XV

This is for you,

You coward who manipulates feelings and thoughts.

You heartless animal with thoughts full of numbers.

You weird thing, i can't call you father, not even human, not even animal.

You, with your unbelievable level of cruelty, coldness and falseness.

You.

You love when you need something.

You cry when you need forgiveness so that your mind won't kill you with haunting memories of your mistakes.

You smile when you want control.

You want control, not only over people but situations.

But, will you ever learn?

Time will teach you, or at least kill you while trying.

None of us can control it.

What?

Time.

The only infinite thing; time.

It gives it all and takes it all away.

It fixes wounds, makes people forget, makes people panic.

I might never be enough and never be right. Nobody will, only you.

But time will teach you what it teached me half my life.

My life. Half yours.

Isn't it shameful?

Attack the weakest and then try to manipulate me.

But I'm not like her.

I'm not weak.

It isn't hard for me to accept what you are.

It isn't hard for me to accept what you are and not let you play with me.

Why?

Because I'm different.

And yes. I might have your genes, some of your facial expressions; some of you.

But I'm never gonna be you.

I know warriors who haunt and kill monters, get to be monsters too.

But if I'm a monster, i won't be like you.

If I'm a monster, i might haunt myself. It doesn't really matter.

But now you know of what I'm capable of.

Now you know I'm a monster too.

But different.