He must have kept it somewhere else... how much you pretend sanskar... can't you at least for once show me your true self...

She comes to a conclusion and goes away from there... Sanskar comes in the room to get ready and smiles at her seeing her in red saree... he was mesmerized... he pondered over the thought should he compliment her... what if she take him wrong... but still he couldn't stop himself...

"Hi... you... you look beautiful..."

Swara gives him a disgusting look... sanskar gets hurt seeing her look...

"I... I genuinely said that..." sanskar says in a weak voice... but swara walked out of the room...

"You look beautiful devraniji... aap ki iss sundarta ka raaz kya hai? Last night?" Ragini teased her as they met near stairs... swara faked a smile... if they knew...

Swara helped her to get down from the stairs... she is in her last term... within 3 to 4 weeks they will have one little member in their house...

"Arey swara beta you came?" sujata smiles at her both daughters in law and takes them to mandir for puja...

At the breakfast table...

All are eating ram and sanskar both checking the newspaper when sujata clears her throat to gain their attention... but they didn't budge... swara and ragini sitting together with sujata... she clears her throat again...

"Laksh... i think your mother has a throat problem... take her to the doctor..." ram says teasing his wife and hiding his face completely in the newspaper... all laughs... swara also smiles a little... Sujata snatched it, getting angry and looked at his laughing face with gritting teeth...

"Ji stop it... i need everyone's attention... sanskar i will throw that phone of yours..."

Sanskar raises his hands like surrendered...

"What happened ma..." laksh says with a smile...

"Sanskar when have you planned your honeymoon..."

Swara chokes on her food and starts to cough... Sanskar looks at her being worried... Ragini rubs her back with giggles and gives her water... when she is stable sujata asks again the same question...

Sanskar looks at swara then at his mother...

"After sometime mom... I need to shorten a bit in office as bhabi is on leave... and also bhabi's due date is near... I definitely don't want to miss the chance to welcome the first born of our next generation... and then ma swara also has some commitments to her family and school and professor... So don't you think it's not a good time..."

Sujata was disappointed but nodes... he has some points obviously...

"Its ok ma... honeymoon is not running away... and don't worry we will definitely go..." sanskar says casually not looking at swara's horror stuck face... she looks at him with hatred...

"So devarji has already thought about it... have you discussed it with my devrani? Have you taken her opinion..." Ragini teases and looks at swara...

Sanskar just smiles...

"Swara beta... it's your muh dikhai today evening you know... some relatives and some guests will come to see you... for now you take rest till lunch ok?" sujata asks with a smile cupping her face lovingly...

Swara nodes with a fake smile and walks to her room...

She was sitting on bed fuming thinking about Sanskar and his honeymoon plan, when she heard a slight knock and she answered...

"Come in..."

Soon Sanskar steps in talking with someone on the phone and he straight goes to the balcony giving a slight smile to swara... Swara followed him and stood there waiting for him to end the call... it took 15 to 20 minutes to finish his call...

He looked back and saw her standing there...

"Hi... mom said that.."

"You planned our honeymoon?" she asks with a tight smile...

Sanskar looks at her mocking smile... he knows there may be some more hurtful words coming on his way but still he decides to answer... he thought at least this way he can communicate to her..

"I was just planning for an outing for us... i"

"You won't change right..." she said with rage... "how dare you plan something like this... and how could you think i will go with you?" she shouted loudly...

"I just planned to go..."

"You know what I am glad this time you are revealing your true face soon enough... keep going on... the soon you come out of your facade completely it will be easy for me to throw you out of my life..."

Sanskar sighs and gulps the suffocating feeling he is facing... she turns to leave...

"Its... Aaron and Joseph's marriage after 2 months... they are my best friend and they expected me to come that too with you... they know about you... everything... so i just thought to go with you there... Aman is also coming... we will live in the same house... aman crystine, his fiance.. Joseph aaron me you... i thought to tell you about that... but today seeing mom's sad face i thought just to assure her... I didn't think you would take this way..." he says gulping... "I said that cause..."

Swara feels a little bad but then thinks about her mother in law and gets annoyed with her too...

"You know what all your family members are same... how can they think..."

"Swara '' sanskar shouts for the 1st time... swara taken aback... Sanskar closes eyes and counts from 10 to 0 then looks at her again... "you hate me swara... no... you loathe me... but in this don't become so mean that you will regret it later... she is my mother... may be nothing to you... but to her you are nothing less than her daughter... don't say that about her... she is just worried about her son's life... because how much i pretend may be her sixth sense has said something is wrong..." he says to her in a calm controlling manner...

"Then obviously it's your fault to marry me and give her this impression..." she shouted back...

"I know..." he yells back... "i know..." now he whispers... "i know it's my fault... but that's why I asked for a chance... a chance to explain myself and amend everything..." he slumps his shoulder down... swara didn't say anything...

"I think you should rest... for a while... until my mom comes and calls you for lunch... and about going... it's necessary for me to go there for Aaron and Joseph... they were there for me when I myself was not there for me... if you don't want you always give an excuse about your phd and school... i will make everyone understand..."

He didn't wait for her back answer; he went to his study room... with shivering hands he tried to find his medicine... finding it he gulped it down and slept on the long sofa with a duvet to calm his nerves down...

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It's been 15 days since she is married... her life is normal... normal enough for her cause she had expected the worst... sanskar always tried to talk to her as politely as he can... and she always ended up with hurtful words... still he remained determined..

"So, did he eat you up?" Anwesha asks dryly, looking at me...

