I could feel myself still shaking even after Luhan had closed the curtain. Wh-why...why did he do that?! He-he's going to make fun of me even more now. I can't...I can't do this, I can't do this anymore. I don't want him to make fun of me even more now that he's seen my whole body. 

I slowly try getting up from the floor but I couldn't, my legs felt too weak. I fell back down and looked at the ground, trying to contain myself and everything I was feeling. 

I can't do this, I slowly get up from where I fell and turn off the water from the shower head. I quickly dried myself off and got changed into baggy basketball shorts and an oversized top, even for my body which was surprising. 

What...what if Luhan is still outside? What if he's waiting outside to just laugh in my face on how fat I am. There was no hiding anything, I'm pretty sure he saw everything about me. He was standing there and observing me as well! I didn't look at his face long enough to know how he was looking at me. I'm pretty sure he had that disgusted expression he always looks at me with. 

My heart was beating fast, just thinking Luhan could be waiting out in my living room was giving me a panic attack. 

I knew I had to face him sooner or later and took a deep breath in, and letting a huge breath out. "Come on Minseok, you can do this" I say to myself as I open the washroom door. 

I can hear the kettle going off which filled the room with sound but when I looked around, Luhan wasn't in my house anymore. His shoes were gone from the front door as well. Was he that freaked out of my body, he couldn't even stay? 

Not that I wanted him to stay, jeez my thinking is way too weird and way too confusing! 

I walked over to the kettle which was going off and turned it off, taking it off the stove and pouring the hot water into a big mug I pulled out for the tea. 

After pouring the water inside the mug I let the tea bag sit in hot water for a while. I walked over to the couch again just to sit down on the edge of it and think things through. Why on earth would Luhan want to come into the washroom and look at me naked? 

The only logical answer to come to mind would be he went in there just to make fun of me, but my body freaked him out too much and he ran out of the house in shock before he could say anything. Yeah, that's probably what happened. 

Now that I think about it, I didn't observe Luhan at all, I didn't see what he was doing, maybe he was holding his phone and taking a picture! What if he's going to spread that picture around the school just to tease me, to make fun of me?! 

I can feel my heart beating fast, a panic attack was arising and I started shaking again. What are the marnvols going to say to me tomorrow at school, should I even go to school? Tomorrow is gym, I don't want to go to gym again. 

My stomach felt so full, I've ate way too much today, so much to break my uniform pants. I can't eat more but I want to get rid of this empty feeling. I shouldn't eat, I can't eat, I'm way too full I'm going to legit pop if I eat anymore. 

I got up and went to the uniform pants I broke earlier. I observed the zipper on them and saw the button above the zipper was just as loose, like it was holding onto a thread. Jeez I'm pathetic. I folded the uniform pants and placed them in my backpack. I have to hand those back into the office tomorrow...but I have to get new uniform pants from the office. My other uniform pants are still covered in puke. 

Tomorrow isn't going to be a good day. I went into bed and tried getting more sleep to maybe calm my mind down, but I had a lot of nightmares again. The nightmares I had were of Luhan and his goons making fun of me in the shower, all laughing at the picture Luhan had took of my body. I woke up screaming multiple times...I'm scared. 

When the morning came it felt like I had gotten no sleep at all, which has been happening a lot recently. My eyes, throat and stomach all hurt. My eyes hurt from crying so much yesterday, I felt a stinging, uncomfortable feeling from them. My throat hurt because of the multiple times I woke up screaming last night which made my voice a bit raspy. My stomach hurt because of how much I ate yesterday. I ate way too much yesterday, that was the most I've eaten in a long time. 

I got ready for school, putting my uniform shirt on but I had to put on my sweatpants because I didn't have another pair of uniform pants and the extra pair I got from the school that I broke, I didn't want to wear them and have everyone seeing the colour of my underwear since the zipper is broken. Not to mention if I wore it again, I feel like the button would break as well, so there's no point. 

I fixed my hair and brushed my teeth in the washroom before grabbing my backpack and going to the front door to put my shoes on. Now that I think about it, what's the point on going to school? 

Yeah to get an education and to learn things, but everyone at school hates me. They always bully and pick on me. On top of that we have gym today which will just get me tired. I lucked out last week with dodge ball. He's going to probably force us to play football today, not to mention he'll drag me out of the class to talk about this physical diet he has for me. Maybe he'll even say I got fatter from the last time he saw me. 

I don't want to deal with that...and I don't need to go to school. My parents aren't here to stop me, they're all the way somewhere in another country. Even if the school called them on their cellphones (which is unlikely, they'll probably call the home phone.) They won't be able to force me to go to school.

I took off my shoes, got changed back into what I slept in and sat down on the couch. I don't need to go to school today. I don't want to deal with anyone picking on me because Luhan probably told them the whole description of my body already. 

The empty house filled me with sadness. Hearing nothing left me with emptiness. My stomach hurt from eating too much yesterday but I wanted to fill me up. I walked over to the fridge and pulled out the last of my halmeoni's left overs and ate it all. 

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