate I have ever tasted. You are my person and every day i am with you, feeds my soul the completeness it's always craved. With you, i strive to be the best version of myself and to never be selfish or unkind. I promise to always carry you as my most precious possession and always love you, all of you, the way you deserve."

Jongin sighs after i finish relaying my own vows, then lays his head on my shoulder contently. I smile and hold him close. stoking my hand down his back. All too soon the demeaner in his stance changes slightly and his hands start to wonder around my backside.

I roll my eyes and warn the other with a call of his name. "Kai."

He chuckles and leans his head up so his words furl deliciously into my ear. "Come on. Come play with me."

He slips out of my grasp with that signature smirk on his lips, while i watch the robe slip from his shoulders and saunters towards the bed in the most devious act of seduction. A curse falls from my lips and i look down to see the puppy passed out in a pile amongst our other dogs already accepted as one of them.

I shake my head and begin pulling my tie loose while moving quickly towards where i know I'll find my husband slayed naked and ready for me. Gods, he's lucky i love all of him.

I stop when i find the gorgeous golden demon perched upon our bed waiting patiently for me to wreck him and reclaim what is mine.

On second thought, maybe I'm the lucky one. 

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Chickens!

My babies. I know, it's been a long wait. Lots of life stuff happened and lots of mental health stuff happened. I'm not going to get into it or make a big deal of it, but I'm here and that's the best I've been doing in a while, so I'm taking this as a win.

There it is. The final and wrap up to the KaiSoo couple. I hope you guys liked it and i did their ending justice. Sorry if i got a little sappy on the SehunxJongin moment. I know it sucks, but sometimes things end. Sometimes you come to a point where you have to let go and wish the other well. But they came back together in the end, so everything panned out. haha

I don't have much else to say. These wrap up chapters kind of speak for themselves.

The ever awaited SuLay is up next. Be patient with Author-nim.

Your love and support has been very much appreciated.

See you guys soon,

~M~