Honest awnser here, if I want to commit suicide, but don't do anything because I'm a pussy, am I still suicidal? Or do I have to kill my self just so people realize something is really fucking wrong with me and I need help? 

Maybe none of it is true, according to a few people all my emotions until I'm an adult is just me being an emo edgy teenager and it's just hormonal hormones. Is that true?