People call me strong. Until today.... I never knew why. 

I feel bad, for my father, in a way. 

He thinks that he's been through tough things? And he thinks he's making things better.

He doesn't care about anyone.

He's a Jackass.... or really a Jerkass who can't think about anybody but himself.

When I'm 18, I'm going to college, singing on tik tock or whatever its called and youtube and doing art tutorials and maybe oboe and violin tutorials and calling my channel "Artsy Ally", or something like that and I'll be recognized by a music producer or a celebrity or SOMEONE and I'll become a legend.

That is probably not gonna work

Lots Of you have been telling me to go to a cousin's house.

Idk If I ever told u guys but I don't have cousins who live around here....

plus

The police would get a call and issue an amber alert and all sorts of things,

Even tho my dad might get exposed.... I'm kind of scared of the police.

I'm in a really bad mental state right now.

I'm really sorry to let you down.

I just-