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At the hotel, Lin went to get food, Stevie and Lauren took Mason and Lesley to play with toys in the playroom, and Pippa laid on the bed with Enzo. She rubbed the birth control implant in her arm and sighed. "Enzo you almost gave mommy a heart attack when you came out. You know that?" Pippa asked the sleeping baby.

Flashback

Pippa squatted in the tub as she pushed her son out. Because she was in water, the Ring of Fire wasn't as intense, but she could clearly tell that Enzo's shoulders were coming out. After he fully passed through the birth canal, the nurse laid Enzo on Pippa's chest, as they delivered the placenta. It had been a solid twenty seconds and Enzo hadn't cried yet. "Come on Enzo," Pippa whispered, as she wiped a tear with her free hand. She looked down at her child, who had blue spots all over his body.

45 seconds.

Pippa kissed his head and bounced Enzo on her chest. "Come on baby. Pull through for mommy," she pleaded. Lin watched as his wife's world shattered. He felt helpless because all he could do was watch. Right as the nurse was about to call time of death, Enzo moved his head and let out a strong cry.

"There he is," Lin whispered. Pippa cried even harder. Her son was alive. The nurse quickly took Enzo, got Pippa dried off, and got her in bed while they measured and weight Enzo. "You did it, babe," Lin smiled. Pippa nodded and continued to wipe her tears. The nurse went to hand Enzo back to Pippa but she wouldn't take him. Pippa shook her head moved away from the nurse. Lin gave her a weird look and took Enzo from the nurse. "Give us a minute," Lin said. He placed Enzo in plastic bed and sat next to Pippa on her bed. "What is wrong with you?" He asked.

"I told you I didn't want a baby. This the fucking reason," she cried. "I can't handle this!" She continued. Lin placed his hand on hers but she moved it. "Don't touch me. This is your fault!" She blamed. Lin was beyond confused, as to what Pippa was talking about.

"My fault? What was my fault?" He asked. Pippa pointed to Enzo.

"Him. I was doing well. I hadn't had any moments of depression or fear and then that happens," She cried. "I hadn't felt scared in so long, and now it's back and stronger because he is early. I'm no longer scared. I'm paranoid! I don't want that again!" She cried. Lin pulled Pippa into a hug and held her tighter as she fought him.

"Listen to me! You are a wonderful mother. And Enzo is okay. Look at him. He is sleeping and he is getting his color back. Everything is a-okay," Lin said. He kissed Pippa's forehead and rested his head on hers. "Everything is okay," Lin whispered. Pippa nodded and kissed Lin once more before taking Enzo in her arms.

Real Time

"I am so sorry that I ever said I didn't want you, baby. Do you forgive mommy?" She asked as if he was actually going to respond. Enzo yawned in his sleep and slightly turned on his side. "I'll take that as a yes," she smiled. Phillipa closed her eyes and drifted off to sleep.

Dream

Phillipa woke up and walked out to see that she was back in her old apartment. She was confused with sight in front of her, and when she turned to get out of bed she was met face to face with Steven. He chuckled to himself and backhanded her. "We are gonna have fun," He smirked. Pippa tried to scream, but he had placed his hand over her mouth. He pushed her to the bed and got on top of her. She tried to fight back as best she could, but he was too strong.

"Please stop!" Pippa cried. Steven held her arms over her head with one hand and touched her with the other. "Oww! You're hurting me," Pippa moaned. Tears streamed down her face, as Steven took advantage of her. As the dreamed continued, Pippa started to have a panic attack.

Real Time

Pippa woke up in tears. She looked at the clock to see it had only been ten minutes. She quickly looked over to Enzo to see he was still soundly asleep. That dream that she just experienced was not, in fact, a dream but, a memory. It was one of Stevens desperate attempts to get Phillipa pregnant. Little did he know, she was already pregnant. That was the day that Phillipa decided to get the abortion. That was the day Phillipa decided that she didn't want to be with Steven. That was also the same day Phillipa decided that she didn't want to have sex with anyone. Then, Lin happened.

Flashback

Within five minutes, Steven had gotten the stuff he kept at her house and left. Where to? Wherever the hell he felt. Phillipa did not give two shits at the moment. She sat on her bed and started to cry. Soon the cry turned into a call. The call turned into a visitor. And the visitor turned into a one night stand. With whom? Good question. "Lin," Pippa cried.

"What's wrong Pips?" Lin asked.

"Can you come over?" She whimpered.

"I'm on my way," he agreed. Phillipa hung up and placed her head in her hands. 10 minutes had passed before Lin knocked on the door. Pippa hopped off of her bed and opened to door. She stared blankly at Lin for a short period of time before he pulled her into a hug and shut the door behind him. "What happened?" He asked. Pippa shook her head.

"I don't want to talk about it," she cried, harder. Lin pulled away and held her face in his hand.

"What do you want?" He asked. She looked into his eyes and attacked him with her lips. Lin knew she was hurting, but he wanted to do whatever Pippa wanted. He was ready to do whatever in order to refrain from making Pippa more upset. Lin pulled away and looked Pippa in the eyes. "Are you sure you want this?" Lin checked. Pippa nodded and took Lin into her room.

Real Time

Pippa slid off the bed and looked in the mirror. She splashed her face with some cool water and looked at the mirror. "You're okay," she whispered.

Flashback

"You're okay," Pippa reassured herself. Little did she know her life was about to take a turn for the worst. If that was even possible.

"Phillipa?" A female voice called from behind. Pippa turned to see a stage manager behind her. "This is Danny. He's here to watch Lesley for you," she informed. Pippa nodded as a young guy wearing a purple shirt, dark blue dress pants and a loud yellow bow tie came in. Him. Her rapist.

