AUTHOR'S NOTE:

I always reply to comments but last chapter is different. Sorry for not replying to them.

Thanks for all those messages.

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Your messages made my day. Thank you guys.

This chapter is dedicated to all of you guys. Happy raksha bandhen from your bro.

My wishes is on the end of the chapter.

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7) Everyone here are animals in human form

ADDAR'S POV

This morning, I was a model student. I was known as the pride of this college. I had two patent rights to my name. I had presented 10 papers in various IIT colleges. I had presented one in Harvard University too. I was the topper.

Now, I was in my principal's office, not to get congrats for any of the above. It was because I broke his window. Am I sorry for it?

No, I am not. Have you ever broken a rule? You are not me so you would have broken. The feeling you get when you disobey is something new to me. This feeling is amazing. Principal's personal assistant was looking at me weirdly. No, this is normal. I am a normal MAN now.

Principal came inside the room. He was angry and I liked it. 

I have never made anyone angry. They made me angry but I never gave it back to them. It is time, I give them back.

"Addar, did you find who broke it?"

Principal is ignorant like me. Now, I know how people think when I am clueless about s*x, po*n and flirting. It is very funny.

"I broke it," I said with a smirk and proud smile.

"I didn't understand you Addar?"

"I broke it," I repeated.

"It's okay Addar."

"Is it?"

"I know you didn't intend to break it. It is a mistake. I unde-"

I cut him off saying, "I did it intentionally."

Shock was evident in his face.

Yes, Get it idiots. I can break rules too.

"Why Addar?"

"My reflection had messy hair in it. Why did it show me with messed hair?"

I never care about my appearance but now I will.

"Are you alright Addar?"

Principal had a concerned look in his face. Same concerned face my mom had when she had asked me to make a promise. I am not going to fall for it now.

"I am perfect now. I rectified the mistakes in my character. I just have to prove to many people that I am a man now." I stressed every word in the last sentence.

"Are you talking about what happened today in the canteen?"

Yes. This is a major news. If someone is insulted in India, it travels faster than light.

"Addar, I know you are angry. Silence is the best way to react when you are angry. Showing your anger doesn't help."

"Sir, you are saying getting angry doesn't help anything, but bottling it up inside, doesn't help either."

"Bottling it up doesn't help in short term but you will understand it in the future."

"I waited for years, nothing happened. Don't say that it helps in after life and all. I am trying to live in the present."

Principal asked all the others to leave us alone.

"Boy, Anger destroys more than it repairs."

"I am not a boy. I am a MAN now."

He was definitely shocked. I continued, "I have nothing to repair. I am already decomposed in this sand. Now I am starting from the roots again."

"Benjamin Franklin once said whatever begun in anger end in shame. So don't do anything permanently stupid as you are temporarily upset."

"People call me with worse names when I was like this before. These are better than that."

"Never do anything when you are angry. You won't be you. You will do everything wrong."

"Wrong things are the correct things now."

"A moment of patience in a moment of anger saves a thousand moment of regret."

"But that moment also saves a thousand moment of insult in this world now."

"Addar! Please Addar. Life gives you man-"

"Stop it!!," I yelled.

I have had enough.

"Principal, It is easy to say quotes like this from Internet. Come and live in my shoes. You will commit suicide the next minute."

"Addar, I understand."

"You don't. Have you ever been made fun of? Have you ever seen people laughing at you? You are the principal. Everyone acts polite to you."

"Addar! You are my best student. You are the only good boy, I got in recent times."

I laughed. I replied "Am I a near extinct animal for you? You want me to exhibit me inside a cage saying this is a GOOD HUMAN. This species is extinct now. He is the only living being in that species."

"It is not like that."

"I want to see the world outside the cage not from inside the cage. I was always kept inside a cage. I couldn't see the sky. I have the right to live in this world."

"Everyone are in the dark, do you want to be in it?"

"I am better being in the dark with others than being alone in the light."

"Addar, they do bad things without evidence. We can't touch them but you are new. You will get caught."

"See! Your problem is that I do bad things and leave evidence. It is okay to do bad things without evidence. Don't worry, I will learn that."

"Embarrassment after anger is the biggest humiliation a man can experience."

"No, what I experienced today is the biggest humiliation."

"Don't mix words with your bad mood. You will have many opportunities to change a mood but you will never get opportunity to replace words."

He is clearly getting angry now. "I don't care sir."

"You are an animal now."

"Where is a human in this world? Humans are extinct. Everyone here are animals in human form. I was hunted by those animals. Now I am one of them."

I walked out of the room. I heard his voice "Where are you going? We are not done yet."

"Okay. Hand me to the police. Let's make a news that NIT Trichy student is arrested."

I knew the result. Indian colleges are like that. They think college students should not come in any bad news. They think it will spoil the college's name. This is the reason India doesn't have great colleges only better colleges. You can even escape a murder inside a Indian college if no one complains.

