TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️: mention of suicide

Hajoon's point of view

The diner is quiet, peaceful.

I sit there stirring around my cup of coffee bored out of my mind. Sitting around Felix is not what I want to do and dealing with Rosè attitude isn't what I want to do either.

My parents didn't scold me about leaving either. Sometimes their sick of my attitude but all in all they understand. Losing someone you loved changes you, it eats you up inside everyday.

Getting close to people and growing bonds with them is a beautiful thing. No one told me when you lose them it hurts like hell though. It hurts so much I don't ever want to feel it again.

The only person around me now is Leedo, and I still keep him at an arms distance. The waitress walks up to me with a kind smile. I look at her name tag to see: Hana.

Hana: Is everything okay?
Me: Oh yeah, sorry.
Hana: It's okay! Not many people have been coming in these days. Take your time.

She pauses before looking at me again.

Hana: Have I seen you somewhere before?
Me: Probably. I wouldn't forget a pretty face like yours though.

She blushes.

See? Shit like this, I'm gay what am I doing? Then when I think back to me putting that move on Rin what the hell was that about?

To piss off Wonnie maybe but why? I need to see a counselor. Nothing I do makes sense to me, but I continue to do it.

I'm a mess.

The bell rings signaling a customer. My sister and I make eye contact briefly before she rolls her eyes.

Rosè: What're you doing here?
Me: Avoiding you and Felix. What're you doing here?
Rosè: Avoiding Felix and I like the pound cake.

I shrug pushing my plate of pound cake to the other side of the booth. I don't like pound cake but it automatically comes with coffee.

She debates with herself before sitting across from me.

Me: Can I ask you something?
Rosè: What?
Me: What did you think of Yuki?

She pauses.

Rosè: From what I remember he was a good guy, you smiled a lot more when you were around him. He looked up to Felix just like everyone else does.

I look back at my coffee cup.

Me: He was special to me. His anniversary is tomorrow.
Rosè: Really?

I nod.

Me: I'm going to pray and pay my respects at his gravesite.
Rosè: I'll go too. Is that why you hate Felix so much?

It was painful, so painful.

Me: I know it's awful to blame him for his death, his suicide even.
Rosè: You don't have to tell me now, but one day can you explain it to me?
Me: You actually care?
Rosè: It was weird watching you and Felix go from best friends to enemies so yes I'm curious.
Me: What about you?

She eats the rest of the cake.

Rosè: What about me?
Me: Why do you hate him.
Rosè: I'll admit it's a stupid reason, it isn't his fault but I'm envious of him.

I thought so.

Rosè: Everyone sees him as the perfect child, the golden boy. Surely that's no reason to dislike my own brother. He's likable and I'm mad about it, pathetic.

The saddest part is our parents never treated us any different. They celebrated our bronze medals just as much as they celebrated his gold.

Me: I think it's time to right our wrongs sister.

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Wonnie's point of view

Yeonjun texted me and told me to visit home for salsa day. Apparently when Yeonjun and Kai were younger my mom took them to pick out fresh ingredients so they could make homemade salsa.

They also beat up the press that day but that's another story.

Yeonjun: Chop the onions more precisely or we'll have a mouth full of onions every scoop!
Kai: Yes chef!

I look around the kitchen and don't see my mom anywhere.

Me: Hyung where's mom?
Yeonjun: Hm? Oh, she's running late from work so she said to start without her. All the dads will be home soon.

I nod.

Me: I was thinking about asking who my real dad is.

They stop chopping.

Yeonjun: Really!
Me: Yeah, I've been wondering more these days. I love all seven of them no doubt about it but I'm interested in knowing who gave mom this miracle child.

They smile.

Kai: You were indeed a miracle baby.
Yeonjun: And a pain in the ass.
Me: Saids the pain in the ass.

"I'm home!"

My mom walks in and I instantly smile.

Yeonjun: Taste this!

He shoves a spoonful of salsa in her mouth, her eyes begin to water.

Mom: Too many peppers!
Yeonjun: I told you Wonnie!
Me: I haven't done a thing since I got here.

She hugs me.

Mom: How's school?
Me: It's alright.
Mom: And Rin?

She smiles teasingly.

Me: She's good too.

She's not good, absolutely not good. My angel turned into a sexual deviant.

Mom: What're we eating with the salsa?
Me: Chicken.
Mom: Nice. Who's on chicken duty?

All three of us look at her.

Mom: This was a setup.

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i forgot about my other acc that fast. should i do some boyxboy stories on there 👀