I had been really busy for the past few months. More like 8 months.

Well, nothing major happened in my life besides one thing- Jia delivered a baby boy and I can't be happier. She made me the happiest man alive.

I had been receiving the mail from Jia's doctor all these months and I also called her every once in a while to know how my wife and our baby were. And I was glad to know that there were no issues with either of them.

I wanted to go and visit her, but my world tour, concerts, and new idols in our agency made me busy. Jin hyung was very cruel. Also, Jimin, Jungkook, and Suga hyung have joined our agency; and Jin hyung had given me their responsibility since I was the first to join.

I couldn't be happier because my favorite idol, Suga has joined my agency. And I would get to work with him. Like FINALLY!

Am I ranting too much? Well, I can't help it. I've missed writing the diary for the longest time.

Anyways, I asked my mom to send me a picture of my baby bear, and he is the cutest. If I could take him from the phone screen, I would never let him go. But I can't help it.

I have a few interviews to attend and my schedule is full for almost a month. I feel pathetic to not visit them, but I'm doing all this for them. I'm planning to keep them with me forever now.

I do want to call Jia comfortably and talk to her for hours like normal couples do. But we hardly spent time after we were married and at times things get awkward. I think our bond will only grow stronger if I visit her or stay with her. But I can't do anything.

I hate my idol life now. I want to smell my baby bear, hold his tiny hands, kiss his small feet, make funny faces to see him smile, blow raspberry on his stomach and kiss his chubby cheeks. But I can't do that. My life hates me!

Anyways, I'll call my mother now. My baby bear must have woken up. Bye!