"I hate you Addar."

"Who cares what you feel about me?"

"You are bad."

"It's okay. I am just bad. People are evil here."

"You will regret it."

"I know that you will still award me the best outgoing student award," I smirked.

He needs me to promote his college. That is important for an Indian college. He will love to see the words in college website 'We have students who presented papers in Harvard university'. That will be a great publicity.

"Don't do things because people want you to."

"People do most things because people want to. Your speed in road is determined by the horn you hear behind you. Why should I be different?"

"You won't hear me. You are turning out to be a normal boy."

"Yes! I am not abnormal now. I am normal now," saying that I walked out of the room.

I am walking alone in night. These people advice easily. No one wants to be a good guy. But everyone wants him to exist in colleges. They ask us to be good so that they can live peacefully. I won't regret or feel embarrassed of any of these actions. I am a MAN now. But why did that girl reject me. These people want me. Last week, a boy broke a pipe in the wall. Did he attend a meeting like this? No, he is a bad boy leave him. Bad boys can do bad things but good boys can't. Even if a good boy does a single mistake they make it a big issue.

"Hello! Addar," I heard some girl say.

I saw that girl. She was the one who asked me to kiss her. She walked past me. As usual I didn't show any sign of acknowledgement.

Wait! I should not be usual. I don't have to care about rejection.

"Hey! Wait," I called out.

She turned. She was shocked initially. Now she is happy. I went to her, grabbed her wrist and pulled her towards the tree. I pushed her to the tree. 

I think her back hit the tree hard. I think it would have hurt her. I shouldn't care about that. I am a MAN. 

MAN doesn't care about a girl. He needs pleasure. They should give him it.

I stood near her. She was squeezed in between me and tree. She was enjoying that too. My body against her.

These girls don't have any sense at all. She deserves this.

"Kiss me girl," I commanded.

"Why don't you say my name?"

I know her name but I shouldn't say it. Many bad boys in the book act like they don't know it. I should have a ego.

"Do you need the kiss or not girl?"

She cupped my cheek. She is expecting me to cup her cheek. 

I won't. Ego... Ego... Ego... Keep the ego. 

She kissed me after waiting for me to cup her cheek which I didn't. She was kissing me. I didn't kiss her. I don't know what to do? She was trying to chew my lips like a chewing gum. I have to do the same I think. I started doing it. She was rubbing my cheek with one finger. I won't repeat that. Ego... Addar.

CATHERINE.

A face came to my mind - CATHERINE'S FACE

Why?? She insulted me. Am I not kissing her because of Catherine?

I cupped her cheek and kissed her. I was rough now but MEN are always rough. I was kissing like a mad man. She was making some noises too.

CATHERINE! Again and again. Her face is coming to my mind. I am not the same guy. I can kiss girls. I am not that same loyal guy. I can kiss her.

I pulled away and ran. 

I don't care if it is rude, boys are rude. But why can't I kiss her? What is happening? CATHERINE! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS??

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AUTHOR'S NOTE

What do you think about Addar?

I think I am doing a good job saying about his mind.

I hated writing the last part. Please understand that I say many things in this book. They are not my feelings or words or opinion.

I used to read Ramanichandran (she is a Tamil love story writer) novels. I loved her characters. I thought how I will react to a certain scene. I have my version of stories. "Her Dreams" is a result of my life in her novels. I used to think I am in her novels.

I still read like that. That is why I comment less in bad boy chapters.

This book is a result of lot of my experience. I was bullied for not watching po*n and ignorance on s*x.

Now, It is time for Raksha Bandhen message.

Brothers are like streetlights along the road, they don't make distance any shorter but they light up the path and make the walk worthwhile.

You will always be my best friend, looking out for me, making sure the path I traveled on was smooth. Even if I searched the world over, there cannot be  better sisters than You all.

Wishing You Life's Best Always.
We will always be close, looking out for each other even when life led us along different paths..

Wishing you a joyous Raksha Bandhan from your Dear Brother.

The loving occasion of Raksha Bandhan is the best time for me to thank you all. You didn't just read my book. You made sure I am happy when I was sad.

Thanks for spreading smiles everywhere and making life so beautiful, meaningful and Happy... My Dear Sisters.

I will never say no, I will never say thats impossible and I will never say you can't. That's your bro, a superman who make things possible and who make paths smoother. I love you sisters.

I tried to send photos to every individual sister. I can't send to many as I didn't have any contacts.

Sorry, for not wishing you individually.

I thought of wishing in my profile but people don't see that. Then I thought of this. I believe this update was good as I was in hurry.

Have a blessed life sisters.

Take care be safe and stay blessed

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Teaser: Big secret about Catherine. Addar is sculpted into a bad boy by Sri

-Yagappar