Sometimes I wonder how I made it this far despite all my struggles, sometimes it felt like my world ended there, everything I worked for, and begged for was leaving me slowly and painfully but the story was different this year...

I'd some amazing people who taught me things I never knew existed, things that can't be learned in a textbook but experiences teach you the whole concept...

Some things I do, I'm not proud of but that's the essence of loving myself in ways no one can and can never.

I claim I don't believe in love, not that it isn't real but it was just surreal for a person like me, I felt it was too valuable to have especially for me so any chance of that. I shut it right before it comes right through the door...

I pray and hope one day, I can find love and I won't make the mistake of losing it amid my search, I already have a garden blooming with love that has no bounds and I'm just searching aimlessly for what simply doesn't exist...