John's POV

I finally reach my old shabby apartment, throwing my back down and digging deeply to myself.

I'm such an idiot and I have every right to be ashamed of the performance I put back there. Seriously what went through my head. I should of lied and said I had to leave for a very big event and didn't have enough money to return, and I also got a new phone.

Like I can't even begin to recognize what I have done. Everyone must be so worried and..and herc, dammit he's never going to forgive me, his anger issues are big and then not to mention he can get aggressive when he's friends are hurt.

I slowly slid down the door and curl up into a ball, crying softly.

How could I be so stupid, I should of been more careful and made sure there was no way for them to find me. I shouldn't of went back to that cafe, that was my biggest mistake.

After a while of crying, my phone starts to ring loudly, I slowly lift my head from my hands and pull my phone out my pocket, looking at the contact listed of the person calling me. Alex. I blink in confusion on why he would be contacting me, and also wondering why he still has my number.

I slowly answer the call shaking slightly, small whimpers leaving my mouth.

"h-hello..?" I mange out weakly.

"John! Oh thank god you're okay!!" Alex soft but loud voice comes through.

"A-Alex..i-" I start attempting to apologize.

"No don't even start, meet me at the park, y'know the one we use to go to..?" Alex says sounding nervous.

"yea-..um yes I remember..I'll..head there now.." I say trying to sound like I haven't been crying.

"okay! Thanks bye."

"bye-" before I could finish he hangs up, I sigh softly and lean my head against the door letting out a shakey breath.

I quickly, quickly pull myself together and walk to the bathroom splashing water on my face and then rebrushing hing my teeth, trying to look more alive so it doesn't look like I just washed up on shore and died.

Once I'm done I change my outfit into dark blue jeans and a black thin hoodie that says "normal people scare me" and pull on some black boots,  walking out the apartment.

Once I arrive at the park I stop for a moment admiring it,  letting fond memories roll through my head and I let out a soft chuckle and continue walking towards the fountain.

Once I'm there stand there watching the water fall from the fountain. All of a sudden I feel the tears resurface as I reach to touch the beautiful clear water,  letting the water slowly fall from my pale hands,  like the soft tears falling down my face.

Then I hear a voice behind me

"Jackie?.."

I freeze up looking from the fountain and slowly turns around.

"A-Alex.."