Ben teleported in front of me. "Ben I know I owe you already but, can you help my with a tech problem." He looked at me and rolled his eyes.

"Sure. What is it?" he asked. I showed him the tracking chip. "What did you get yourself into this time?" He face palmed himself and started doing some techy stuff. About three minutes later he was done. He smiled at me and I knew to run. I ran for a little bit thinking I'm in the clear when ben tackles me to the ground. He pinned me and I felt weak. I finally flipped him over and fell off him laughing. It's not the first time this happened and I don't know why ben does it but, all I know is I could watch him play video games and never get bored of him.

We found each other staring at one another. "What are you staring at hot topic." I growled making myself sound angry.

"Oh, you think I'm hot" ben replied smoothly. I blushed a bit.

"Hot or overrated" I asked slyly. I felt a bit warm but, he didn't notice.

"Hey I wasn't the one who said it." he replied and chuckled a bit. He had such a cute laugh. I wish my brother wasn't such an asshat. If only ben was my brother or my ma- I started blushing ten times worse. Why would I even think that. We are like siblings not. NO STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT NOOOOOO!!!!!!!

'Keynya do you ever feel like reality is just a lie to make everyone believe there safe when truly everything in the world is fucked up?" He asked sadly. I thought about it and how much I feel like I'm drowning and I haven't even touched the water yet. Fear can stand for two things as my mom always says. Flea everyone and run or fight everything and rise. What way is the best way? Saving yourself or saving others? I have no clue what to do? My brother is slipping away and I can't save him like this. I know I need to get stronger.

"Ben can?" I closed my eyes and took a deep sigh. "Can we leave somewhere and train. I need to get stronger so I can get my brothers back" He looked at me.

"Who is your brother?" he looked at him and shook my head tears flowing down my face.

"I can't tell you I made a promise." I said. It got very silent after I said that. I understand he wants to know but, I just can't tell him. He tried to calm me down. I just pushed him aside.

***

I looked up at the night sky awaiting the hunting party to join me. My pack never treated me like a member. I felt like a prisoner at school, home and alone. I am constantly trapped by my thoughts and the abuse of other people. I realized it doesn't matter if they show up or not. I looked around to make sure nobody was around. I ran to the city.

I saw a blaze. It was no ordinary blaze it was fierce yet it looked cold. This blaze drew me closer and closer till I could almost feel my fur singe in it's magnificent flame. Then the thought occurred to me. 'Why die this way when you could kill the ones who caused you pain. Who caused you to even think about the edge. I still wonder what the edge looks like and someday I will find out but, today is not the day.' I started to back away from the fire. I watched it engalf everything in its path.

Maybe I can become a beautiful flame someday. Causing destruction and killing everything that stands in my way. That is what true beauty is pain and suffering. I'll show them true beauty.

I saw something near the fire. It. no, he was unconscious and needed help. I thought really hard about it and decided to help him. I picked him up and bring him to a safe place in the woods away from others. I was in my human form cooking some food."Where am I? Who are you?"

I looked at him from the other room. " You are at my house." I finished the food and walked in the room. "You want some steak."

"Yeah sure." He answered. "I'm Timothy Write" I looked at him and tilted my head. I gave him a confused look. "What?"

"Timothywrite? I asked. He looked at me and finally understood.

"Write is my last name. I am usually called Tim" He said. I looked at me. "What's your name?"

"I don't have one" I said casually. He gave me a look of disbelief.

"Really well I guess what do you want to be called?"

"Cosma and can you be my brother" I asked.

"Of course" He replied.

***

I felt something shake me to my senses. I saw the dime fire light. Ben was shaking my shoulder. "What ben?" He gave me a concerned look.

"Ever sense Halloween you've been zoning out on people and I scares me." He says straight out. I blushed a bit.

"It's none of your business." I said. I felt something snap in his mind. It's the first time I felt I needed to tell him something but, I couldn't. Something locked me down at that moment my words my movements everything.

***

"I'll always be there for you but, I got a job and I need to keep working or I might not be able to help" Tim said.

"Okay" I said. I smiled like I was fine but, everyday got lonelier and every moment sadier. My world was fading and eventually he started spending weeks on jobs. I shut down. Everytime he came home my smile faded and my words became fake. I loved him as a brother but he was different. He don't care anymore.

***

I went quiet. "Are you okay" Ben asked. I looked up at him. My tears where threatening to show my weakness. Ben came closer and I started to panic. I don't want him to leave. I didn't want him to leave. Why did he leave me alone? For how long must I pretend to be alright. "All you have to do is tell me and your stress will leave Cosma" My eyes widened as my worlds were split in reality and the past. My brother and ben both doing the same about my silence.

