42. You are a coward
Once Yoongi got busy with his work, Shin-ah and Jia excused themselves. The assistant had a couple of questions. She had the impression that she knew Jia, but she couldn't seem to realize how.
Jia and Shin-ah went to the dance studio where the members practiced. Currently, it was empty, so they decided to hang out there and get to know each other.
Not just Shin-ah, Jia was curious too. She never came across any girls who were head over heels for her brother.
In the past, whenever Jia suggested her brother to start dating, he would slide the topic. He loved his work more than girls. Jia was so desperate to see her brother date, that there was a time when she almost tried to set her best friend Yoona with her brother. But she knew it wasn't a great idea.
Yoona was a sorted and dominating girl. She had a few principles that would never match with Yoongi's. Both were somewhat cold and career-oriented. Being a best friend, Jia wished the best for Yoona too. She always believed that Yoona deserved a guy who was like a breath of fresh air, who would make her feel alive.
Now that she talked to Yoona the previous night after her date, she was sure that the guy she went on a date with would prove to be a good match. She asked too much about his character and qualities that the silly girl forgot to ask his name.
Little would they all know how small the world will prove to be!
Jia and Shin-ah continued to stare at each other. Too many questions were appearing in their mind which confused them about which one should they start.
Shin-ah directly wanted to ask about Jia. But she knew it wasn't the right time. So she thought to talk about her idol first. "Um... Has Yoongi dated anyone before?" She looked down, fiddling her fingers. She was nervous about how Jia would react to her question.
Jia, on the other hand, cooed at the girl's cuteness. She surely likes Oppa way too much than the two of them realize.
"He never dated anyone before. He has always loved his work more than anything. Moreover, my failed past relationship made him not want to date anyone. But don't take him as a saint. He did have flings before especially when he was in the States. Again, after my divorce, he stopped with those one-night stands, because he somewhere hated himself for being the same as my ex-husband was." Jia revealed straightaway. She wanted to check how the girl would react to the sudden "too much information" about her brother. If she loved him truly, his past wouldn't matter to her, right?
Shin-ah sighed and that wasn't what Jia expected. She expected her shocked expressions or at least regret in her eyes. "He shouldn't compare people. Not everyone can be the same." She commented and sighed again. Jia's lips turned upwards in a genuine smile.
"If you don't mind me asking, why did you divorce?" Shin-ah inquired cautiously.
"He never loved me. I was just his fling and nothing more. And he made me pregnant in the process." Jia let out a sigh remembering the days that were special to her but she hated those days at the same time. "Do you know, I was his fan too, just like you!?" Jia smiled when she noticed Shin-ah's shocked face.
"Omoo! Really? Who is the lucky man?" Shin-ah inquired excitedly.
"Taehyung." Jia chuckled as she answered which caught the girl off-guard.
No wonder why you looked familiar. I have seen you in the pictures Tae Oppa showed me. So you are the girl who left him. You are the girl who didn't let him explain and made him suffer. God! I came here for my love life, but it seems like I'll have to help my Oppa first.
Shin-ah chuckled too. She didn't want Jia to know how she was related to her ex-husband. "So do you think I'll be successful with your Oppa?"
Both the girls laughed at the word. A few minutes back the two of them were fighting because of that mere word which held multiple meanings. Now it only made them smile how they both meant different meanings at the same time.
"I'll cheer for you." Jia smiled and scooted closer to her. Shin-ah continued to register Jia's actions and expressions as she waited for her to do whatever the elder wanted.
Jia held Shin-ah's hands and questioned, "What is your age?"
"I'm 24," Shin-ah answered instantly as she continued to stare at Jia's beautiful orbs that held softness. She felt as if she was under her spell.
"Did you inform your parents why you came here?"
"No! They gave me a year to do what I wanted before I take up our family business. But they know my love for Yoongi." She continued to answer.
"Would you regret dating a man who is 9 years older than you in the future?" Jia asked.
"No! I love him even if I don't know anything about him like a partner should know. But I'm sure I'll learn about him and won't change him. Instead, I'll give him some time to get used to the emotions that I might want him to feel." Shin-ah's answer made Jia smile. She might be 2 years older than Jia when she first met Taehyung. But she wasn't this mature. She didn't show patience or love when she had one year with Taehyung.
Jia continued to blame Taehyung all the time. But the girl sitting in front of her, who loved her brother made her realize how wrong Jia was too.