"Hi," He friendly greeted. When the two shook hands, something told Pippa that he was bad news, but she brushed it off.

"Thanks for watching her. She should sleep, but if she wakes up there is a pre-made bottle in her bag," Pippa instructed. He gave her a nervous smile and nodded. The more Danny stared at her, the more Pippa became unnerved. 

"5 minutes to call," the stage manager said, as she escorted Pippa out of the room. She took one last look at Lesley, before heading to the stage.

Real Time

"You should've stayed," Pippa groaned. She quickly became frustrated with herself. "Why didn't you fucking stay?" She yelled. The twenty-seven-year-old ran her hand through her hair and sat on the edge of the toilet. "No. Stop. That's the old you. Stop blaming yourself. It's not your fault," she whispered. "It's not your fault," she reassured. She stretched out her legs and examined them. "He loves you for you. Flaws and all," she whispered.

Flashback

"Nope. I'm done. Go clean out the fire pit for tonight. I'm going to clean up your child and start on the dinner for tonight. Jasmine and Ant are gonna be here soon," Phillipa instructed. Lin nodded and picked up his daughter. She had pancake and banana all over her face and it was cute.

As Lin cleaned up their child, Phillipa stood in the bathroom. "He thinks your sexy. Give him something sexy to look at while you're not around," she whispered. She pulled out her phone, with her head and heart conflicted. Her heart said this was perfect. Her head said this was stupid. "Love is stupid," she justified to herself. While in the white lingerie set Lin bought her, she walked to the full-length mirror and posed in a sexy manner. She took a minimum of 30 photos in different ways. Some selfies, some mirror pictures. She picked the top 5 and sent them to Lin. She felt like she would regret them but also felt a tiny bit bad for burning his video collection. Like 1% of her being felt bad. The other 99% said fuck him.

Real Time

Pippa heard Lin come back in the room and sprinted to him. "Let me see your phone," she demanded. He looked at her weird.

"What?" He asked, a bit taken back. Phillipa held out her hand.

"Phone," she said. Lin set down the Texas Roadhouse bags and handed Pippa his phone. She put in the fingerprint in and scrolled through his favorites category in the picture app. She scrolled halfway through until she found what she was looking for. He still had the pictures. He had them in his favorites.

"Find what you were looking for?" He asked. She nodded and closed the app.

"I was just..." she trailed off, looking for an excuse.

"You were looking for the sexy pictures you sent me?" He asked. She blushed and nodded. "I cherish those. I would never delete them. Or disagree to more," he smirked. Pippa shook her head with a smile and kissed Lin.

"Yeah, okay," she laughed. "I'm gonna go get your son. Call your daughter and tell her to make her way back upstairs," Pippa instructed. Lin nodded and watch Pippa leave the room. He looked down at his background, a picture of Pippa from her boudoir shoot after she had Lesley.

Flashback

"Lin, I don't know if I can do this," Pippa whispered. She was in a robe, with black lingerie underneath.

"Pippa, you will do great. And it's a real confidence booster. I promise," he smiled. Pippa nodded and took off the robe. She handed it to her man and walked over to the bed. As soon as she sat down something clicked for her and she became a whole different person. Lin watched in awe of how graceful and elegant Pippa made 'sexy' look. She was a natural in front of the camera. However, as soon as the shoot was over, Pippa slid off the bed and reverted back to her shy, introverted self.

"Was that good?" She asked. Lin let out a winded laugh and wrapped the towel around his woman.

"It was perfect," he replied. Pippa smiled proudly and allowed Lin to kiss her temple, as they walked to the bathroom so she could change her clothes.

Real Time

20 minutes had passed before Stevie and Lauren were back in the room. The family was eating and life was bearable. "Lin, what made you fall in love with Pippa?" Lauren asked. Lin smiled and took Phillipa's hand.

"Honestly..."

Flashback

Lin, Alex, and Tommy sat in a casting room bored out of their minds. They had been watching people sing all day, and they were tired. "Only 3 more people left," Tommy whispered. Lin and Lac nodded in unison and sighed. "Next we have Phillipa Soo. We actually called her for this role. I think that she would fit the bill perfectly," Tommy explained as Phillipa opened the door to enter.

"Oh shit," Lin whispered. Those were the only words that came to mind with Pippa in his presence. Lac hit Lin's arm, to bring him back to reality.

"Hi. I'm Phillipa Soo, but you can call me Pippa. I am here to sing as Elizabeth Schuyler. I will be sing That Would Be Enough," she said. Lac nodded and headed to the piano. Lin just stared at her in awe. Tommy smacked his neck, once again to bring him back.

"Lin get up. Go sing with her," Tommy said. Lin nodded and got up swiftly. He made his way to the young woman and stood in front of Phillipa. He looked at Lac and nodded.

"How long have you known?"

"A month or so,"

"...." Lin completed blanked. She had only said 4 words and he was already sure he wanted to marry her. "Eliza you should have told me,"

"I wrote to the general a month ago-"

"No"

"Begged him to send you home,"

"You should've told me,"

"I'm not sorry," Lin turned to Lac and motioned to stop the music. Phillipa looked at him weird and crossed her arms behind her back.

"I think we just found our Eliza," Lin said. Phillipa gasped.

"I didn't even finish the song," she said. Lin shook his head.

"I've heard enough. I'm in love," he smiled until he soon realized what he had said. "W-w-with your voice. I'm in love with your voice. You've got the part if you want it," he offered. She nodded and she and Lin shared the first of many hugs.

Real Time

Pippa pecked Lin's lips and flipped her hair. Coconut. He thought. The family laughed and talked for the rest of the afternoon. They decided to rest up and stay in, seeing as Lesley turned one the next day and they wanted to ready for whatever the day threw at them.

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