I need to say something before he leaves me. But what do I say and how can I say it without making him hate me. I curled up in a ball and my tears started to leave. 'No stop he left you cause of this' I felt a hand on my shoulder and I looked up in surprise. "It's okay you didn't do anything wrong," Ben said. I calmed down a bit and sat up.

"I'm having flashbacks of my brother and of toby once I was with them. That's why I kept spacing out. I never meant to leave you in the dark but I was fearing that you would leave me alone ...Like my brother did." He looked at me with a serious expression.

"And who is your brother." He asked. I looked away. He grabbed my face and made me look him in the eye. "I'm just asking a name."

"You can find anybody with a name, how do I know you not gonna do something to him." I asked.

"Because you know I won't do anything that would hurt you." He said. I glared at him for a second.

I mumbled as lowly as possible. "Timothy Write" He looked at me and nodded. I knew he heard it. Why am I such a loud mouth. Suddenly his face change when the realization hit him.

"You mean Masky." He said. I nodded and glanced nervously around. I looked down trying to think of what to say next. Should I tell the truth or say it's somebody else. What difference would it make he knows like everyones name,

"Yeah" I said shyly. "Ben would you run away from slender if you could?" I asked. He looked me in the eye. I knew he was trying to figure out what to say. We just stared at each other in the eyes for most of the time.

"Well yeah" He said honestly. I smiled and he smiled back. I hugged him and we had a long bonding moment. I felt safety and strength.

"Then why don't you. We could live a normal life." I said with slight excitement. He looked away from me and sighed. This worried me a lot,

"I can't"ben said sadly. "I made a promise to EJ and Jeff. The thing is if you leave again EJ Jeff and I have too go after you." he looked down at his feet. I felt pain in my chest.

I nodded my head. "Okay I see" I looked at my feet for the first time ever I felt like I had nobody to help me. Nobody to make me feel better. "I'm sorry we can't see each other anymore." I said and ran off. I jumped over the waterfall but, this time I didn't swim up. I didn't even fight. I felt somebody try to drag me back to the surface and I started kicking at them, but it was no use. They pulled me out of the water and I started hitting they and kicking. They dropped me and I looked at the person who saved me. It was Lui or Sully? Whichever one it wasn't good.

"Come on Keynya you know that won't help." sully smiled. It just had to be the more dangerous of the two. I growled at him and stood up getting ready too run. Before I could run I felt something latch on one of my hands. I looked at my hand and saw a handcuff I followed it to the other end and saw glitchy.

I jumped in surprise. "God Fuck" I calmed myself.

"Can you not jump like that" glitchy sighed. "I'm not that scary."

"Tell that to your face." I replied. I watched dark link appear right in front of me.

"Where's ben Keynya" He smiled while saying that. I felt sudden pain and Dark Link could see it. He started laughing. "Ben left you" I shook my head and he realized what had happened. "Well we should get going then"

I was teleported away, but before I was I left ben a small note. At Zalgo's mansion. I had to follow glitchy around everywhere and you would not believe hoe much time Glitchy and Darky spend with each other. It's so annoying. Although watching them play video games is not bad in tell they drag me into a fight.

"Keynya tell him to stop freezing the game on me." I looked at him.

"He started it with glitching my character" They were both glaring at me and I have a feeling they purposely made me sit in the middle when one lunged over me to get to the other and it became a wrestling match over me. Even if I wasn't right there my arm is still in the danger zone. Suddenly water was blasted at darky and my hand was in the way at the moment.

"DUMBASS" I yelled out of pain. They both stopped and looked at me. I lunged at them and hit them both full force with a controller.

"ouch " they said in unison. I growled and they both put their guard up. "It's not wise to do that" one of them said.

"You think i give a flying fuck whats wise at this point" I growled. "I lost my love due to my stupidity, got caught by you bafoons and the worst part is that I lost my one true purpose of living long ago." I felt my words sting my heart but, they don't care they never did and never will. My own words tore into my heart,

"Oh, why don't you find a new purpose by surviving zalgo." glitchy asked.

"News flash Ill die instantly. The only reason im alive now is because slender thinks I will go back to my purpose but, I lost to slender he was one thing i tried to fight to keep my purpose. Slender destroyed my purpose and Zalgo can't bring it back only I can," I said.

"Then why don't you get out of here and fix it" Darky asked. I paused... This was the question I have been asking myself for years. Why don't I get it back?