Nobody's gonna love you if you can't display a way, to capture this. Nobody's gonna hold your hand and guide you threw; no it's up for you to understand. Nobody's gonna feel your pain. When all is done, and it's time for you to walk away. So when you have today you should say all that you have to say.

~Roger Rabbit: Sleeping With Sirens

I uhhh... I don't know what to do anymore guys. I feel bad and guilty and just, like a useless bitch. I try to help my friends, even if the hopes are slim. I try to stay strong for them no matter how much it hurts me.... Eating away at my body from the inside out.

I'm sorry for being a bother to you all; to everybody. I'm sorry for bothering you guys and girls with my issues and bullshit. I love you all dearly though, and I never have, never will give up on anybody. And Xx(I'm not saying the persons name)... I left because I felt like it would be best.

I don't want you to think i'm giving up on you or anything.... I just think you should look around with your own eyes. Don't commit suicide and don't leave me or anyone else here. We'd miss you too much.

And that's not just for Xx, that goes for ALL of you!!! Every last one of you deserves to live and nobody can take that away from you, so please, please please keep living no matter what goes on. I'm sorry if you don't talk to me for a while, but i'm fucking done.

Me being here is pointless and i'm most likely gonna leave wattpad. All of them were right. 

"You can only rely on yourself." Many people have told me that and i'm starting to agree. I thought I could lean on my friends for support every once in a while.... And they could lean on me too. Shit.. I trusted you all more than anybody I ever have and ever will most likely.

But I guess the saying 'blood is thicker than water' is a true statement. That doesn't mean i'm going to my family now. It just means Ivy, Ivanya, Pokey, bitch, whatever you like to call me... Is just going to cut all ties of communication with anybody and everybody.

Again, sorry for being a bitch and a fucking waste of time, but it's how it is I guess. ;-; </3