When Darkness Calls

It calls to me again

My safe haven – my place of refuge

It welcomes me with open arms

With warmth and comfort

It doesn’t judge - has no expectations

It allows me to rest –

To forget if I can

I can lay down my burdens

Unravel my secrets if I dare

Consider my wants and my needs

For there is no guilt there –

None but what I bring

But guilt is my burden – my pain

Obligation my crucifix – so instilled, so ingrained

Its beauty is its silence; it’s openness to all

As I enter again it engulfs me

Wraps around me like a warm comforter quilt

I know not if I can leave again –

I may not have the strength nor feel the need

Its pull is far too strong

My need way too big –

I feel myself slowly slipping

Deeper down into the Abyss

There is no escape – no exit for me

I am powerless to resist

When darkness calls!