TRIGGER WARNING (imma just start putting warnings on all these chapters just in case)

It seemed like I have been cleaning my apartment for years. There's so much trash and shit thrown around, the moons light shining through my open window as I shove plastic cups and plates into my small trash can that's begging to be thrown out, there's various cracks in it but I don't wanna buy another..but I also can't have Alex come here and see how much of a mess I am and how much I really did need him.

The floors are clear but are in desperate need to be cleaned. Mopped. There's all types of stains on them that are just unbelievable form the types of different drinks I have thrown or dropped on the floor. Sometimes out of rage and unbearable sadness or just from being clumsy.

The couch is no better. It has stains and I have to wash it to..dishes still need to be done and my room is the only thing clean for far. I only have until 3:00 tomorrow to get it done, and maybe an hour to actually sleep than shower and get ready.

Probably made or buy some snacks...I would ask peggy to help but..God she wouldn't wanna see this.

It's 8:00 and all I've gotten done is my room and the bathroom. Deep cleaning takes a lot out of a man. Especially when you stupidly invite your ex to your house because you felt bad and you also kinda miss him but you literally felt like hell when with him but he could of changed and this is me giving him another change even though he probably doesn't deserve it but his puppy dog eyes and how they perfectly fit with the sun setting and how he tried so hard to get me to relax even though I have this new stick up my ass and-

Clean John..clean.

After a few for hours and it's now 5:00 in the morning and 16 cups of coffee along with energy drinks later. I finished every room, and now tomorrow I just have to mop the floors and clean the couch, and wait for my sheets and clothes to get out the washer.

Laying down on my blanket less bed,  I drift off into an uncomfortable cold but also relaxing because I'm exhausted sleep.

I wake up a few later(realistically only three) and its now 8:00 am.

Groggily sitting up I haul myself off of the bed and get the clothes I picked out for this little, hang out I set up, my phone , and head to the bathroom.

I turn on senpai cypher (prod major League Wobs ) and hop into the shower letting the steaming hot water hit me.

Signing I run a lazy hand through my hair and begin to wash myself.

After an hour I finally decide to step out the shower wrapping my hair in a towel with one and grabbing another to dry off.

Once I finally get dressed I brush my teeth and look at myself in the mirror.  My eyes look slightly dull from being tired and there's small bags under my eyes which I quickly reach into my medicine cabinet and grabbing the small foundation I have, applying it under my eyes. I gotta look at least a little alive while lex is here.

When I grab a brush through my wet and untamed hair before just settling with putting it in a ponytail, with a few pieces of hair sticking out. (his outfit is at the top but I want it to be long sleeved  and his hair, he's just also wearing nice blue jeans with rips in them) before putting in my piercing(ear rings? The picture at the top as well)

Once I'm done I exit the bathroom and beside fuck the couch. Imma just through a blanket over it and call it good, but I did end up mopping and then sitting down for a good ass cup of hot chocolate. Cause yes, I'm that bitch.

Just a few more minutes and Alex will be here..

I truly can't hide from you..

A/n I hope y'all liked this chapter, it was kinda rushed because I'm extremely busy right now, but hopefully Alex getting here will be a great chapter ಥ_ಥ