hello it is story time

Some time ago, before I had an art book, i would try to draw stuff for my fanfic (fyi it was really bad art)

I stopped drawing for a while actually after that because I was super discouraged that everyone was better than me but that is not the point

so one time I wanted to do a flower background but I was really bad at drawing flowers like I could only do the kindergarten flowers that's like a circle and like ovals and I didn't want that for it

So I spent like an entire month studying one picture of a rose, trying to figure out how they grow and how they work and how to draw them because i really wanted to draw a realistic rose

I could not

No matter how many times I tried it came out looking like absolute shit and i almost have up completely right.

So I got fed up with myself and drew a super super lazy flower like it took 10 seconds for me to do it while all of my other attempts took almost an hour.

and it looked ok????

The way I draw roses is pretty shitty to be honest, but i felt like idid something ok, and I rarely ever feel confident about my art. So since then ive never changed my style of drawing roses just cuz it made me happy and it still makes me happy and that is cool to me