"Stop being sarcastic all the time..." I was irritated with her behavior... why can't she understand me... and why she has to take his side...

"Yes anwe, why can't you understand her?" khushi says supporting me

"I can very well understand her... didn't you listen to her... is she listening to her own words?" Anwesha says agitated...

"what?"

"Didn't you listen to what she said about him... from which angle you are still thinking negatively..." anwesha said...

"Maybe it's all a facade..." khushi said...

"Just stop it... khushi, why are you being so hypocrite? When arnav can change... when he can change his habit and you believed him again then why can't sanskar..."

"Because my arnav didn't have that type of mentality..." khushi says stubbornly...

Anwesha and swara both know very well that khushi has some serious psychic problem... if she believe something then it's impossible to change her mind... and if something goes wrong with her for which they have already warned before still she won't except her fault moreover will cry and blame them only why they didn't stop... they know her family is bit ignorant not only towards her but also to each other... so they often leave the argument with her... after all whatever she is, she is good at heart...

"Swara, it's high time you should talk with him a bit softly... stop hurting him... life is all about risk swara... in every part you will face challenges and that time you have to take risk of moving on..." anwesha says holding her hand...

"I don't know..."

"You remember swara, your nani, she told us the story of rishi balmiki who wrote ramayana... he was a thief and then he became a saint... did you forget about raja ashoka... who killed so many people and then? He converted into a good human... everyone can change... and they should be given a second chance swara... always..."

Swara takes a deep breath... "but still i am afraid..."

"I know... lets starts with small small steps... like when you will return today and when he wil come to talk to you, you will reply softly... you can do that right?"

"I will try..."

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"Hi... I am making some coffee, will you take it?" Sanskar says seeing her in the balcony swing with her laptop and some copy...

Swara looks at him with a jerk and her copy falls down... sanskar with a quick step goes towards her and helps her to pick up... "i am sorry i didn't mean to scare you..."

"But you did..." she says annoyed... his face gone pale... swara remember anwesha's words...

"What were you saying?"

"I... I just said I was making myself some coffee.... If you need one?"

"Sorry... i don't drink coffee at night..." she says normally...

"Oh ok... then some hot chocolate? I know you love chocolate..." he asked with a smile seeing her normal talking...

Swara ponders over the thought should she accept?

"Ok... that will be great... i guess..."

"I.. i will make..." he becomes so happy... after 9 years...

Why is he so happy... swara thought...

After some 10 minutes...

"Here..." sanskar gives her the cup... swara was cautious not to touch his hand... and sanskar was too happy to ponder over that thought...

He looks at her expecting she will taste it... but swara was looking at it with narrowed eyes... somewhat realising her thought his smile dropped...

"I... I didn't mix anything... believe me... its pure hot chocolate only..." he says with choked voice... swara looks at him shocked...

"I just.. It's too hot..." swara says and keeps at the side...

Sanskar didn't say anything... still he tried...

"What are you doing? Your thesis or school papers..."

"School papers..." Swara muttered, not showing any interest in talking...

"You know, I met Arnav today in a conference... it was a pleasure to see him..."

Swara looks at him... "arnav talked to you?"

"Yes... in fact we have met before also"

"What about samar? Don't you both hang out together now?"

"No..." swara noticed he became stiff and cold listening to his name...

"Why?" swara frowned looking at his cold stiff pale face...

"Its a long story will you listen..." he suddenly looks at her hopefully...

"Maybe..."

Sanskar was about to say when they heard a shriek...

"Sanskarrrr.... Sanskaaaarrrrr... come fast your bhabi is in labour..." it was laksh's voice... both ran outside...

Next it was a blur.... Whole family headed towards the hospital and within two hours doctors announced it to be a beautiful cute chubby healthy baby boy...

Swara stood beside sujata as she loved the baby as soon as her eyes fell upon him... he is cute... sujata looks at sanskar who is looking at them smiling...

"Sanskar... come here take your nephew..."

Sanskar nodes no...

"No... no... i will make him fall..."

"Nothing like that, take him..." sujata shoved his denial...

"Han devarji... you are his chachu... his chotte papa... and didn't you say you will be his best buddy..."

Sujata makes him hold the baby... swara notices his eyes welled up with tears...

"He... he is beautiful... thank you bhabhi..." he said with tears in eye... and there was a smile of joy on his lips...

Later...

Swara leaves the cabin giving ragini and laksh some private time... sujata and ram has returned... Sanskar has gone to drop them and will come back and stay... swara was needed for ragini and laksh and sanskar with her as well... the nurse has taken the baby to the baby room... she said she will go to the baby...

As she goes there, her heart beat stop as she couldn't find the baby boy... she was about to shout for nurse when he notice one figure outside... it was sanskar... with the baby...

With slow steps she goes to him...

"What happened champ... not sleepy han? Fear of this world?" he cooed... as the baby looked at him with button eyes...

"Don't worry... your chachu is here... your chhote papa..." he kissed his palm... "your chote papa will never let any samar's shadow in your life... you will be a good man... i will make you a good man... unlike that 18 years old sanskar... you will be good enough that when you fall for anyone she will feel blessed... she won't fear you... unlike mine... i won't let any samar type boy's shadow lurking around you... we will be best buddies, best enough that you will share everything with your chachu... promise..." he kissed his forehead...

Swara clutched her mangalsutra tightly... has he really changed?... Was there more to this story of his and her? Does she have some misconception?

precap: aaron's marriage and a slap...

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Next update: 24/12/2020... love??? season5