I guess it's coming back? We'll see

Trigger warnings

John's POV

I glance at everyone once more before grabbing a chair from the nearby tables and sitting at the edge.

Looking down at my laps I clear my throat.

"u-uh..so..to make it clear..I do remember all of you,  every single one of you..and I'm sorry for..uh.. Lying.." I start out trying to keep my shaking body under control.

I glance up and see everyone intensely took at me,  which doesn't help the shaking. I bite my lip and fight the urge to get up and run.

"s-so..w-when me..and l-..A-Alex had that f-fight..he u-uh said s-some things..and i-i broke u-up with him a-and packed m-my stuff..I went all the w-way to..uh South..carolina..for a few years as you can tell" I say shaking uncontrollably hoping that they don't notice. " a-and last time you g-guys saw me..uh I pretended I.. Didn't know pegs..or a-alex out of um..heh..fear.. And now I'm h-here you can thank pegs for that.." I finish my eyes still focused on my lap.

"well I forgive you" pegs immediately speaks up as I can feel her warm smile on me,  but I don't dare to make eye contact.

Everyone else reminds silent and I feel myself become more anxious.

"A-Are you hurt.." I hear herc's voice me through in a small whisper.

My head immediately shoots up as I make eye contact with him,  meeting his pained expression. He's always looked out for me,  made sure I was ok. Never once has he done anything to hurt me..

"uh.." I attempt to answer

"John..your..so..small and p-pale..tell me you're not hurt.." he says again this time you can practically hear the tears about to fall

"herc..I-.." I start again,  but it quickly faded into the silence.

"TELL ME DAMMIT,  WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING TO YOURSELF HUH!?" herc shouts banging his hands on the table alerting the people around him.

I feel tears rushing down my face as I slowly get up and back away from the table, fear apparent in my eyes.

"herc calm down.." laf tries to calm him down but herc just simply pushes him out the way and walks towards me.

The panic in me kicks in knowing what he's about to do,  I've seen this  action before.

Flash back

Herc walks to me after pushing Peggy out the way,  I try to run but he grabs me roughly.

Knowing he didn't mean to and he's just acting out in anger I let out a tiny yelp and let him grab my arms

He quickly lifts up the sleeves. Seeing many-

Flash back over

I back away fr him quickly knowing the costumers and employments will try and stop him and me knowing herc won't stop until he sees the damage I've inflicted on myself. (funny cause I had a friend like this)

I turn to run out the store hoping the others would try and stop herc, I'm now sobbing I don't want them to see my horrible body and the use to be beautiful skin I've scared.

I make it out the small brick shop and stop to take a breathe,  knowing it could be a horrible mistake.

I take a glace behind me and see herc struggling to get outside,  I sigh quietly to myself and start a soft jog home(did I say he took a car? I can't remember).

Maybe today wasn't the day for me to come back and meet them,  maybe if I just stayed in south Carolina than all of this would be avoided. I'm to afraid to try again and talk to them knowing. Herc might be still..upset.

Ok imma end this here cause I have school and it took me three days to publish this cause of homework and again school,  as well as cleaning the house