"Just get to know each other but promise me one thing." Jia's words were serious this time, making Shin-ah gulp.
"I'll make him happy," Shin-ah answered as if she knew what Jia was about to ask.
Jia chuckled at the response. "I know that, silly! But that's not what I wanted to say. Promise me that you'll keep yourself safe physically. Devote him everything only when you are ready and not when he wants. I know you won't regret it, but you are a girl and I don't want you to suffer or regret it in the future. He is a man and he can move on from everything including the questions from society. But being a girl, you won't be able to."
Shin-ah could see the hurt and vulnerability in Jia's eyes.
Jia pulled her hands and decided to share her story so that the girl doesn't do the same, even if the other person was her brother.
"I did love him and I still do. I won't deny the fact. I also know that he wasn't the only one who was wrong. I was too naïve at that time. But how would I know? It was my first time in love with him. I didn't know how to be a patient or an understanding partner because my focus was on our child who was growing in my stomach at that time."
As if Jia was under a spell, her hand directly went to her flat tummy as if she was still carrying Ji-hu. She caressed her tummy and continued speaking.
"No one blamed him when he left me alone with his parents. No one blamed him when he was busy working while I was taking care of myself with his child. No one blamed him when he was equally responsible for the pregnancy. No one blamed him when I wanted to feel him or wish his presence because of my mood swings. I was left alone all by myself because of the one mistake I wished to do. He didn't force himself on me, but still, it cost me more than him."
Jia didn't realize how tears were flowing down her cheeks. Shin-ah felt bad after hearing her. She never imagined how much she must have faced when she heard Taehyung crying or complaining about how Jia left him. She hugged Jia and let her tears flow while rubbing soothing circles on her back.
"My mom even refused to take me back when I left him. She could have accepted me for Ji-hu at least, if not for me." She ended up crying.
"Did you talk to him about all this? Did you share your feelings?" Shin-ah asked as she continued to hug the crying girl.
"I can't. I'm afraid that I'll believe him. I'm afraid that I'll fall in love with him again, because..."
"You never stopped loving him." Shin-ah finished Jia's sentence. The elder nodded, earning a smile from the girl.
I'll do everything that is in my power to make you both one. At least Yoongi will be happy that way.
Shin-ah smiled at her thoughts as she waited for Jia to stop weeping. Once she was just sniffing, she broke the hug and looked at Shin-ah, who had a worried expression.
"Don't worry, I'm fine. I think I should go. Jungkook must be waiting for me. We need to go for a date." Jia informed, wiping tears from her cheeks.
"Don't you think you should give this time to Taehyung to make things work instead of moving on?" Shin-ah asked a bit rudely as she couldn't control her anger. One second Jia confessed how she didn't try to make things right and that she still loves him. And the next moment she wanted to go on a date with another male who was her ex-husband's friend.
Shin-ah laughed bitterly, staring at the girl with hooded eyes, making her look similar to her elder real brother. "I hope you regret what you continue doing with him. You know what; you are a coward who is still living in the past. Have you ever tried to understand him? Have you tried to at least share your feelings? You have no right to advise me on what I should do with Yoongi when you yourself are messing up with your relationship. You are complicating your life more than you could think of."
Shin-ah stood up and walked out of the studio, not sparing at the girl anymore. Jia was baffled by what she heard. Shin-ah wasn't wrong. Yes, she was a coward who was afraid to explain herself or to listen to Taehyung. She never tried even. She felt hurt, not because of Shin-ah's words, but because of her own actions.
If she was the one to claim that she had always loved Taehyung, she should have been more understanding towards her idol. It seemed as though it was Taehyung who always loved her. Because he was still single, waiting for Jia while the other had almost made up her mind to move on with Jungkook.
With all her thoughts, she walked out and went to her café before leaving a message to Jungkook.
Hello, Jungkook!
I'm extremely sorry. I got caught up in the work. We can go on a date some other day. See ya later!
Bye! Once again sorry!
No, she didn't end up in the café because it was Sunday. She always took a break on her weekends to spend some time with her son. Instead, she went back to her home.
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Too serious chapter. Let us see what Shin-ah does.
Also, what do you think would Jia do now?
I feel sad for Jungkookie tho :(
Guys! After this chapter, we've exceeded 50,000 words. Yayyyyyy!
Such a cute baby 😭🤍
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