. Moonwalkers I need you to listen to me please every sense what happened today I just been going crazy I love Michael you know I do I'm just having a hard time my mind is messing with me again I know I should be stronger than I usually am but I'm sorry okay just don't believe about me saying all that because I love Michael you know I do and I do it say any of that I'm terribly sorry please forgive me I'm just out of my head today I just having a hard time along with you guys I love Michael I can't believe I keep saying that crap if I keep saying that crap that I'm going to lose you guys and I don't want to lose you guys I'm over my head all the time and today was just worse this this year has not been a good year it's been horrible people dying it's hard hard hard hard hard hard hard